Drop box of garbage v3

Honestly, this page is a mess. Run away. Run far, far away!!?!?!

This is the new garbage dump. 

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Here is a a quick summary of a few things, it's pretty rushed (therefore there will be errors, mistakes and tone issues).

Quick history

My ex wife Amanda used a restraining order against me (aka a protection order) that she gained on false pretences (on grounds of “mental abuse”) to get rid of me and have me arrested, after keeping me crippled for five straight years so that she could get her hands on sperm to have a baby with her lesbian girlfriend Brynn Huso. After I was arrested and spent a night in a cell, I was charged with the crime of domestic violence in the form of “psychological abuse” against Amanda, and had to spend 19 months wrapped up in the legal system before I ended up getting a “discharge without conviction”. Amanda still has a restraining order against me (technically it is this thing called undertakings) because my lawyer from the PDS (public defence service) deliberately screwed me over. She didn’t investigate the parentage issues relating to Lily, even though it would have been easy for her to do so. I don’t have custody, and all visits have to be supervised.

At the arrest, six police officers showed up along with my father who had a key to the house. He got the key from Amanda. The previous day, he had shown up and attacked me. I had called the police and two officers attended the call out. Those two police officers were at my arrest, along with four others. They sided with my father. Furthermore, my father filed a complaint with mental health services to try to have me institutionalised (technically he tried to have me “sectioned”, by filing a form 8b). There is more about this on the page “attack and arrest story”.

I happen to quite like Lily, and would have liked to have had custody of her, if I had been physically healthy enough to care for her. But as I said, I was crippled. And at the time I didn’t know why or how I had become crippled. That is, I didn’t know what the root causes were. I had had no knowledge of these cell towers and satellites that can mess with your muscular tension or brain. Those electronic weapons caused me to become crippled, and cause me to remain crippled for a long time. This was done by a set of New Zealanders, with Chinese backing, support, oversight and funding. The Jacinda Ardern/Grant Robertson government was in parliament at the time, and had implicit oversight. Arden and Robertson could have intervened at any time, just with a few words. But chose not to. Ardern later told me that “my treatment was state sanctioned”. For more information about this period of time, please see “how I got this way part two”. It is a very important page. It is possibly the most important page besides background stories.

One of the police officers was a member of the NZ order of merit. Also, one of the doctors involved in the cover up and attempt to “sanitise” the situation is a member of the NZ order of merit, as well as being a government employee (ORA CCDHB) and a lesbian.

Furthermore, my father is currently under house arrest awaiting trial for multiple charges of child molestation.

Also, I have an uncle in parliament, who showed up at my home and was involved in the situation on multiple occasions. He was previously mayor of Wellington, our capital city.

Ps: my uncle killed my grandma using “wifi” and other techniques. She was in the nursing home and in her nineties, and he hounded her to death because she wanted to blab and talk about things with the other residents. She eventually took her own life, by means of euthanasia. Euthanasia is legal in New Zealand. I can’t confirm the facts of this one, but it happened recently. They were a Freemason family.

Further: my father killed my maternal grandfather (his former father in law) using wifi. He pulled at his body using his own muscles until he couldn’t walk. He became crippled and housebound, until he died altogether. This was back in 2015-2016. My grandfather never approved of my father, and disapproved of my father marrying his daughter (Dad never made enough money). The dispute between my father and my grandfather involved a woman. Something to do with my grandad wanted to use and enjoy the sexual services of (have sex with) one of the women my father was managing, and my father put his foot down and destroyed him physically. Grandpa wanted more women, in exchange for his keeping his mouth shut about my situation. His son Andy Foster was on the city council at the time, and was hoping to become mayor at some point in the near future, which he later succeeded in doing. I think Brynn was the woman my grandfather wanted to get his hands on. I think it had to do with settling old scores too. Disclaimer: there was some context when it came to health.

Amanda is infertile, and so she needed to use a donor egg from Brynn Huso. It was IVF.

Also, they have been stalking me. As far north as Auckland (even creeping into my hotel room), and as far south as Christchurch and Te Anau (a town just outside of Invercargill).

And they have threatened and blackmailed me into putting myself in danger many times, such as having me walk along the railing of the local highway overpass (over top of the train tracks), whereby I was pulled down by the police many times. They had me walk the perimeter of the rim of a tall building while badly impaired, even though I said again and again that I didn’t want to participate in anything they were pushing. And they had me jump off of an 8 foot stack of pallets, but tripped me at the last moment, so that I fell off, landing badly (I was supposed to land on my feet, but ended up landing in my hands and knees, breaking my fall as best I could, I ended up with a badly hurt knee for ages, but fortunately took the impact with the cartilage and my hands and knees rather than the bone.) It was in concrete! I was badly physically impaired at the time. (I am impaired by the lasting effects of what they did to my posture/torso-body-shape/form over a long period of time). I also jumped off a power box into a trolley, which cause me to hurt my hip badly when it slipped out from underneath me. And I got dumped off of a fence onto hard ground backwards winding me and bruising my ribs fairly solidly (and that was with me breaking my fall as best I could - thanks to reflexes developed in judo as a child! Not that I can break fall anymore. I can’t even move my arms properly. Just the reflexes). They also had me jumping off of tall objects many times in the hopes that I might damage  or break a foot. Even insisting that I remove one shoe and do it with one shoe and one sock sometimes. I would often bounce when I hit the ground with my feet and fall over landing on my side. Another point, many of the things they had me jump off were so high that they knocked the wind out of me. It’s been a crazy situation.

Please note: to understand this post, you probably need to be familiar with a bunch of other stuff that has happened in my life. And probably you need to have read “how I got this way part two” and my background stories page. And also the attack and arrest page. There is more stuff further down in the drop box of garbage v3 that relates to the IVF story, and I am engaged in the pursuit of additional information. I do acknowledge that many of the things I have written are quite disorganised and need to be rewritten.

Another ps: Amanda had wanted to start ttc for years before I became crippled in 2017. And we were ttc for years before she got pregnant with ivf. I didn’t want to be in that situation, but I was too sick to leave. I didn’t really want to be trying to get her pregnant. There was a lot of pressure placed upon me. There is a lot of context. I was so crippled that I couldn’t even safely walk down the street and back. And she still wanted to ttc (Try to conceive)!

Also, the nz set (with Chinese backing) wanted to force me to get a bunch of women pregnant, so that they could all have genius babies. Kind of like a eugenics and breeding scheme. I do not like this idea at all!!!

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IVF and cover up

Amanda used IVF and Brynn’s egg to have a baby using my sperm without my permission or written consent. Which is illegal, and could lead to jail time for multiple people.

I was exploited for reproductive purposes.

They then covered it up (or have attempted to do so) using the New Zealand courts (both the family courts and district courts) and the New Zealand police. They also used the services of Dr. Janet Turnbull (palliative care specialist, geriatrician and member of the NZOM (New Zealand order of merit, similar to a knighthood), head of the ORA (older adult, rehabilitation and allied health) which is a department of the CCDHB (the Capital and Coast District Health Board, which itself is a Government entity) to cover it up, along with my own doctors surgery (Raumati Beach surgery). Janet Turnbull is a very prominent doctor in the greater Wellington region. She pretended that I wasn’t as sick as I actually am/was, and put it in writing in a letter to my GP. She also falsely claimed that my health problems were caused by mere de-conditioning and a mood disorder. The letter can be found in a pdf on my other website.

The Department of Internal Affairs also participated in the cover up (lying and engaging in time wasting when I requested vital information about the parentage of my daughter just before going to court). I needed information before I went to court. I needed that information _just before_ I went to court. I lost money and custody, and had my health very badly damaged because of them in particular. I made a formal request in writing, using the correct forms, for information from the HART register, and they told me that they didn’t have the information I wanted. I think they hid the information.

Another participant was Andy Foster, who at the time was the mayor of Wellington, which is New Zealand's capital city. He is now a member of parliament, as part of our nationalist party, NZ First. He pretended that things were not as bad as they were and participated in the cover up. He came to my place to help cover it up, when they brought a justice of the peace to my place for the signing of a formal declaration regarding my “defence” of the protection order. More about this later, or another day. The idea was to prevent my having access to Lily, so that I could not seek justice. They wanted to screw up my defence of the protection order so badly that I could never properly spend time with her, let alone gain custody of her.

