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Boxing was an accident.
But I enjoyed it anyway. It’s a fun sport.
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Quick draft:
Talking about wanting a harem
I told these people again and again, back when I was living in Khandallah, which might be 24 months ago now, and when we first raised the issue of harems, that I did not want a harem.
They asked me again and again, “do you want a harem”, “do you want a harem”. I said no, not really. I don’t want a harem on your terms. It would be too coercive. And I don’t want to coerce women into having sex with me. It’s not my cup of tea.
By “harem” they meant do you want to have a bunch of “friends with benefits” supplied to you by us? Or if I were to use their language: By “harem” they meant do you want to have a bunch of “fuck buddies” supplied to you by us? Their preferred term was “fuck buddies”, I would have preferred the term “girl friends” or (voluntary) “friends with benefits relationships.”
Note: they wanted the harem to be a decentralised system of fuck buddies.
Note 2: Also, the women wanted to *be* the supply of fuck buddies. They wanted to *be* the harem.
I told them many, many, many times that I would prefer not to associate with them. And that I didn’t want a harem on their terms, and that I believed their type of harem to inherently coercive. To women.
But anyway, they used violence and threats to get me to “fight” for their harem. That is, to fight for the right to get them into bed, coercively.
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Unbeknownst to me, they pretended that my mind had been wiped. And that I had been “de-logos’d”, whatever that means. I’m not actually sure if it means anything sensible. I don't think that it means anything much.
But because of that assumption they felt entitled to ignore the things that I told them in favour of merely looking at my mental images and impressions.
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They also ignored me when I said things like, “I want nothing to do with you. You are all perverts, creeps and horrible people. If I had my way, I’d get healthy, leave town and never so much as speak to a single one of you again.”
They ignored me when I told them that I didn’t want them (the women) in my house, let alone my bed.
They ignored me when I told them that I would prefer to remain celibate.
They ignored me when I said that, “I just don’t value it”. That is, sex from a fae concubine aka dregvant sex worker.
They ignored me when I said, through playing music, to just “shut up and let me go!”.
The ignored me when I said that I just wanted to go back to university to study something like science. And that getting involved with them would be a bad and sad thing to have to do.
They also tried to define the system of harems as “domination” rather than coercion. But I think that’s an inferior choice of word. And I think that coercion is a much better choice of word.
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Coercion:
“Coercion is the act of forcing someone to do something against their will through the use of threats, intimidation, or actual force. It removes a person's free will by putting them in fear of negative consequences if they do not comply.”
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I tried to tell them that I didn't want to have a harem, because it's inherently coercive to the women. And I feel that that should be taken into account. I didn't want any of this.
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Ps: unrelated matter.
Some people have been lying, and suggesting that between the age of 20 and 22 that Brynn Huso was a "prospective lover". The truth is that she was merely a friend to me, not a prospective lover.
That's the quick version.
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And also they suggested that when she came to our home at 5 Weka Road, and visited to use our dining room table for sewing, or that when she used to show up after work and sat down in the lounge to wait for Amanda to show up back home so that she could socialise with her, that these were incidents of a romantic nature.
These were not incidents of a romantic or sexual nature. These were not decoded or interpreted as romantic advances by me. I did not see them as romantic advances, I did not feel that she was flirting with me. And I did not see her as a prospective romantic partner. She was a friend of mine, and a close friend of Amanda's. To me, Brynn was simply visiting because there wasn't enough space for her sewing stuff at home, or because she was waiting for Amanda to show up after Amanda finished commuting home for work.
Also, Amanda and I were married.
Finally, I think that Brynn + Siobhan confused and misled the computer system into thinking that these were events with romantic or relational undertones to them. I'm not sure what they did, but whatever it was, I think that it was dumb and dishonest. They are delusional.
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I actually want to just relax, sit and listen to music, sleep, read a bit (I’m reading the Swiss family Robinson), read poetry. Cook and eat proper food. And maybe listen to audiobooks (science fiction from the 30s, 40s and 50s for preference).
I’m hoping to take a week off before writing more. And the next thing I want to write is parts five and six of my life story.
* such as Asimov, Arthur C. Clarke, Robert A. Heinlein, Murray Leinster, Edgar Rice Burroughs, Randall Clarke. That’s what I feel like at the moment. I want trash! I need to relax!
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I just finished writing my life story part three and four.
^ this last one, is the one I just finished writing
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What I want most is to have the use of this violent technology on my body and brain banned. I really don’t care about women or money compared to that.
In exchange for that I would _probably_ be quite happy to give up access to the women and the money. I would be happy to give up posting to my website/s. And I would be okay with not doing the ideology that isn't an ideology, "reverse social engineering". Or posting political theories online.
And I need the use of this technology on my body and brain banned so that I can rehabilitate myself physically. Without interference.
However, I kind of don't have a great deal of faith or confidence in the idea that we can make such a deal or otherwise sort it out? It's too hard to negotiate.
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My father, Paul Solt, is an ITTF certified professional table tennis coach. He specialised in coaching women’s table tennis and youth table tennis. He is currently awaiting trial on charges of child molestation. He likes kissing little girls and touching them in between the legs (allegedly). There are multiple very serious charges against him. He is out on bail, but only on the condition that he is confined to his mother’s house in Karori. He is basically under house arrest.
The girl in question is thought to be half Chinese and half NZ European. She was about 11 years old at the time.
He has violated bail at least twice. Once by going to a prohibited location (the local swimming pool, he is banned from there). And once for coaching another little girl in table tennis (he is banned from coaching table tennis). He has been rearrested twice. And he spent several weeks in prison over the Christmas break.
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More information:
He used to be the vice president of table tennis New Zealand.