My father also called the mental health services on me, and filed a section 8b. To have me institutionalised. This was the day after he attacked me. It is because of my medical records that he was able to have me assessed. My medical records have items on it that suggest that I had a "mood disorder". This is because the doctors would prescribe drugs to me to treat what they called "chronic fatigue syndrome". And the drugs were often anti depressants, and sometimes anti psychotics or anti anxiety medication. At least one of my doctors in the past was a family friend. She is not a good person. She was a friend of my parents from back before I was born. She went to the same youth group and church as they did, and worked at the local charity youth clinic.

This all happened while I was totally crippled, and kept crippled by means of “electromagnetic spectrum remote control nerve splicing technology.” I.e. they “splice” directly into your nerves to control your muscles to tighten or slacken them etc (it’s a long story).

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By the way, Amanda used to work for the department of internal affairs, as an employee of the charities commission (which is a part of the department of internal affairs).

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Additional note: several of my doctors were/are employees of Wellington hospital, which is itself funded by the Government. Including one man by the name of Dr Peter Roberts and another by the name of David Waite (neurology). My GP at the time, Dr Amanda Clarke at KYS referred me to both of them.

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Amanda and her deranged desire to become pregnant even though I was an invalid (and then later crippled)

I was an invalid in the years 2012-2016. I was very unwell. And Amanda still wanted to get pregnant with me.

Even though I was an invalid (I really was quite unwell, please take a look at some of my other materials if you want to know more).

She wanted to get pregnant and she pushed for us to start trying for a baby, even though I was an invalid. 

I was an invalid because of the efforts of her and her clique (Amanda, Siobhan, Brynn, Lesley, Sarah [lawyer]; as well as Matthew, Paul and my mother). I was an invalid because of their satellites and cell towers. And she insisted that it was a good idea anyway. She had been pushing got us start "trying" for a baby for years (we had been using condoms for years), because her biological clock was ticking, and with age comes serious issues with fertility as well as the health, safety and well-being of the mother.

Looking back, it seems to me that it is deranged and monstrous that she and her clique had caused me to become an invalid and then once I was incapable of doing much in life was then pushing to have children.

My point of view at the time was that I didn't want children on grounds that we couldn't do a good job of raising a child in an appropriate manner. She was working full time, with a 60 minute commute each way into Wellington. I was unable to work or perform childcare, because I was so unwell. And she couldn't take care of her chronically ill, invalid husband at the same time as raising a child and earning a living. I also did not think that Amanda would be a good mother, because she clearly had mental issues and had a poor personality.

She had wanted to have a child for many years. And had been nagging me for years. It was only in 2016 that we started having sex without condoms. We had been using condoms for years, because she claimed that the pill caused her to have health issues.

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Then after we started "trying for children", that is once we stopped using condoms, I became crippled.

I became crippled (see other articles, much of it is explained there). That is, they crippled me. I became crippled shortly after we started "trying" for a baby. That is, having sex without condoms.

After I became crippled, I wasn't then able to have sex. Because I couldn't get on top. In fact, I could hardly walk. It had happened so suddenly. I also didn't really see it as important to start having sex again!! The experience of what happened was extra-ordinarily disturbing and traumatic. And sudden.

But she pushed for it to happen. And so we restarted sex. At this point I was totally crippled. And so we found a way to manage. I had to stand there, totally inert, at the foot of the bed. While she went on all fours on the bed, and pushed herself backwards and forwards. Like actually I just had to stand there glued to the ground. I couldn't move (that was what being crippled like that was). She wanted children, so I had to find a way to have sex. We figured it out. It was quite challenging. Because when your body is like that, you have to do so much even to support your weight, like shifting your balance all the time, and walking abound to "reset your spine". Being crippled like that makes you feel like your feet are glued to the ground. And also, the "relationship" between chest and upper back is inverted, which means your arms are not only pinioned to your sides (for six+ years) but also have no support, so you struggle to do even basic things like carry a frypan, an electric jug full of water, or a large Pyrex oven dish. It is not mere "deconditioning"

Another point the was that once I was crippled, I couldn't wash!! But she wanted to be able to have sex, and therefore have a child! I was so gross and filthy that I would have preferred to stop having sex. I literally couldn't shower. Or wash my hair. For 6 years. Or wash my backside. But she wanted to have sex anyway. For children, so we kept going. I thought it was crazy. But I didn't know how to fix my health? Or what was wrong. I couldn't even wash my hair for six years, and yet she still wanted to have regular sex, mostly for procreation purposes. Even though she clearly wasn't getting pregnant, and was pretty much infertile.

Also, there were implied threats of being pushed into an institution, like a care facility. Like a nursing home, for invalids. And that if I failed to adhere to the rules the (like being able to shower regularly), I might be thrown out. And having to leave my own home permanently. I was in no fit state to move. I was concerned that I wouldn't survive being relocated. I was worried that I literally wouldn't survive. Please remember that I had no idea why I had become crippled and why my body had stopped working. You also can't feel your body or bodily awareness properly. It also totally breaks your proprioception in every way for your body to be crippled like that. I am not sure that I can properly describe the "proprioception" issues. But they are quite severe, and debilitating.

She had been working on me to have children since the year 2011 or so. She wanted babies!! It was only around the time of 2016 that she persuaded me to start trying. She spoke often of her biological clock etc. And in the end, I thought that it was unfair that I hold out. And that if we didn't start trying, she might miss her chance to have children. Which were what she allegedly wanted most in life. She told me that family would help raise the child, and help financially. And to my mind, she had stuck with me through years of poor health. She was taking care of me through years and years of poor health. And that many people would have left their husband. We had a book on our shelves called "a promise kept", that made me think of our situation.

Ever since she was young, she had said that one of the things she wanted most was to just have a normal house, a good job, and children (She came from a broken home. Her father was an alcoholic, for example).

And then from the year of 2016 to 2022 we had frequent sex. We had stopped using condoms. We did this even though I was a cripple, and I couldn't even shower! I would have preferred to not be having sex. I was physically filthy, and felt disgusting. But she wanted babies.

All of a sudden she became pregnant in early 2022. And then things started to change suddenly. Her behaviour changed dramatically, and then my family was reintroduced to my life. And my mind somehow was rejuvenated. I think that they had been blasting or blanking it a lot until then. And then it came back? I had suspected at the time that it was IVF. She had been "infertile" and then had conceived while seemingly away from home (during the fertile window).

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What was it like to suddenly become crippled?

Crippled:

And it was a life altering, extremely sudden, highly traumatic event to become crippled. That happened mostly on one particular day. It was extraordinarily traumatic on a physical/physiological level. It shattered my life almost completely. Also, I wasn't able to get into the shower after that day. 

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Note: she had a surgery at some point, for an adhesion of the ovary (allegedly).

Note 2: I suspected very early on that she had IVF. And had assumed that she was infertile otherwise.

Ps: Siobhan also wanted babies, and believed that had "good genes". Furthermore, she had the idea that she might perhaps trafficking me into a situation whereby I might also impregnate her friends. That is, coerce or otherwise trap me into some sort of "eugenic" breeding scheme.

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Protection Order, occupation order, furniture order

Also, Amanda used a protection order, gained via the family court of New Zealand to get rid of me. By suggesting that I was involved in emotional abuse. Her affidavit is available on my other website.

When they arrested me to move me out of my own home, I was charged with the crime: while a protection order was in force against him engaged in family violence against Amanda Ward, a protected person in that he psychologically abused her by refusing to leave the premises when requested to do so.

Also, these charges were used to prevent my having good access to Lily. And to damage my ability to get custody. FWIW, I would have gladly left to find a new home, except that I did not have proper use of my limbs. I just couldn't move around properly (see other photos).

The criminal charges were handled by the district court, the protection order by the family court (a protection order is a restraining order, just by another name, and even worse). The family court is very “ideological”.the criminal charges carry with them a maximum penalty of three years in prison. They are very serious charges. And the charges alone meant that I was unlikely to win custody. I was basically obliged to sign “undertakings” to get rid of the protection order.