And he was the president of Wellington table tennis. His Facebook page said that he was president there for 12 years. He was also a prominent coach at Wellington table tennis for many years.
He accompanied the woman’s NZ team to Zagreb international tournament.
His son Matthew had a paid job with the ITTF.
Paul also has/had a business selling table tennis equipment. This was a significant source of income to him.
He was chairman of the board at Lake Taupo Christian School. He owns and has run an explicitly Christian business (Kingdom Music) for many years. His brother-in-law Andy Foster used to be his closest friend. Andy Foster used to be mayor of Wellington and is now a member of parliament.
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My father attacked me at my home three years ago. And tried to break in by kicking the door down. And then lied to the police about it. He also tried to have me institutionalised (filed a section 8b). I am actually in danger.
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Restatement:
Amanda and Brynn engaged in fertility fraud against someone that they had crippled for 5 ish years using science fiction weapons, and had previously harmed him very badly using these same science fiction weapons.
Since then, they (and their Chinese counterparts in what I am calling the China-Kiwi Partnership) have crippled him for an additional 3 years in an attempt to cover it up. It is actually a very serious crime. And they have also used corrupt doctors and police officers, as well as a corrupt lawyer from the public defence service to cover it up. And encouraged corruption at the department of internal affairs to help to cover it up. His father assaulted him, as part of a cover up. His father also filed a section 8b to get him institutionalised or controlled by mental health services. He did this as part of a cover up. And Brynn and Siobhan have been stalking and harassing him, hanging around his property again and again.
The Chinese have supported this operation for years. As full partners.
I would very much like to have a bit of peace and quiet where I can write up my story comfortably.
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I used to engage in a bit of amateur political theorising as a way to keep my mind alert and active. It was a pastime, and a bit of a passion project. It found it to be interesting. It was a hobby.
What else? I used to educate myself long term so that one day I could become an inventor (aka ideas guy + engineer). Even when I was sick, I was still training my mind with the end goal in mind of becoming an inventor. And I was still educating myself to that end.
I wasn’t a hardcore political activist. I was a cripple who was crippled by the “Kiwi/China Partnership”.
Note: one aspect of my theorising was called “reverse social engineering”. It was a big topic, but not the only one. Perhaps it is better to not focus entirely on “labels” or “categories”.
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If you pick on a hobbyist inventor, he might just invent something! A hobbyist engineer from an English (And New Zealander) background might just invent something super useful, when pressed!
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The Chinese and Kiwi partnership crippled me for seven years, that is from late 2017 to late 2024.
They then crippled me for one year from approximately April 2025 to April 2026.
This means that they have crippled me for 8 years.
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Prior to that, they harmed me very badly for many years. Which I would like to write about sometime soon. This includes a number of years (2012-2017) as an invalid. Although exactly how you account for the years 2010 - 2012 is a good question. I would say that I was an invalid, and incapable of working a job, or studying, as well.
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They tell lies and mislead people about this. And “play silly buggers” when I try to set the record straight.
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I used to engage in a bit of amateur political theorising as a way to keep my mind alert and active. It was a pastime, and a bit of a passion project. It found it to be interesting.
What else? I used to educate myself long term so that one day I could become an inventor (aka ideas guy + engineer). Even when I was sick, I was still training my mind with the end goal in mind of becoming an inventor. And I was still educating myself to that end.
I wasn’t a hardcore political activist. I was a cripple who was crippled by the “Kiwi/China Partnership”.
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Some History and Backstory
I tried to opt out of this system (and the fae in general) on ethical grounds.
I thought that it was unethical (immoral) to join it, because it is cruel to others.
I thought that it might be unethical to try to fight against the system. That is, to engineer some "solutions" that might "disrupt" the system enough to bring it down in favour of a true and genuine democracy. The reason I felt that it might be unethical is that there was perhaps a 20-30% chance that I might actually be too good at it, and actually take it down, causing mass civil wars and associated carnage. This is because I thought that my political theories and skill as an inventor (innovator, ideas guy, technologist, generalist and engineer) might be too strong for them.
And so I tried to opt out of fighting against the system.
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Furthermore, I tried to opt out of having a harem, because I thought that it was inherently coercive.
I told them that in theory I wouldn’t mind a voluntary “libertarian” harem, where women offered to sleep with me indefinitely. Because they wanted to. But that their “models” for a harem seemed silly and horrible. And were inherently coercive, and so I didn’t want them.
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Lastly, I have many times requested a face to face conversation with someone sensible so that I might discuss these issues with them.
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^It is still a work in progress. But it’s very useful and well worth reading.
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By the way, if I get the information that I want from the DIA. Brynn and Amanda would probably end up going to jail. Paul will probably have his assault case reopened, and perhaps be charged with a crime for making a false report to the police and then having a health professional file a section 8b. An 8b is when you try to get someone committed. Furthermore, the DIA, NZ police and the DHB will all end up very embarrassed. And "Fertility Associates" (our country’s biggest fertility clinic) may also end up with bad publicity. Perhaps also experience civil consequences or criminal charges. Or job losses, or loss of honours (two of them were members of the NZOM). And the local free youth clinic might look really, really bad. Also, I would probably end up with custody! Although, she might have a foster family until I can physically function…
So the incentives are that they should double down...
AND my uncle was mayor too, while I was crippled and in that place. And is currently in parliament is Chairperson of the Transport & Infrastructure Select Committee, as well as other roles. He is in our nationalist party.
Ps: I tried multiple times to get information from the dia and fertility associates . But they denied me access to information that is rightfully mine, again and again. They did this because Brynn (or someone similar) was whispering in their ear. Furthermore, Amanda used to work for The Charities Commission, as part of the DIA.