My lawyer (from the public defence service) was working with my father and their clique. She wasn’t very good. One of the things I tried to do was get the charges withdrawn, on grounds that the police tried to get me to go with my father (who had assaulted me the previous day), but this was not successful. Also, she didn’t even bother to meet with me before the court date itself. So she was unable to see in person how screwed up and unkempt I was in actual appearance. I had previously tried to find a better lawyer, but there has been a “chilling affect” regarding my ability to find a lawyer.

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Edit: It is a situation that is primarily criminal in nature. There is actual crime. As well as civil implications.

Edit 2: Kapiti youth support was my primary doctors clinic for years, I was registered there because it’s free for people under 25, and the GPs are “proper doctors” who work in normal clinics locally.

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That ends the stuff about IVF and a cover up.

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From my point of view, from the years 2016-2022 (but also 2010 to 2022), Amanda stuck by me, took care of me, worked and paid the bills, even though I was chronically ill. She was one of the only people who truly believed me when I said I was chronically ill. She was keeping me and the household going. You know, sticking to our marriage “in sickness and health” till death do we part. It’s like just honouring vows. That was how it seemed to me at the time. I would have done the same for her, if she had been sick and I was the healthy one. That’s marriage under Christian values, isn’t it? You promise to be with them for the rest of your life, and if they get sick, your promise to care for them always. It’s a life long commitment.

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Lily, IVF and the DIA

By the way, the DIA (Department of Internal Affairs) lied to me about Lily (my daughter). They didn’t give me the paperwork that I was entitled to when I asked for it. Lily is on the HART Register (Human Assisted Reproductive Technology Register) held by the DIA. I wanted evidence that Lily had been conceived by means of IVF, using my sperm and a donor egg (from Brynn). The department of internal affairs has (or had) this information available to them, and it is on the HART register. But they either destroyed the information, or would not give me the information. I filled out the forms, sent them in to the HART (Human Assisted Reproductive Technology Register) team and they sent me a letter telling me that they have no record of Lily being conceived by means of IVF and donor egg. I’m about 90% sure that in doing this they made a false statement, and that they actually have the records on file. They actually covered for Brynn and Amanda, participating in the cover up. Because of this, I was unable to get custody of Lily, or fight for justice.

Justice, such as: Amanda going to jail, or a better deal in the divorce, or spousal maintenance, or pushing to get my father charged with a crime for the assault, or suing multiple doctors, or laying a formal complaint against the police (the police sided with my father even though he attacked me, threatened me, and attempted to force the door. The police also invited my father to be there at the house at the time of my arrest. As well as the two officers who had attended the assault call out the previous day. They were there. There were six officers in total there on the day. Also, they aided my father in that he filed a section 8b and then they put me into his custody. A section 8b is what you file if you want to have someone institutionalised, or placed in a state conservatorship.) It also meant that I was unable to make a formal complaint against the doctors involved in my situation, at least one of which is guilty of making a false statement that could land them in prison, as part of criminal conspiracy relating to abuse, and trying to cover it up (I forget under which act).

So do any of that, I would have needed the evidence. Which was denied to me by the DIA.

I would also have needed decent lawyers, decent health, and appropriate support to make any of that happen. As it so happened, I didn’t even have appropriate use of my limbs. They also deliberately stymied my access to lawyers. Also, at least one of my doctors was a family friend of my parents (who did things on my medical records to make me look like I was mentally ill, such as prescribing me medication such as anti depressants when I actually had pain, sleep and back problems).

Also, given my health and my lack of physical capacity, I doubt that I could taken care of a child in that state?

So I couldn't really fight for things like justice or custody.

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A group of New Zealanders caused me to become crippled, and then caused me to remain that way for five years. Prior to that, they made me very unwell for 10 years.

They did this with Chinese backing, support, approval,  and Chinese money.

This group of New Zealanders also got IVF without my approval, consent or knowledge to impregnate Amanda Ward with Brynn Huso’s child, using my sperm. This is a crime. An act of fraud. And then they tried to cover it up by means of perjury and stalking. And assault, and corrupt doctors, and by filing false reports with mental health services. Also with Chinese backing, support and some funding.

They also undermined my ability to get basic legal representation.

This group hoped to blackmail or otherwise coerce me into getting other members of their group pregnant. Such as Brynn, Siobhan, Grace, and others. This was also done with Chinese backing and money. Perhaps the women thought that exploiting me for breeding purposes made sense for eugenic purposes.

This group of New Zealanders also killed my favourite kitten/cat, Cupcake, and had the vet cover it up, by pretending that she was killed in a car accident. She was the sweetest, cutest cat ever. I loved her so much. They did this with Chinese approval and consent. 

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Edit: Siobhan is perhaps criminally implicated due to stalking, for the sake of intimidation and cover up. She followed me to Christchurch, Te Anau and Auckland. She was in a mall in Christchurch, entered my hotel room in Auckland, and followed me to a cabin in Te Anau. There will be plane tickets as evidence for all three. The left a paper trail. Also, there might be camera footage of her entering my room at the Copthorne Hotel in Auckland. There might be camera footage of her skulking about my cabin at Te Anau.

Brynn might have been caught tailing me into both the James Cook hotel and the Novotel. Furthermore, there might be camera footage of Brynn or Siobhan repeatedly coming to my home and jumping my fence. I am living in a light industrial zone. There is a car yard across the road, a liquor shop across the road, and multiple workshops which likely have cameras - tools are major theft targets! There is also a childcare centre next door with cameras. Any of these places might have seen them coming and going from my front gate. And furthermore, they might have seen their cars. If I can get the IVF information, I can probably get police investigation with warrants or something going? The department of internal affairs will also be involved because Amanda used to be an employee there, and they were given false information. And also there might be a smidge of police corruption involved. And Amanda used to work as an educator for the police, via Victoria. So there might be an angle there.

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Paul is out on bail, but confined to his mother’s house

Paul is still on house arrest, awaiting trial. Just because he got bailed doesn’t mean his charges went away (technically by house arrest I mean that he has been bailed, but he is required to stay at his mother’s house with the condition that he can’t leave the property. He is actually confined to the property).

There is more on this topic further down this page.

Please read this:

For those of you who don’t know, my father has been charged with multiple counts of child molestation. He was arrested and charged with one crime sometime last year, many months ago. And he is out on bail at the moment, awaiting trial. He is required to live at his mother’s place in Karori, Wellington as a condition of his bail. In fact he is confined to the property as one of his bail conditions. He is not permitted to leave the property. And he is not allowed to have access to the internet or unsupervised contact with children.

The first of the trials is in September. There will be multiple trials. He spent a little bit of time in jail (Rimutaka Prison) from the 23rd of December until the 14th of January for a bail violation (he was caught coaching a little girl in table tennis, and he isn’t allowed to coach little girls in table tennis. It was a violation of his bail conditions to be coaching children in table tennis). Prior to his arrest and short imprisonment for violating the terms of his bail, he was allowed to live at home with his wife and two children. Now he is not. They have updated his bail conditions. By the way, he has violated his bail conditions twice, the first violation was for visiting a restricted location (the local swimming pools) to pick up his daughter.

Also, the police laid further charges against him about a month ago, coinciding with his second arrest. I gather that they had a search warrant, searched his house, and found certain items in his house. That means he has multiple charges, for multiple crimes, and multiple trials coming up.

If convicted, he could spend years in jail.

There is more information about this situation further down the page, as to the timeline and what the original charges are.

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This post was written about 15 days ago.

Child Molestation

Update: he got bail, and has been bailed to his mother’s place. I’m not sure what his conditions of bail are.

My father just got re-arrested for violation of bail conditions relating to charges of child molestation. This happened at 7:00am on the 23rd of December. He is currently in Rimutaka Prison. I found out about it on the 26th of December 2025. He was arrested 18 months ago and charged with child molestation, and had been out on bail since then, awaiting trial. He was found to be in breach of his bail conditions twice, once for being around children at the local swimming pools and once for coaching a young girl in table tennis (he is not supposed to be in certain places, or coach young girls in table tennis). And so he has been re-arrested. Again. There is a bail hearing on the 13th of January, to determine if he can be let out of prison while he awaits the actual trial. He will be in prison until then. The actual trial is in September 2026. I repeat, the original arrest and charges are from about a year and an half ago. And he was out on bail after that, awaiting trial. He then violated bail conditions twice, being re-arrested by the police twice, and is now in prison until his bail hearing on the 13th of January. His actual trial, where he will be convicted or not, is in September 2026.