Janet Turnbull (NZOM) works/worked for the DBH and the ORA. She made a false report. A very, very false report. In writing. In an attempt to sanitise this situation. She is a very prominent doctor and a lesbian.
Added: it is also fairly likely that I would be able to sue both Amanda and Brynn, as well as fertility associates, for quite a bit of money. And also reopen the question of spousal maintenance and/or child support and/or divorce settlement. Basically, it could involve quite a bit of money. So I guess that it is no surprise that Brynn is so “anti” me… And so desperately wants control. Ditto for the Chinese.
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The negatives of having to talk inside my own head to interact with their systems probably are about equal to the positives of having access to easy, guilt free sex with intelligent attractive women who don't have diseases and don't want to get pregnant.
I don't want to use the inner apparatus of my mind to interact with their computer systems or social structures. That is a misuse of the human mind. In many ways, I have a good mind, and I just don't like these “psychic” conversations.
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To the Chinese part of the set.
Can you "burn" the whole operation:
Pull all support from Brynn, Siobhan, Grace, Amanda, Sarah (lawyer)
Also from Paul, Matthew, Joseph Chapman, Jesse
Maybe Andrew London, unsure if still involved.
The main ones are Brynn, Siobhan, Amanda, Sarah (lawyer) and Paul.
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By the way
I have a ton of my story written down on paper, but I haven’t got it put together yet.
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Abundance
If you want to know how we came to have such an abundant society, please listen to this lecture series.
The Industrial Revolution by Patrick N. Allitt of Emory University.
It’s very good!
Note: for some of you, this is old news. You’ve already learned a lot of it. And you can skip it. But even a lot of you who are educated and have read a lot of books could enjoy a lecture series like this one.
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Brynn Huso is the genetic mother of Lily, who was conceived by means of IVF. This was done without my knowledge or consent. This is a criminal matter, and could land both Brynn and Amanda in jail. And put Lily in foster care (or in my custody! If I were well enough and free!!). She is the one who has been speaking into everyone’s ears. By wifi.
Note: pictures of Brynn and Lily and Amanda are available on my other website. Alongside DNA test results. This constitutes evidence as far as I am concerned.
Ps: I am still working on my life story. That is my main goal.
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Ps: back when running around for those 6-7 months... I was led to believe that I might be crippled if I so much as stopped following instructions, let alone started speaking up. And I thought I might be kept crippled for months or years. And I knew given that I hadn't fixed my torso, it would be easy to re-cripple me. And so I didn't speak up.
Second unrelated issue:
I was led to believe that to "win" the overall prize, that I was required to do something gross or pervey. However, I was also led to believe (or believed) that merely engaging in sex in general should be enough to win me "the magic wand", and with it my health back. But as it so happened, it was not enough..:
The pervey acts: anal or "a burger".
The act to get my health back "one cream pie", is what I was led to believe would have been sufficient...
Both of these paragraphs are unedited ^ and quickly written.
It is very important that I communicate this.
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Multiple words to describe the same thing
丑女 / 醜女 (chǒu nǚ): Used in both modern and traditional contexts.
丑陋的女人 (chǒu lòu de nǚ rén): More descriptive, meaning "an ugly woman".
媸 (chī): A formal or literary character specifically denoting an ugly woman.
醜女 (traditional) or 丑女 (simplified) are often used for describing an ugly woman, according to and.
丑女人 (chǒu nǚ rén): A more colloquial and often insulting way to refer to an ugly woman.
母夜叉 (mǔ yè chā): A term for a fierce, malicious, or ugly woman.
Can a woman be described as a mǔ yè chā or chǒu nǚ? Or does exactly only one of them get to be true?
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If you make a banana cake, can you be cooking, baking, or preparing. Three terms.
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English Culture: an unhinged and disorganised rant
William Wordsworth, Samuel Taylor Coleridge, John Keats, Lord Byron, Percy Bysshe Shelley, and William Blake, Jane Austen, Bronte, Edgar Allen Poe, (Goethe)
^I don't like these people. They don't represent us.
We are the people of the electromagnet, electricity, electric motors, the steam engine, the telegraph, the power loom, wool industry, coal mine, boot manufacturing and shoe industry, tableware manufacturing and silverware manufacturing industry. Faraday, Rutherford, Alexander Graeme Bell, Brunel, Telford. We are more to do with engineering and the royal society.
Who? The UK and colonies such as Australia, New Zealand and Canada. As well as the New England colonies and the Scottish and English that settled there.
If you want to know what English culture is, then take a class on electromagnetism. Wind a magnet, read about faraday, visit Rutherford's old lab in Christchurch, read J.E. Gordon. Go sailing, get drunk on rum while at sea. And have a gin and tonic. Pour gallons of terrible tea down your throat. Practise chemistry, read about Humphrey Davies. Marvel, absolutely marvel at the beauty and wonder of British shoe design, boot design, leather working and industrial weaving technology. Chop up your dinner with a Sheffield knife and drink something out of a Wedgwood mug. We are more to do with wool, textiles, tableware, knife ware, cutlery, boats and shipbuilding, alcohol, tea, BOOTS, Dunlop leather shoes and associated technologies, than poems about love, shrubs, hedges and flowers.
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Also, we are not defined by King Arthur, camelot, chivalry, lord of the rings or any of that, or as I said above, the romantic movement. The romantic movement was a reaction against who and what we actually were. We are the people who made good and affordable consumer goods available and ubiquitous. Shoes on every foot, blankets on every bed, furniture in every home, coats on every back, and hats in every head. Books on every shelf and pens in every hand. We made the material realities of life possible. And we have one of the oldest living intellectual traditions in the world, and two of the best and oldest educational institutions ever in existence (like Cambridge and Oxford). Our intellectual scene is amazing (even though a decent thwack of evil is to be found in there).
And it isn't the Spanish, French, Swedes or Norwegians, or the Polish or Latvians or Italians or Portuguese. I'm not talking about them. It's the British, the English, the Scottish. And associated colonies and former empire. Ps: the Germans do tons too.
If you want to know more, then please look at this lecture series. It's very good, and not too tough, not even for ESL people or the poorly educated (ymmv).
Bottom line: the romantic movement sucks. Magnets, electricity and mass manufacturing are better.
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The British invented chocolate bars. See also: fry’s.
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I would very much like to have Brynn expelled from my life, she is a bad egg. I would like to bypass all other questions, conversations and discussions on the matter, and merely to have her expelled.
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I engaged in amateur political theorising as a hobby. I would theorise in the area of democratic reformism, social engineering and total civilisation redesign. I did this for many years. I would come up with ideas, create theories and frameworks. I would engage in study and research. I would create sample policies. And at one point I created a design philosophy called reverse social engineering.
I also have spent years of my life wanting to become an inventor/scientist. And to that end I have read a lot of books, learned a lot of things, and educated myself quite a bit. I have practised some of the techniques associated with creativity and problem solving. These include things such as brainstorming, keeping an ideas book, "daydreaming and ideas walks", wide reading in a number of topics, extensive reading. And also I tried to learn a variety of skills that might later synergise with inventiveness and innovation (such as computer programming, design, 3d graphics, woodwork, metalwork, working with magnets etc). I also went to university to study business.
I used to engage in my hobby of political theorising to keep my mind active and healthy. And to pass the time. While I was very unwell and/or crippled.
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These inventions could be used to stymie the sex trafficking and sex slavery of women. With these inventions actually in place all across the world, women could seek refuge and decide for themselves if they want to keep on being sex workers. If they choose to exit sex work, they could find a way to _physically_ make it happen. They would also have time and space in their own minds where they could think it through, and at the end of the day they would be _free to choose_ for themselves how to live.
Don’t forget, many of these women were trafficked in childhood too.
With any luck, there might be a mass exodus.
See also: Exodus: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Book_of_Exodus
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Ever since I was 8ish years old. I have wanted to be an inventor. But more importantly, I have worked on the skills associated. Like keeping ideas books, improving my brainstorming skills, dreaming up and developing ideas while walking (I loved walking, because it gives me time to think), learning new skills and reading many books, reading to improve my general and specific knowledge to help me to become an inventor.
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Jim Elliot was one of the sorts of person I looked up to when I was young.
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They used science fiction weapons to cripple me for seven years.
I just don’t think that’s right.
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I got heaps of blood tests, as a part of trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I need to get back to writing my story. I even got weird tests too. Like allergy tests, GTT (glucose tolerance, 2 hr test), over night sleep studies and lots of stuff. They tested a lot of things.
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Yes, the Chinese government has significantly embraced and revived Confucianism in recent decades, shifting from strict rejection under Mao Zedong to adopting it as a tool for promoting social stability, cultural identity, and ideological alignment with socialist goals. Under Xi Jinping, the party encourages Confucian values like hierarchy, social responsibility, and filial duty to bolster social order and bolster national identity.
And they still use Han Chinese characters. Which are almost inextricably tied in with Confucius and his Analects, which is the reference work for the Chinese characters themselves (see also the field of philology).
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I did amateur hobbyist political theory between 2017 and 2022. I did it to keep myself sane and to keep my mind active. I was very unwell after all. I was totally crippled! But I wasn’t a political activist. Not in any real or meaningful sense.
I used to also invent political theories for fun as far back as 2009? But that was mostly related to economics.
I also have always enjoyed creating ideas for things like video games, inventions and housing developments. And used to have a hobby of studying and learning about things like architecture, criminology, history and the social sciences.
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Did Brynn have ivf babies up her sleeve? Like, pre fertilised eggs ready to go. So it would be easy to get herself pregnant, and fast. And right DNA.
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I was a civilian, and a non combatant. And they made me sick for four years, an invalid for five, and crippled for seven. During those years, I used to come up with political ideas. Including a set of ideas loosely called "reverse social engineering. It wasn't an ideology, but if it was, it was one that hoped to make society into a "genuine democracy". But I was just coming up with ideas as a hobby to keep myself sane. My life was horrible.
After I got out of that situation, and found out how bad things were, and that I had been crippled (electronically) on purpose, and kept that way for years. I wanted to be apolitical, throw the money and the women away, and then be left alone to live out my life in peace.
After how much I had suffered, I just wanted to be left alone to live my life in peace. That's how bad those 7 years were (and the previous 5 weren't so great either!).
(As for the ideas: It was also supposed to destroy "control mechanisms", put the power to do actual social engineering into the hands of the people, place power over the culture into the hands of the people, instead of the UN or universities and stuff. We would let the people themselves be cultural architects (architects of their own culture, by democratic means). And give people the capacity for self governance, self ownership etc at the nation state level. And control mechanisms, I saw education and the media as control mechanisms. And so I wanted to do something about those too.
Furthermore, I always felt that reverse social engineering would have to be done by means of a physical invention, or intervention, and that mere policies would be insufficient. And it was “a hobby of an inventor”. Or the hobby of a man who wanted to be an inventor. So it is natural that given that the main thing I wanted to do would supply the goods for the other thing unwanted to do. The invention would have to be scalable. And once the invention was created, then the policies would work).
Please restore me to health, but more importantly, please ban the use of the tools that were used on me to cripple me, and also has been used to execute my grandfather (yes, he was already old and had other problems, but they did take him out in the end, using these same tools, and it took ages).