The alleged offending occurred while he was alone with young girls (aged 8-12) who he was coaching in table tennis while out of town at tournaments, presumably staying at hotels or motels. The alleged offending happened over the course of the previous five years.

Multiple allegations and statements have been made.

He is/was a certified, registered ITTF coach (international table tennis federation). He focuses on coaching young girls and women. He has been coaching for 20+ years.

He was touching young girls in all the wrong places (including their private parts, below the waist, such as stroking their vulva (this is my current understanding) while he was staying at hotels and taking them on trips to go to table tennis tournaments out of town.

I think that the girls were between 8 and 12 years old and there have been multiple incidents and multiple girls. It has been confirmed by a family member that there were multiple girls and multiple incidents, and that they were about eleven years old.

The police recently searched his house with a search warrant the other day and found certain items, which are thought to be relevant to the investigation.

People on "wifi" (the thing where satellites and cell towers speak directly to your mind) tell me that he is actually guilty of the things he has been accused of. They tell me that he did the things that he has been accused of.

It is thought that he could face many years in jail. My uncle David suggested that he could potentially do up to 10-20 years if convicted. According to my Uncle David, both of his sisters think that my father is guilty. That is, he did it.

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Here is some more general information about my father

Note: there is more information about this case itself below this segment…

Former president and coach at Wellington table tennis

Formerly head table tennis coach in Wellington

Former vice president at table tennis New Zealand

Currently the owner of TT Sports, a table tennis equipment retailer that sells table tennis bats, rubber, tables, balls and table tennis robots (yes, robots)

Trained youth minister

Former youth pastor at Karori Baptist Church

Former youth pastor at Taupo Baptist Church

Former youth development coordinator at Kapiti District Council

He is the owner-operator of Kingdom Music, a musical instrument retailer. He started this chain of musical instrument retail shops 37 years ago in Taupo. Or at least it used to be a chain of musical instrument retailers. He won business of the year in Taupo multiple times for his music shops. We had music shops in Taupo, Napier, Hastings, Paraparaumu. And then once those ones closed down, he started one in Lower Hutt. We also had an arts and crafts shop in Taupo and a computer shop in Taupo, Kingdom Crafts and Kingdom Computers. These were explicitly Christian businesses, and he used to be a prominent Christian business man in Taupo. And when I was a child he was in the running for becoming mayor of Taupo. He had the support of the previous mayor, and significant backing. The arts and crafts shop sold things like fabric, sewing machines, wool and arts supplies. It was mostly a way to keep my mother busy, and it only ever broke even.

Founding member and former chairman of the board at Lake Taupo Christian School. It is a small state integrated private Christian school that uses the “ACE system”. It has existed for 33 years. I went there when I was young. He actually started a private Christian school.

He accompanied the New Zealand women's team to the world table tennis championship in Zagreb as an ITTF certified coach. It was paid for by ttnz (table tennis New Zealand).

He has been a major player in coaching in womens’ and girls' table tennis, with a strong emphasis on coaching young up-and-coming female players.

His son Matthew Solt manages (or managed) the table tennis rankings database for TTNZ. He did this as an actual job, for money. And worked for the international table tennis federation (ITTF) on their player rankings databases. This was his actual paid job. It was his income. He even got things like all expenses paid trips around the world. They paid for a lot of travel.

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More information about Paul Solt

Here is some more information from me, that I want to let people know about. And I probably need to tell the police about. This information might be relevant to his bail hearing coming up on the 13th of January, and I think the police appreciate knowing about this sort of thing. It has a massive impact on whether or not a person can get bail. If he doesn’t get bail at his hearing on the 13th, then he might be in prison until his actual trial in September.

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I also need to let people know that Paul groped a twelve year old girl at our form two school camp, back in about 2001. It was the school camp for Taradale Intermediate, a fairly good state/public school in a nice area. It wasn’t the private Christian school that I went to as a child, that he helped to start. I was there, and saw it with my own eyes. There was a complaint made, but nothing came of it. It was hushed up. Kids at school afterwards referred to him as a pedophile. No one from the school administration asked me about it. I didn’t even know that a complaint had been made. I’d have told them that it happened, and that it happened, and was done on purpose.

I think that this sort of thing is indicative of bad character. Furthermore, there is a clear pattern of bad behaviour.

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Also, there was the issue with Tomoe Takahashi.

At around about the same time (in 2001), we had a young female Japanese student come to live with us. Her name was Tomoe Takahashi. She was 16 years old and came to New Zealand to do her sixth form year in high school here, and to improve her English and learn about our culture. For us, the sixth form year is the second to last year of high school. And it was her second to last year as well.

My father groomed her while she was with us.

He also took her to table tennis tournaments out of town, alone, without my mother present.

She was a table tennis enthusiast, and when we applied for and selected an exchange student, Paul specifically requested a table tennis player.

At the end of the school year, she returned home to Japan, to finish high school. After her final year in high school, she came back to New Zealand to study law at Victoria University. She also became Paul’s live-in-girlfriend. They were together for three years before he dumped her.

Looking back, I strongly suspect that they started sleeping together when she was still a high schooler. At the time, I was about 12/13 years old and totally unaware that there was anything between them at all. I only found out that there was anything between them partway through my fifth form year, shortly after I moved halfway across the country to live with my father.

A couple of years back (2023), my mother told me a few things which led me to believe/feel that Tomoe and Paul had started sleeping together when she had first came to New Zealand. We had a conversation in 2023 in which she said that she had once caught Tomoe Takahashi sitting on his knee. And also that after Tomoe had gone on a Table Tennis tournament with her now ex husband, that “Tomoe wasn’t her daughter anymore”. That is, the relationship changed. Before the trip out of town to play table tennis at a tournament, Tomoe used to split her attention between both of my parents and she would play table tennis with Paul and do arts and crafts with my mother. Relations were warm and relaxed with both of them. After the tournament Tomoe was cold towards my mother, and kind of followed Paul around too much. Was too friendly, and too attached? I suspect that my father used trips to out of town table tennis tournaments for the purposes of grooming, and then eventually for the purpose of sleeping with Tomoe Takahashi. In other words, there is a clear pattern of behaviour/offending here. All of this happened while she was in New Zealand for the first time (that is, as a high school student).

People on “wifi” tell me that he started sleeping with Tomoe when she was 17, and still an exchange student.

He was married, he claimed to be a good and moral person. Claimed to be a Christian, and had a Christian public image. Also, when he split with my mother he claimed that he did so because she “had affairs”. My mother played along with this lie.

This relationship with Tomoe Takahashi was highly unethical. He was in a position of power, and in a position of trust and authority. My father and mother were her caregivers (unsure if they were “designated caregivers” under any kind of laws in New Zealand). By the way, she could hardly speak English when she arrived, and was living in a foreign country without her parents.

Furthermore, a man who is willing to do this sort of thing is going to be willing to do other bad things.

He has poor character, and there are clear patterns of bad behaviour.

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Another issue is that he assaulted me on the 25th of April 2023. He tried to force the door by attempting to kick it down, and did this as part of trying to cover up the IVF fraud. And made a false statement to the police about the assault. And also made false statements to mental health services (he filed a section 8b, to try to have me committed - a section 8b Mental Health (Compulsory Assessment and Treatment) Act 1992)) about the assault and surrounding situation. He filed this section 8b after the arrest. Making false statements to police is a big deal.

He said at the time of the assault, “you need to start doing what your family want you to do, or you’ll end up in a mental institution”. He also tried to kick down the door, screaming “I hate you so much”. The door itself bent very significantly under the kick. The only thing keeping it secure was a sturdy bolt. A weaker lock might have given way. He also tore open the sliding window, it is large enough to leap through. Struck me on my bad left shoulder (it has had issues since I was about 26), and attempted to grab me as though he might pull me through the window, but failed. I then screamed for help, and he ran away (probably because Ruby was there also). He probably did this because of the IVF thing. I had started asking questions about “why does Lily not look like me”. FYI, Amanda and Brynn had been doctoring photos of Lily, and putting makeup on her.

Above is Paul, Vivian (his wife of 16 years), and their two daughters.