Ps: I always wanted to be an inventor
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I want the use of this technology on my body to be banned completely. That is, no messing with my muscles or my brain.
They used it to make me into an invalid for five years and a cripple for seven. They also have made me a cripple for a further ten months. It’s too horrible.
They crippled me for seven years, and because of that I want the use of this technology banned on my body. I don’t want to have it tightening up my neck muscles, psoas, iliacus, shoulders or chest. I also don’t want to have it affecting my brain.
I suffered so much in those seven years that the moment I found out (in mid 2024 iirc) that my being crippled was caused electronically, I just wanted to be allowed to have my health back, and to be left alone forever. I wanted nothing to do with these people called the fae. I just wanted to be able to live out my life in peace. I wanted to spend my time reading, drinking tea, and to have a cat.
The women violently forced me to participate in games where they tried to force me to desire them. Ahahaha. Is there anything more pathetic than a middle aged woman who is desperate to have men be crazy about her (Or women).
I just wanted to be left alone to live my life in peace.
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Topic:
I want to be healthy
I wanna be able to do star jumps, jump rope, bush walks, squats, planks and pushups before I get involved with women, or otherwise consider myself healthy. Also, I can't even shower! And I very much want to get some dental work done. By the way, a filling cracked and fell out the other day.
Ps: I am contented with push ups from my knees, but the squats should be good squats.
Being healthy again is much, much more important to me than women. I also would like to spend time going for walks and reading.
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Amanda and Brynn
Amanda and Brynn have been a couple since high school. I didn’t know about this. At least not until I found out in 2022.
They are a serious couple. Also, Brynn and Lesley get along and are fairly close. Lesley is kind of like Brynn’s mother in law. The used to go camping and tramping together, along with Amanda. They are like family. Basically they are family. Lesley is Amanda’s mother, and used to be my mother in law. Amanda and I are now legally divorced by the way.
Amanda and Brynn had a baby together. Using my sperm and Amanda's egg. Using IVF. They did so without my consent or knowledge. This is very, very illegal. They then tried to cover it up using the (corrupt) New Zealand police and the (corrupt) New Zealand courts and the (corrupt) public defence service of New Zealand. And they crippled me for seven years as part of bringing this about. I have also been sick and/or an invalid for years because of people like this.
They wanted my babies. This is partly because they wanted a baby with high iq, I guess. But also because they wanted to damage my life.
And now Brynn wants to become my long term "partner". And at one point she wanted to have 4 babies with me. She violently threatened me and coerced me into agreeing to have 4 babies with her. And two with another friend and associate of hers (Grace).
I don’t want to have children with Brynn!
I also don’t want to have children with Grace!
I don't want Brynn. And I don't like her. By the way, she and I used to be friends! We were friends before all of this happened.
We were friends many years ago, before all of this happened. And long before I discovered that Amanda was living a double life.
I would like to discontinue my association with Brynn Huso. She is a bad person.
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They commit fertility fraud. It is a serious crime. And they did it to a cripple/invalid. And they have been harassing and stalking me for years in an attempt to cover it up. They have been engaging in intimidation and stalking. This is actually a very serious criminal matter.
They also recruited friends to help. Including Siobhan, who was stalking me. Her friend Siobhan showed up in Christchurch, Auckland and Te Anau (I think she showed up in Te Anau).
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Next topic…
The Partnership: China and New Zealand
There is a partnership that has existed for many years. I call it the China/Kiwi Partnership. And they…
They made me sick for four years, an invalid for five years, and crippled for seven years. This happened alongside being sold out by my family; and lied to by my family, friends, in-laws, doctors, physiotherapists and church, and viewed for years on a metaphorical camera for years. Given that this happened, reality basically has ceased to exist (emotionally and psychologically, sort of). Even parliamentarians sat back and watched it happen, and our prime minster (Ardern) said that my treatment was state sanctioned. And my Uncle was Mayor of Wellington during three years of it.
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They crippled me for seven years. And they did so in a manner that was thoroughly disgusting and disturbing. Because of that, I am unwilling to follow instructions from them.
For a while, I was willing to follow instructions, because they pretended that they were going to give me my health back if I "won" their game. But I now know that they were dishonest about that.
They crippled from 2017 to 2024. They also made me an invalid from 2012 to 2017 and sick from December 2006 until 2012*.
*There are a few minor exceptions to that last point.
The experience of living like I lived from
2017-2024, living crippled like that, is a source of genuine and extreme horror to me. And now they have crippled me in much the same way again.
Genuine and extreme horror: You don’t have to believe me for it to be true.
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I am hoping that I can get a bit of rest, and then write a bit more. My back hurts.
I have some basic housekeeping, and blog updates to do as well. Normal house stuff to do.
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Ummm. I would like to wind this whole situation up. Or I would have like to have already done it! But the other guys don’t know how to negotiate 😅. It’s crazy tbh!
What else, oh. I know. I reckon that these people wanted to use “silver chains” on me. Which is that they use the techniques and tools on my body to control me, and torment and harm me, that were already used to cripple me for seven years, and were actually used to kill my grandfather.
To modify my body, as they have, and then to use these tools to further harm me, or make me suffer, or to torment me… is a non-starter. And to think that they wanted to combine it with sexual relations with women? Carrot and the stick. It is clearly a non-starter. They are just being backwards.
Also, they were supposed to restore me to health already. Just for landing Dasha.
Ps: China is just “backwards” and bad at categorisation. As well as being sub par when it comes to abstract thinking.
FWIW, I think that their language (and grammar) is to blame. But maybe that is a conversation for another day.
Extra note: I spoke with the Chinese earlier, and they seem to be somewhat dismissive of higher level abstract thinking in general.
Extra note: I spoke with the Chinese earlier, and they seem to be somewhat dismissive of higher level abstract thinking in general.
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The Chinese want me to prove to them that I was crippled for seven years. By the Chinese/Kiwi set. And to explain to them why and how it happened.
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And they keep putting it all in categories such as “de-conditioning” or something.
Or they try to suggest that if I made it for a walk to the end of the street once, with great difficulty I might add!, then it counts as that I wasn’t too crippled to walk down the street. But this is just to misuse abstract thinking.
They don’t use categories properly.
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Also, just to reiterate:
They made me sick for four years, and an invalid for 5 years and then crippled for 7 years. Then had a bit of time outside to roam, and now I have been crippled for about 10 months.
The time I had outside to roam was weird, and I was still fairly limited in my ability to move properly.
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To modify my body, as they have, and then to use these tools to further harm me, or make me suffer, or to torment me… is a non-starter.
^The prospect of this would be a source of horror for me…
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This following update was added already to my life story parts three and four.
Amanda and religion
Amanda became a Christian back in high school. I met her when we were fifteen. I had just moved from one town to another. And I didn’t know anyone. We up ended sitting together in mathematics (they put me in mainstream math, ugh, I had done very badly in the streaming test for reasons I have explained elsewhere). She and I were also in Accounting and Japanese together. We quickly became friends.
She was a troubled girl with a less than ideal upbringing. When I first met her, she had claimed that she was molested by her step father (her mother’s husband). She also told me that her father was an alcoholic and exposed her to drug use. She had a lot of stories about her father, who she really didn’t seem to like.
She was vaguely associated with the same set of people who also went to the Coast Community Church, without being one of them. She had gone, on occasion to church events or evenings, but it wasn’t her cup of tea. I was an attendee of the Coast Community Church. It was my “home church”.
When she was about 17/18, she became a Christian. Partly I think it was because her Nana Kath suggested it and gave her some religious literature, and partly because I invited her along to church.
We believed in things like salvation and the forgiveness of sins. And of being a new person. She came along to church with us. She was baptised. The idea is that you are saved, forgiven, and that your sins are washed away, and that you have “become a new person in Christ”. She did a pre baptism course with the Cotton family, who were a respected family at our church. She was baptised by Stan Rolston, one of the longterm elders of the church. Later on we volunteered with the youth group a bit, in our early twenties.
Jesse Orchard was a mutual friend, his father, Geoff Orchard, was (and is) an elder. I think that he may have been merely a deacon back then? But I cannot recall. Nathan Thatcher was also a mutual friend. Nathan and Jesse were both school friends and church friends. Ditto for Ashley King. John and Lauren Cosgrove were church friends of ours also. A lot of mutual friends and acquaintances visited our church, or attended it. If even for just a couple services, or a few youth group events. It was fairly popular back when I was 15/16, and Andrew Crawshaw was still running it. Rachael Burston came along a bit as well. She was Amanda’s closest friend in High School.
Amanda and I were the sort of couple who talked about religion or belief often, and would pray before bed. I used to read and study the Bible often.
More information about Amanda’s parents and drug use.
Amanda used to say that her dad passed out drunk a few times in front of her. And on one occasion she thought he was dead. And then she had to climb out of the window, to go home. And that after that she didn’t see him for ages. She said that when she stayed with him as a child, the house was always cold, dirty and horrible. They didn’t have enough blankets etc. Her father was a punk, and had actually joined or started a band. He was that type. The band was called “Goat Rider”, and on stage he used to ride a rocking horse with a goat’s skull on it while breathing fire. And on one occasion, his hair caught fire. They even showed me the video one day. He had since quit drinking and become a lay teacher in the Anglican Church (He was a member of St. Mark in Raumati Beach). He later got a masters degree in theology. His job was a copy editor, or editor, or in charge of layouts for magazines or something. He worked on the magazine for the nursing council of NZ (which is a respected Government entity).
Her mother was an alcoholic also. But according to Amanda, “never used to drink around Amanda” when Amanda was growing up. Lesley drank way too much all her life, and she still does, as far as I know. She also was a neglectful mother who didn’t feed Amanda proper food. And used to feed her too much sweet stuff. Amanda ate too much junk food when she was young. And even had to have baby teeth removed!! And this led to her adult teeth growing in wrong and crooked. Which is disturbing!?
Amanda also engaged in self harm back in high school, and used to cut herself with pieces of glass. And at one point had cuts on her arms. All over her arms. It’s horrific. I don’t understand why teenage girls are like this!
Her Nana Kath was a good influence on Amanda. And encouraged Amanda to become a Christian.
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What else…??
The Orchard family
The Orchard family consisted of Geoff and Christine Orchard, Jesse Orchard, David Orchard, Karl Orchard and Annalise Orchard.
I spent plenty of time with them both as a teenager and afterwards. When I first moved to Kapiti, my father was a member of the CCC (before switching to the Meadows Pentecostal Church). Dad encouraged me to be a part of their life.
Jesse Orchard later married Natalie Hymers. I used to work alongside Natalie Hymers as a cleaner. We both went to Paraparaumu College. And we both went to the CCC youth group. She was a flatmate of ours, and very difficult, filthy and messy. We worked to basically “house train” her. She was a friend. Her mother and step father were meth addicts who abused and neglected their children.
Geoff ran a joinery, the orchard joinery. It was the family business. Christine worked in the joinery a little bit too. But was mostly an office worker and home maker. Their family was briefly over in Papua New Guinea as missionaries. Also, Jesse used to attend the local Christian school which used to have the ACE system. The local Christian school was located on Tutanekai street, which is exactly right beside KYS, the local free youth medical clinic.