Below are Wendy, Paul, Carol (Nana), Monica and David

^This picture is of Tomoe Takahashi (in her 30s). She is four years older than me. She is a successful patent lawyer working in a highly respected law firm in Tokyo.

If you want to verify this information, you can check it out here: https://www.legal500.com/firms/2116-hogan-lovells-us-llp/global/lawyers/749944-tomoe-takahashi

I have included this information so that you can verify it for yourself. Her name is Tomoe Takahashi, and she went to Victoria University to study law. And she is now approximately 41. Strangely enough, her family used to live in Burma.

I liked Tomoe when she lived with us at age 16, and my younger brother Matthew (eleven years old) loved her as well.

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Update:

This next little bit is a quick add on, and needs to be edited. I’ll get onto it asap. I didn’t want to put it up the top, because it draws attention away from the touching allegations.

Some additional allegations

Some additional allegations cropped up recently, about him dressing little girls up in “funny clothes”, so he could photograph them. I don't know if these allegations are true, but the police searched the house and found clothes and makeup or handbags and stuff like that. They did this after they had arrested him. And so I think he has a habit of photographing girls after dressing them up. I think that these particular girls might have been half white, half Chinese. He's weird, okay!? And I also think that he might be facing additional charges because of this habit of dressing them up in funny clothes before photographing them.

And I think he keeps the photographs around? Perhaps for sexual gratification, like… obvious reasons!?! I guess he’s attracted to young girls!! It’s hard to believe?! Maybe I’m wrong. Because I can’t rely on wifi for this stuff. But I can’t confirm this one.

He takes pictures of them in fancy dress, and then keeps the photos. And it’s creepy. I think he is facing additional charges because of this. Like, above and beyond the touching. But I’m operating in a limited information environment. And literally every time I try to write a few sentences, I get interrupted.

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Next point. This is important, because even 22ish years ago he has a weird fondness for taking photos of young Asian women dressed up in things like their work uniforms. Like air hostess uniforms. I thought this was really weird!! I never saw anything risqué. But it's weird! They were language students mostly from China (aged 18-22). My dad is weird. And the police might not have a statement from anyone about this. If he was engaging in that sort of behaviour twenty years ago, it's no wonder he loved into worse behaviour (went from young adults [aka teenagers] to children). What sort of things were they wearing? Things like beautiful dresses, heels, handbags. Skirts, or formal clothing for a work environment. It wasn’t high on skin, but it was strange okay. And he wanted to show them off to me.

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He also did a really weird slide show of his wife at his wedding. To show her off. She was wearing short shorts or a bikini or something. It was bizarre.

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A few ideas as to the place of women in society (a few off the cuff remarks, important though)

Women and self governance, adulthood, responsibility, accountability and autonomy

Ideally, I would like women to be viewed as and treated as fully fledged adults. I would like for them to be able to make their own decisions in life, I would like for them to be responsible for their own actions and to be considered accountable both for their actions and the kind of person they are. I would like it very much if their capacity for self governance and right to self governance were similar to that of a man. 

For example, I would like women to retain access to education, employment, voting, public houses (bars), credit, banking, mortgages, doctors, the property market, lawyers, courts, getting a drivers license, driving their own cars, making their own immigration decisions. I would like for them to be able to start businesses, borrow money, make their own investment decisions, manage farms and raise children. I would like them to have the ability to make their own decisions when it comes to marriage and divorce. They can get married if they want to, and they can involve a church or a religion if they would like to. And make their own decisions when it comes to religion and other matters of belief. I think they should be capable of joining organisations and entering into things like religious orders on their own. They should be capable of joining unions and going on strike. And they should be capable of swearing oaths or making affirmations in court (this is a genuinely controversial point). And they should be capable of making vows, entering into agreements, signing contracts and being held accountable for those. That one is also very controversial, for reasons I can’t explain (for example, in China, even the men don’t honour agreement and contracts). I would like battery to remain a crime within relationships.

They should have rights and responsibilities similar to those of men.

That was all a pretty tentative statement. It's not set in stone.

I don’t necessarily want men to have to babysit women for the next 1000 years!

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I have been writing under difficult conditions for the past year-ish, or since about April last year. It hasn't been pleasant.

The first few months included many yowls and screams of pain. Sometimes it was quite awful. I suffered excruciating pain on many occasions.n

Also, they harm and hurt me often. 

Physically.

And I get hardly any rest. They keep harassing and harming me all day long.

I often will have no more than 5-10 minutes in a day to myself.

And I suffer sleep deprivation. A lot of it.

I think that they pretend that it's just that my mind is "too foggy" to function properly, and that is why I'm a bad writer. But they are actually hurting me quite badly. And often.

But I think that perhaps they just abstract it away? And say that I could have just done what they are telling me to do? And therefore hand wave it away. According to Chinese-dregvant "logic", if I'm not willing to say the magic words "I just do whatever", then it is okay to keep in harming me.

The above comment possibly wasn’t perfectly ready, but it’ll do.

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I want Siobhan and Brynn out. I want them out of my life.

Other people are already committed to being a part of my life (see the microblog). They’re in.

I want to kick Siobhan and Brynn out of my life.

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Siobhan

Crosspost/repost:

I have asked Siobhan to leave me alone on multiple occasions. There are records of this in my microblog.

If you haven't looked at my microblog, you should check it out now.

This message is for the normals. Not for the fae, the wiccans or the communists.

I want to push her out of my life.

I don't want her to be a part of my life.

I have tried to push her out multiple times.

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Here is a link to the microblog:

https://howcommunicatetwo.blogspot.com/2025/05/today.html

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Here are the reposts:

Sunday, 9th November

I cut Siobhan. She’s a bit daft.

I dropped her, because she’s a bit of a cow.

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Sunday, 16th November

I have tossed Siobhan.

Siobhan is gone.

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Friday, 29th November

[...] that she was in too. I forget her real name [I had previously been referring to her as Sarah, but not the “lawyer Sarah” who was in my accounting class. Edit: 1 feb ]. In my opinion, Alice was the most attractive girl in my year at school. I have asked Siobhan to leave me alone. I am currently trying to convince the computer system that I have dropped her. She and Brynn are trying to be a little bit too “clever” in their use of the computer system.

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Ps: I have also been asking Brynn to leave me alone. But she doesn't seem to be able to take the hint either.

By the way, I didn't want to participate in their "games", in the first place but they insisted. I didn't really want them to be in my life in the first place. Originally, I wanted to run away, and start my life over again in another town, elsewhere. But they wouldn't let me. And so here we are. I'll write that story up someday. I hope.

The rest of the microblog is worth reading. Some of it is a little bit "rugged". But it is still good. It will help you to see how things have developed over time. It's long though. I still recommend it, but maybe not as the first thing you read.

Oh, and Siobhan a child molestation apologist. And that's just not attractive to me. Both Brynn and Siobhan were covering for Paul iirc.

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IVF and cover-up

The IVF angle and the crime associated with it is possibly the most important element of all. And so much of this story revolves around it. And the DIA (where Amanda used to work) denied me access to information that was rightfully mine, at the behest of Brynn. 

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By the way, Brynn could actually go to prison if I get the paperwork I’m looking for from the DIA.

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In hindsight, would I have fought for any of the women at all: a brief discussion

This is after I found out about 18 months ago, that my crippling was created and maintained electronically, They told me that if I fought for the women, they would give me my health back. If I had known that they were lying, then I'd not have lifted a finger to fight for any of them. Even once.

Next, prior to finding out that it was electronic crippling. Which was only in Hutt Road, when I found out. If I had known then, I'd have been so appalled that I'd not have fought for a single woman.

So...

If I had known from the start that I was made and kept crippled by electromagnetic remote control nerve splicing, then I would have refused to do anything to sleep with the women. And secondly, if I had known that they were going to deny me the return of my health even if I had sex (which was the requirement for having the magic wand) then I would have declined to even try to have sex with one of them.

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Furthermore, if I had known that they are so cruel (even to other people, I'd have declined to sleep with any of them). As an interview process, "are you deliberately cruel to other people, even more than 2-3 times per year, without profuse apology and asking for forgiveness." If so, then I put them on the no sex list. And politely decline further interaction. Let alone sex.

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As it is, I slept with Dasha. And that alone should have returned my health to me. I care almost not at all for what your so called culture believes to be valuable.