David Orchard married Emma (I forget her maiden name), who had previously dated Andrew Crawshaw. Andrew Crawshaw was the youth pastor for a while at the CCC. And baptised me. Andrew Crawshaw later boarded at our house, and has also worked for my father. He is a musician, and also ran a music shop for a while in Kapiti. David Orchard became a youth pastor. He and his wife worked at “Kapiti Impact Church”. And then worked at the Zeal Youth Development Centre. For all I know, he might still be there.
What else?
Both David Orchard and Jesse Orchard faked having “chronic fatigue syndrome” and/or “post viral fatigue syndrome”.
David Orchard faked having cfs back when I was about 17-19. He had months and months of it. He had to quit his job, and it was horrible. People acted as though he was dying, or that he was experiencing something like terminal decline. He just slept all day, and couldn’t do anything. He was married, and his wife Emma had to support the both of them. They moved as a couple up north to Auckland, because they wanted to work in ministry. And then while he was up north, a pastor prayed for him, and he was miraculously healed. It was at a healing meeting at a pentecostal/charismatic church. He was healed just in an instant. He actually gave a talk up front in the CCC to tell us all about his miraculous healing. It was a big deal. He went from sick and feeling awful, to being out-and-about and exercising again. Just straight away he was doing stuff like kayaking and getting fit. He actually did have problems for years, and eventually had a shoulder surgery. But I’m not sure if this was related to the cfs.
I also stayed with David and Emma for about 3-4 days when I was 18. He just slept all day. How it happened is that my father went away for a week, and needed a space for me to stay, because he didn’t trust me to stay home alone without him for a week (!!!). I was put into Jesse Orchard’s house for that week. My father and Jesse’s father arranged it. They had known one another for a fair while. But then Jesse’s grandfather died and they needed more space at the Orchard’s house for visiting relatives. And so I ended up staying a few nights with David and Emma Orchard, at the house where they were house sitting. It was a fairly nice house, with a nice pet dog. And only 5 minutes walk away from my usual place of residence at Linwood Drive. Anyway, he had “Chronic Fatigue Syndrome” and was very unwell. I say faking, but I think he actually had symptoms. And that his symptoms were electronically induced. He looked unwell. He looked awful, dreadful, or whatever adjective you prefer.
Jesse faked having CFS when I was about 19-21 (I can’t fully recall exactly when he “had” it). But anyway, he became sick. Natalie and he had just become a couple. She was his girlfriend. And then he got sick. And he had about 18 months as a sick person. I forget exactly how long. But I was sick at the same time. We were friends and both sick. He played a lot of World of Warcraft. He rode on his exercise bike (graded exercise therapy), to prevent de conditioning, and he took Powerade which he made from powder to maintain electrolytes. He went to many, many doctor’s appointments. And he got a lot of blood tests. His brother used to drive him to appointments. He was as sick as a dog. He did balance table therapy as well (which just made him unwell). He lived at home with his parents. He probably had electronically induced symptoms.
As part of his story, he claimed that he was healed through prayer. But then he later changed his story to say that it was just counselling and quitting world of warcraft. He also said that playing world of Warcraft gave him a “fake sense of achievement”. What else? He had later stints of poor health in his life, and he never really did much in life. He did a diploma in IT in his late twenties. He was a high school graduate. He and I were friends. He was my best friend in high school. Which is complicated thing, okay? Because it was like.. by default? Because who else would fill that slot? Aaron? Amanda? Max? I felt like we weren’t hugely close, and I didn’t know him perfectly well. But who else? I definitely wasn’t his best friend, that seemed to be Chips (aka Jono), or “tall Daniel”, or Chris Westwood. But he was mine. Probably I felt like my closest “friends” were my family.
Chips was one of Jesse’s friends. He liked footman frenzy, and other Warcraft Three: Frozen Throne based games. He had a car, and used to drive people places. His real name was Jonathan East. He went flatting for a bit with Jesse and (tall) Daniel up in Palmerston North, which was a bit of a debacle. He tried to do an OE in the UK, which was a disaster. And then worked as a call centre operator for WINZ for a number of years.
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Christianity
I was a Christian, and quite religious. It’s difficult to explain that now. Because I’m on the outside of that whole thing, looking back in on it. I’m on the outside looking in, if that makes sense. And some of it is good, and some of it still makes sense to me. But some of it seems odd. And I have also have had a thoroughly horrible life in some ways.
So anyway, I was the type of person to do daily devotionals, read the Bible every day. I had Bible reading plans. I went to church and youth group. I kept attending church as an adult. I read Christian books, and borrowed books from the church library. What else? I went to pastors and elders for advice. David Walker and Jesse Orchard were both pastors kids. Mike McHocking was a pastor, and a family friend. And their family was important to ours. I didn’t trust non Christians, and I mistrusted liberal Christians. I went to Bible studies (such as the one ran by Jared and Amanda Doncliff), and even invited Jenna and Natalie along to it. Jenna briefly became a Christian, but that fizzled out. I was often to be found lying down in the middle of the lounge floor in 5 Weka Road, in front of the fireplace, reading the Bible. Accompanied by one or more cats. Later in my life I would listen to Christian podcasts and recorded sermons as a way to pass the time. I listened to an audio Bible recording, I listened to sermons, and I listened to ministry podcasts. I also grew up going to the parachute music festival. And I memorised scripture. I even had flash cards. And had a prayer journal, at one point.
Amanda and I were the sort of couple who talked about religion or belief often, and would pray before bed. I used to read and study the Bible often.