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FWIW, There was a turning point when I realised the reason that my health had been lost was electronic remote control nerve splicing.

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Next topic, struggled even to make a cup of tea

Example from history of my life:

I struggled to do normal things around the house, like make a basic cup of tea for a guest, without having to move around in a really weird way. And this was as late as 2022. I had arms pinned to my side, and I had to be careful about how to lift the jug (keeping my arm close to my side, elbow pinned, and limit quantity of water in the kettle, and shoulder tightened. It’s horrible, and weird. Also, I had to get cups out of the cupboard above my head with the thin end of a (clean) wooden shoe horn, because I couldn’t reach.

This was confirmed by Eileen, who came to visit for a cup of tea.

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This is perhaps a less important comment:

About 16 months ago...

I said again and again that I did not wish to wager for their women (fae women, aka philosopher-king women) and that I was not fighting for an ideology. And that I wanted time and space to rest, so that I could fully rehabilitate. And that it would take 12 months to do it. But they wouldn't let me. Instead, they wanted me to "fight" until I said "whatever", and gave up on the women. So that they could "prove" that I didn't want women.

I offered to give up the fight for the women. I asked for the ability to rehabilitate. And I said I was t fighting for an ideology.

But they had their schemes (railroading), and then they have their other cultural norms (that you have to fight for the things you want, or be smooshed into the system anyway).

But they didn't even play by their own rules. And they tried to psychologically condition me into playing their games. It's dumb.

They should collectively: ban "gravity", turn up the communication volume (and keep it high), stop playing Chinese whispers, give me 12 months of total physical non-interference so that I can rehabilitate my body.

And perhaps they might simultaneously guarantee my physical safety, while also politely asking me to take my website down and keep my head down.

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By the way, I had one moment where I thought it was over, "I think I said, this is beautiful. I have no where to go, and nothing to do. I can just walk around, relax and recuperate. This was about 12 months ago, while walking around the Hutt. I thought I had lost the women and the money. And was relieved, and was happy to just relax. But then they interrupted it, and interrupted me again. And caused me to have to play their games. Again.

I thought it was over.

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I can’t use language their way, or have conversations according to their habits and customs. Or use words their way. I have too much internal integrity and honesty. And also, the Chinese suck at language. And they are hopeless at conversation. And they are bad with words. And they’re not inscrutable, or secretly wise. They’re just daft. They’re also not nuanced. They’re just daft in a variety of complicated ways. Seriously.

And in particular, I hate the way they use the word “want”. It actually doesn’t make sense to me. I think it means that I have to manifest and envision things that I hope to receive. And then live accord to their patterns to gain these things, until I either get them or give up. And if I don’t “want” the women according to their cultural customs and habits, then I “lose” the game. I use words my way. I kind of have to. At least inside my own head. It’s important for my clarity of mind. I do try to be extremely reasonable, in many other ways though.

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Also, they did a weird experiment, that never made sense in the first place. About wanting.

Energy Independence/Interdependence

https://thespinoff.co.nz/politics/21-03-2019/the-potential-for-green-hydrogen

My reading for today.

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Energy independence, aka how to avoid being under the thumb of the USA and international oil cartels. Here’s a hint, it’s not all about energy in the aggregate, it’s about the ability to put a high energy substance into a small space in a car or vehicle (it’s better for heavy vehicles, admittedly). There is also the need to store it, and transport it. It is a very complex issue. And there is some reading between the lines required.

Sorry if the wording isn’t perfect, but I used to be an economics student! And my grandfather worked for shell oil and was a London School of Economics graduate, his father worked for Shell oil also. And his son Andy Foster is a member of parliament and is currently the Chairperson of the Transport & Infrastructure Select Committee and a member of the Governance & Administration Select Committee. Link here. He also used to be a parliamentary researcher for the national party (35ish years ago), and a currency trader/speculator (iirc). He was endorsed by Peter Jackson for mayor, and was also on the Wellington city council for 27 years, link here.

His father (Michael Foster) was a Freemason and seems to have died a horrible painful death, perhaps linked to satellites, cell towers and “gravity”, that is “artificial tightening of the trapezius muscles, neck and iliopsoas”, which seems to have crippled him over the course of many months.

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The Helen Clark foundation (a think tank) wrote a report on this some years ago, and even though I do not always feel tremendous love for the Labour Party, Helen Clark, or their fondness for bizarre social engineering, I think that hydrogen power exports might be an intelligent idea. I did however meet Helen Clark once, as a child at the Karori Urban Wildlife Sanctuary, where we released two brown spotted kiwi into their little burrows.

I have been a long term proponent/fan of energy independence in New Zealand (it is because of the oil shocks in our past, as well as over reliance on American trade policy). I have been a fan of hydrogen power for a long time, because we have so much geothermal and hydroelectric energy generation in New Zealand, and it could provide a good way to convert and store kilojoules of energy into a substance that could be used for heavy vehicles, buses, trucks and other applications, without any harmful emissions (water vapour is the only emission at the end user level). And it could be a good export industry, but it’s legitimate economies of scale.

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My Grandfather and how he died

The second to last time I saw my grandfather, his “shoulders had gone up” and he was looking pretty broken down. His torso had changed shape. Is shoulders were pulled up and out. And his torso had sunk downwards. I think that satellites did it. I think that this might have been in 2015. He came to visit us in 17 Princeton Road sometime around then. He died on November 1st 2016. I last saw for the final time him in either September or October 2016. I have to check dates. I am certain about the date of his death though. And that I saw him not long prior to that date. I think they did gravity on him, and “compromised the integrity of his torso”. The final time I saw him, he could hardly walk. He relied on a cane to walk, and also relied on little blocks of wood he had drilled into the walls to support himself, so that he could navigate the house. His shoulders were very high by then, but pushed out very wide. And his torso had kind of sunk downwards between his shoulders. He had a very sore right eye as well, which was watering. He couldn’t really stand up to say goodbye when I left. He also had had other severe issues coming up to that point.

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He liked history and loved reading. The whole house was crammed full of books. He also wrote history once he retired, and before he retired.

History written by him:

https://natlib.govt.nz/records/21991128?search%5Bi%5D%5Bsubject%5D=Cooke%2C+Peter+D.+F.+Shell+in+New+Zealand&search%5Bpage%5D=1&search%5Bpath%5D=items

He wrote a history of shell oil. First he disagreed with the history written by the official historian hired by shell, who was allegedly an idiot, he then provided corrections in the form of a separate book to supplement the original history. After that, he created a total rewrite of the history, just for the record you know? For posterity? Like the actual story. I guess he liked history. One book of corrections, and then he wrote his own version of the history. He also had a glass eye, cancer.

https://natlib.govt.nz/records/21974323?search%5Bi%5D%5Bsubject%5D=Cooke%2C+Peter+D.+F.+Shell+in+New+Zealand&search%5Bpage%5D=1&search%5Bpath%5D=items

Other history books he wrote:

https://natlib.govt.nz/records/21704640

https://www.amazon.com/Comedy-Marriage-Records-England-1837-1899/dp/0473055813/ref=mp_s_a_1_5?dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.3gZ-aBexBURWRUYsr9NDIh-o_k6GRIarrXrPLF2gIpfGjHj071QN20LucGBJIEps.8xg_FsFMU4xLeQHOYLk3nUayjkBtIsHH6GUend2ZJpY&dib_tag=se&qid=1766563436&refinements=p_27%3AMichael+Whitfield+Foster&s=books&sr=1-5

https://www.amazon.com/comedy-errors-Act-2/dp/047307480X/ref=mp_s_a_1_4?dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.3gZ-aBexBURWRUYsr9NDIh-o_k6GRIarrXrPLF2gIpfGjHj071QN20LucGBJIEps.8xg_FsFMU4xLeQHOYLk3nUayjkBtIsHH6GUend2ZJpY&dib_tag=se&qid=1766563436&refinements=p_27%3AMichael+Whitfield+Foster&s=books&sr=1-4

I think that he just enjoyed writing after he retired. What else do you do with your time. He used to sell his books about the births, deaths, marriages system in the UK. Plenty of people bought those books. It actually sold. He wasn’t making big money, but he did actually sell a lot of books. And did reprints of them. Hs shipped them out himself.