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John Jennings
I used to believe that it was important to have good people to talk to. Good Christians who you can trust. And there was this guy at church, John Jennings. And he had been friendly and kind to me on a number of occasions. For example, I had shown up at church on a couple of occasions too late for “youth lunch” when I was a teenager. And he offered to have me around to he and his wife’s house for lunch instead. Which I thought was very kind. He was also a greeter at church. As an adult, I got to know him a little bit. He had Amanda and I over to his place for dinner once (and he came to my place once also). And it was this idea I had, that you’re supposed to have good people able to speak into your life. To offer you advice and guidance. So we put ourselves out there. Anyways, he was the guy in our church who ran an ersatz Christian book shop. At dinner, Amanda and I told him the story of how we got married, and also how my health had fallen apart. That I had been diagnosed with “Chronic Fatigue Syndrome” by my doctor. And that I was now a university drop out, chronically ill and unable to work. He also showed me his shelf of Christian books for sale. He happened to have a copy of “Where is God When it Hurts” by Philip Yancey. Which I purchased. He also lent me a copy of “Exploring Church History: 20 Years of Christ’s People”. Which I later returned to him. In hindsight, nothing about anything he said or did was real. All fake. It’s sad.
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The Alexander Technique
Stuff from Google/Wikipedia
The Alexander Technique is an educational, mind-body approach that improves posture, movement, and coordination by helping individuals recognize and release chronic tension and harmful habits. Developed by F.M. Alexander in the 1890s, it focuses on freeing the relationship between the head, neck, and back to reduce pain and enhance ease of movement in daily activities.
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The Alexander technique is most commonly taught in a series of private lessons which may last from 30 minutes to an hour. The number of lessons varies widely, depending on the student's needs and level of interest. Students are often performers, such as actors, dancers, musicians, athletes and public speakers, people who work on computers, or those who are in frequent pain for other reasons. Instructors observe their students, and provide both verbal and gentle manual guidance to help students learn how to move with better poise and less strain. Sessions include chair work – often in front of a mirror – during which the instructor will guide the student while the student stands, sits and walks, learning to move efficiently while maintaining a comfortable relationship between the head, neck, and spine, and table work or physical manipulation.
In the United Kingdom, there is no regulation for who can offer Alexander technique services. Professional organisations do exist, however, typically offering three-year courses to people becoming instructors.
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David's Section:
It can help to relieve tension and alleviate symptoms.
It's kind of like a type of bodywork. Or some parts of it are like that. It's hard to explain. Just watch a video on YouTube if you're interested. It's not actually that useful. You're probably better off just walking, cycling and doing a short stint of tai chi (a whole bunch of tai chi). Although you shouldn't keep doing tai chi long term, it weakens you and ruins your posture. Even though it relieves tension.
The Alexander technique is a form of bodywork as well as education, and it helps to relieve tension. I think that charlatans also use it to mess with people.
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When I went to these lessons, I had already had my body messed with a lot by remote control. And my neck, back, chest, shoulders and inner hips had all been tightened up chronically. The whole thing was tightened up long term. And when I went to these lessons, and the moment they placed their hands on me, the remote control tightening ceased, and they released the hold that the computer had had on me. And so I enjoyed the tension releasing and tension dissolving benefits of the technique itself, as well as the feeling of having the cell tower remote control tightening released at the same time.
It was like magic. My whole body felt totally different. At the time, I believed it to be extremely beneficial. But it was at least 60% that they just ceased tightening up my body by means of remote control and the use of muscles!!
But just one lesson, and I felt like a whole new person. I felt human again, I could breathe again.
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Another note:
We (Amanda and I) spent weekends in Kapiti, often with Amanda’s family.
I rapidly became part of Amanda’s family.
I went to Christmas with them.
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Kapiti Coast, or Paraparaumu, and the lay of the land in general, a map.
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I saw a physio in my second year at university.
I had moved house. And Shane had hurled a set of drawers to me while moving house, I caught it awkwardly, and my shoulder clicked weirdly. It hurt for a while. And then when it didn’t feel right I went to the physio for some treatment, because it still hurt a bit. It was janky. He gave me some exercises etc. they didn’t help.
In fact, they made me feel blah. This is because my torso was locked down. My neck was tight, inner hip, and back and so on. And so the exercises made me feel bad.
The shoulder pain (right shoulder) went away when I had an Alexander technique lesson. The first lesson.
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In parts five and six, I intend to write about the times I went to the elders for prayer and advice, especially regarding my worsening health problems. Including going to the Elder Geoff who has had two sons with CFS.
In part seven (or later, which might cover from 2011 all the way until 2014), I might write about the time I reached out to Stan Rolston. I needed advice and guidance. I was very unwell, an invalid, and getting worse.
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Yes, the development of solid chocolate by J.S. Fry & Sons in the mid-19th century was heavily motivated by the desire to create a wholesome, non-alcoholic alternative to alcohol.
As devout Quakers and leaders in the temperance movement, the Fry family sought to offer an affordable, nutritious, and enjoyable product that could curb the consumption of alcohol, which was causing widespread societal issues at the time.
Key Aspects of Fry's
Contribution:The Temperance Movement: The Fry family (along with competitors like Cadbury and Rowntree) believed that providing a nourishing substitute could improve the lives of the working class, seeing their business as a way to serve a higher purpose.
The Invention (1847): In 1847, Joseph Storrs Fry, a grandson of the founder, created the first mass-produced solid chocolate bar by mixing cocoa powder, sugar, and melted cocoa butter, producing a paste that could be molded.
Marketed as a Substitute: The product was not only a technical innovation but a moral one; chocolate was promoted as a healthy, warming, and stimulating treat that could replace a visit to the pub.While solid chocolate existed in rudimentary forms earlier, Fry's invention in 1847—marketed as "Chocolat Delicieux a Manger" (Delicious Chocolate to Eat)—is recognized as the first commercially successful molded chocolate bar.
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