Also, he enjoyed computer programming. And literally wrote the software for the database for the business “who’s who in business” list for Wellington (and/or New Zealand?). I remember it because he did it in MS DOS, which I though was old fashioned. So I guess he knew people, and has some connections.

Above, Michael Whitfield Foster in front of his bookshelf well after retirement. Below, at his wedding. There are more photos available somewhere on this website. He curated a lot of the photos I have been using in his obituary book, just because I don’t have many of them. And he probably chose “derpy” awkward pictures of me because he resented me. Yes, he created his own photo book memorialising his life as he was dying.

Above, photo of his son Andrew Foster. There are plenty of other photos available online. He is a prominent politician.

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Aspirations: ever since I was 8 years old, I wanted to be an inventor.

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Correction

They crippled me in 2017. Probably late to mid 2017. My Grandfather was dead in late 2016. I do apologise, my memory of that period of time was/is badly damaged. And I do not have proper records. I have diary entries, but I haven’t searched through my diaries, and they’re all buried around the place.

I was already unwell months before they fully crippled me. And had started to suffer massive issues with my shoulders, and also often had an arm pinned to my side, or couldn’t move them from my sides. I had tried doing self directed physiotherapy exercises to heal my left shoulder, which had issues. The left shoulder struggled to stay in joint. And I had had many issues maintaining my daily walk. Which had ceased some months before I was crippled. I’ll try to write up a better and more thorough history later on this week. I might also find my diaries form way back when. Over time my torso kind of was “falling through” my shoulders? My shoulders were “going up” and my torso was sinking towards the floor. There was a last moment in 2017, with the “feldenkrais head nods” thing, that was the final straw. But my body was already getting much worse before then. If you want to look that part up in my history, I think you can.

By the way, when they did the thing to me that they did in 2017, it shatters your ability to retain your memories.

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Here are a few old posts that are worth reading, if you haven’t yet read them.

How did I get this way pt 2

Integrity torso compromised

How did I get this way pt 1

Repurposed Soul

Copthorne Hotel, and additional stories

They’re not perfectly written, but they’ll do. I had demoted them from the list of articles necessary for getting people up to speed, because to be honest they weren’t all that tidily written. But I put them back in that list on my front page. They have been in the table of contents the whole time. They never left the table of contents. Anyway, here they are.

How did I get this way part two is perhaps the most important of them.

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This comment covers a few things. It is quite important. Updates in fluorescent blue. I’m working on this statement currently. But perhaps it’s more important to do the full and complete history.

This is a tester statement. I’ll redraft and finalise it later.

FWIW, to mute someone’s nervous system, and/or their sensory awareness very badly for 6-7 years, as part of crippling them for years, counts as a quite serious form of torture. For example, this includes ruining their “proprioception” and “kinaesthetic awareness”. And damaging their vision, and ability to focus their eyes. And also damaging their hearing. And as an adjacent issue, also to deprive them of the proper use of their limbs and spine, and deprive them of basic hygiene as a result of this. And to freeze them, when they cannot dress properly and/or safely and comfortable wear socks/shoes/slippers. And to reiterate, I just plain couldn’t read normally, or walk down the street normally. I couldn’t exercise, and I couldn’t study. All of these things combined for 6-7 years count as quite serious form of torture.

Note: The dregvant CCP and the Wiccan Paul, and the feminist-lesbian clique Siobhan/brynn/amanda/lesley/sarah (as well as support from the lesbian palliative/hospice care specialist Janet Turnbull, NZSO) may have muddied the waters epistemologically, and scientifically, and made a nonsense of the situation in the eyes of the computer system’s AI, but that’s just GiGo.

Define Garbage in Garbage out: Gigo is a core principle in computing and data, meaning bad or biased input data always leads to bad output, no matter how smart the system is.

They have been putting nonsense stuff into the system, and so the system is now full of nonsense.

And this is what the clique did (Amanda, Siobhan, Brynn, Lesley, Sarah). And they did it with full oversight and approval by Xi and the Chinese set (who viewed the clique as long term strategic partners).

The NZ clique wanted babies and money. They wanted a eugenic breeding scheme (especially Siobhan). They are lesbians as well. As is Janet Turnbull. By the way, Lesley even sleeps with Brynn. And it’s gross.

Ps: a thing happened to my spine/back/torso on a particular day, while trying to do basic head and neck exercises, and from that day on, I was never the same. I have not yet written about that day in full. It happened in 2016, but it happened after a lot of other stuff has changed over weeks and months. Such as losing the ability to go for a daily walk (I got a limp, and couldn’t walk!) I didn’t have the ability to even go for a walk! For a few months beforehand. I also had been losing shoulder mobility for months. Even though I had tried to do a bunch of basic physiotherapy moves. My arms were increasingly pinned to my sides. It was horrific. For weeks before it happened, I was basically unable to wash under my arms, especially my left arm. And I stank. I had been trying to do tai chi, and follow the instructions of a dvd series by a guy named Dr lam. But I had to do weird modified versions of the exercises, and it didn’t work for me. By that point I couldn’t even do shoulder rolls forward and back. I was also trying to do exercises from feldenkrais. I was struggling to walk, and I tended to “reach when I walked”. I also was studying things like fascia and concepts like the “deep front line” to figure out what was wrong with me. But anyways, one day when I was trying to do “head nod” exercises from a feldenkrais video at the computer, my spine/back fell out of position. And I couldn’t get it back into position. Ever. For years. From that point on, I had “torso integrity compromised”. Here is the video: 

https://youtu.be/sXjIkySlWKM?si=Cz_IP4J27v65kXqr.

It is difficult to put into words, but I’ll try: my back fell out of position, and my spine got “folded” into the wrong shape. And the normal relationship between chest and back and shoulders changed, kind of inverted.

And so, that is my first take. I’ll write it back up. And totally redo a lot of my story.

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I had tried so many things in my life prior to that point, including stuff like yoga (hatha, ashtanga, books and classes, and breath work), and meditation (MBSR), and also headspace, posture methods (Victor Barker), the Alexander technique, cranial-sacral, I even tried the Bowen therapy (lol), buteyko method, gokhale method, physio, ordinary stretches, ordinary walking/cycling/stretches, ordinary physio rehab. Even chair yoga for seniors lol. I even saw a neurologist, Dr David Waite at Wellington hospital (I was referred to him by my GP Dr Amanda Clarke). I had tried self directed use of physio therapy moves, as well as going to physio therapy.

I’ll try to write up a better post later. But this will have to do for how. I’ll do the “staid” version later. 2016-2022. Horrific.

It’s difficult to explain this in words, but the thing that happened at age 28, 2016 was kind of like highly traumatic at the level of “neuro-physiology” I don’t know if that is the right term. The connection between mind-brain-body. And was incredibly disturbing in many ways. And bad especially for the first two years. I kind of had to reconstruct my consciousness through deliberate thinking and control. The main issues were the ones discussed at the start of the page.

I have a few photos from about 2022, available here:

https://www.howcommunicate.com/additional-photos

Ps: used to have more videos and photos. But they’re on my old phone, which has since been destroyed. I think I’ll try to get some data recovery done. Because I think I might have some data on my old phone. Like photos and videos of how I looked back then. Like 2019ish. They ordered me to destroy my phone.

PPS: see also what happened to my grandfather. They did bad things to hurt torso and back too. It was over the course of 1-2 years, I think. And then he died.

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The relationship tobin tax post is getting me too much attention. So I stashed it further down the page.

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Reverse Social Engineering

Reverse social engineering is a design philosophy, not an ideology. It helps with coming up with new technologies, innovations and inventions. It also helps with coming up with policies and strategies that are pro-democracy, and also strongly in favour of weakening corporate, banking and academic (international universities’) power. It does three things: technological innovation, policies, strategies/tactics. It is like a skunkworks (inventors’ workshop), think tank and strategy/tactics brainstorming session.

It could easily be used in favour of social democracy (aka democratic socialism). It could also be used in favour of liberal democracy.

I repeat, it is not an ideology. It is a design philosophy.

Ps: I had to write this up to clear the air, and to clear my name. Because I was being falsely accused of pushing a dangerous ideology, and a revolutionary ideology at that. And also, reverse social engineering was falsely and inappropriately labeled as an ideology. And also because I was falsely described as being a “person who was fighting for the ideology of reverse social engineering”.

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If we had a faraday “shed sandwich”, and they worked. It would mean that people like me could take a nap without being harassed. Perhaps that ought to be on the New Zealand bill of rights.

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From a brief out loud conversation about China and their labour laws:

China isn’t a very good “socialist” nation 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/996_working_hour_system

Independent labor unions are illegal in China; the government only recognizes the state-controlled All-China Federation of Trade Unions (ACFTU) as the sole legal body to represent workers, viewing truly independent unions as threats to stability, leading to crackdowns on organizers and persistent worker exploitation despite existing labor laws. Attempts to form independent groups, like the Beijing Workers' Autonomous Federation (BWAF) during the 1989 Tiananmen Square protests, are met with suppression, even as workers often organize spontaneous strikes (like at Honda or Foxconn) demanding better conditions, bypassing the ACFTU.

David: the Chinese don't even have independent labour unions, and they can't even strike in order to get basic things like an eight hour work week. They're not a proper socialist nation. It's a horrible place for workers rights. The people of China are persistently mistreated by their society. Look at the history of places like New Zealand (pre 1984) or Sweden for examples of how to do things better. For more Union history, take a look at the history of unions (and the working class anti-war movement) in places like New Zealand, Australia. Look at the history of unions and democratic socialism in Sweden, as well as reading up on their cold war foreign policy. Look at the history of unions in the UK as well (along with Chartism and the reform acts, and the importance of coal minting, especially as it relates to the Industrial Revolution and fuelling steam power, and steam transportation).

The Chinese are not credible as a “socialist” nation, and the Chinese people deserve better.

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Testing this statement? Women and attractiveness

For reasons of public health, I would like it if women were basically healthy. Had a bmi of about 18.5-25. And a normal, healthy amount of muscle. This is for their sake.

In terms of my personal aesthetic taste, I like the skinny ones, and the muscly ones. Mostly I like the normal ones. But women who are a little bit scrawny or too skinny, still many of them look nice. And plenty of the women who have just a little too much padding look nice too. It’s kind of like: normal looks good to me, and just outside the range of normal looks nice to me.

But there are plenty of other traits that are very important as well. Like their voice, or how soft their hands are, or their eyes, lips, hair, teeth, smile. Or their height, posture, how they walk, how they move, or overall facial features. What it’s like to talk to them, and whether or not I feel comfortable around them. And this holds true whether they are a girlfriend, wife, fae-prostitute, or concubine.

Umm. By the way, I was misrepresented when it comes to how attractive the women of this set are. People made it look like I think that they were all ugly and unappealing.

The better question to ask is, are the women pretty enough for me to date? And the answer is yes! A great many of them are pretty enough, and plenty of them are more than pretty enough. But silly language issues (and other questions or conversation topics) sometimes get in the way.

Note: I stashed a few extra comments on this topic in the archives. For most people, they’re not worth reading. Note 2: I actually need to update and replace certain pages on my blog.

I hope that cleared up a few things.

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Ideology. My ideology at 20 was anti totalitarianism (or that’s one point of view). Also, it was libertarianism and capitalism and any Rand and Christianity.

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But also it was social democracy. Sort of. I was always in two minds. Ideology isn’t everything.

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I like Pygmy marmosets, they’re adorable!

https://youtube.com/shorts/IEjwKcWNhLM?si=GDFZ5w2OJFAQit6H

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Hi all, I sometimes stash b-side comments at the bottom of the page. If you’re interested, then scroll all the way to the bottom. And then scroll up to a comment about “The English romantics” and why I don’t like them. Read from that point down.

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Just a quick few notes about education

I did about six weeks of commercial law 201 at victoria University. It’s nbd. I did some readings, and some lectures and stuff. And tutorials. Iirc. But I had to drop out. I also did half of financial accounting 302. I also read a law textbook for fun when I started commercial law 201. Because a friend lent me his textbook? It was the laws 121 textbook for law students. Even though I was doing commercial law for business. For those of you who don’t know, commercial law is compulsory for an accounting major, and there is a fairly significant amount of law required for an accounting student who wants to become a chartered accountant.

I was too sick though, so I had to drop out. This was at the start of 2010. Oh, I also read the textbook for HR201.

I did two years while pretty unwell, and wanted to do a third. But had to drop out due to ill health. The third year was supposed to be “part time” study. The. I went back again in 2010, but had to drop out due to poor health.

It sucked.

I just wanted to finish, you know? I wanted to finish university. But I couldn’t. The physio therapists couldn’t help me with my back, and the doctors couldn’t help me with my illness (they just said it was “chronic fatigue syndrome” and didn’t help me). It sucked. They also claimed that they couldn’t help me with my digestive symptoms, and pretended that the symptoms I described weren’t really an issue. The whole thing sucked. The medical professionals just fobbed me off. Most of the doctors I saw were employees of Victoria University in this era. Although I had seen one GP at the Mazengarb road surgery, an ordinary GP clinic, who fobbed me off and insulted me back in 2006 (our family clinic). I later started going to KYS (Kapiti Youth Support), which was the local free doctors’ surgery for under 25s. But they misled me as to the nature of my illness. I was unable to return to study. I hated that situation. I had chronic fatigue syndrome, back problems, and very bad digestive problems.

I need to do a proper education post.

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Papers that start with a two are second year papers, with a one are first year papers. And with a three are third year papers. Quan111 includes multi variate calculus, linear algebra and matrices. It’s our calculus and linear algebra. We did stuff including saddle points. The other paper quan 102 included things like normal distributions, and I forget what else. That one was exactly the same as the other stats paper stat 193. Fcom110 includes a couple of segments about the nz legal environment. Some law (and regulation) was included in tax, audit and financial papers.

I also learned about policing and law through my program of deliberate and focused reading in criminology. Which included two textbooks and Amanda’s old binders of course notes, as well as ten carefully selected high quality books about criminology available from the university library (I was bored, okay?)

I also have taken a little bit of interest in stuff like law due to my interest in economics (see Ayn Rand’s non fiction, and also see Hernando de Soto the mystery of capital). I also have taken an interest in religion, especially Christianity (by extension, I have read the mosaic law code many, many, many times).

Amanda used to teach “policing and criminology” as a part time job back in about 2011. By distance. And she was a criminology graduate and tutor in the field. So I was able to read her books about policing.

Yes, she used to be a tutor via Victoria University who taught two entire papers to New Zealand police before they were able to become full detectives (I think that was her job). She then later become a regulator working for: the nursing council of nz, the Nz charities register (part of the DIA), nzqa, and tertiary education commission. She was a regulator for education. And also deeply involved in standards and funding. We talked a lot about her work. And so I did some reading about those topics.

https://nz.linkedin.com/in/amanda-ward-49248669

She has fake hair colour in this photo. She never had that hair IRL. Unless it was a one day temp dye job. She goes by the name Amanda Kathleen-Louise Ward. She uses her maiden name for some things in paper work.

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The faraday circles and faraday court-yard ideas are found on the “new ideas page” aka “the skunkworks”. Old ideas are in the first ideas page.

New ideas page

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Additional Photos

https://www.howcommunicate.com/additional-photos

I recently updated my photos.

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What is love? Love is patient, love is kind…?

If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13

1 Corinthians 13 used to one of my favourites when I used to be a Christian. I was a Christian from age 4ish until age 28 (2016). I used to like these sort of Bible verses. I'm planning to write up a better "about me" page later, to include more of this sort of thing.

Try to view it as part of my “life history”. Perhaps put it under the heading “life history”.

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Why did we keep on having sex after the thing that happened?

Btw, sex with Amanda was more about duty than anything else for those 6 years. She wanted kids, and the clock was ticking. In hindsight, it was a sick and disturbing situation.

I couldn’t even shower. I felt gross, I was covered in dead skin and dirt, and I would have stopped having sex if it were not so important to her. She also guilted me a bit, saying that “it was hard for her to feel loved if we weren’t having sex”.

Also, I was crippled because of her clique (her and her friends).

Ps: I became crippled on the “feldenkrais exercises head nods day”. Search for that elsewhere on this page if you want to know more. They (Chinese plus the Amanda/Siobhan/Brynn/Lesley/Sarah/Paul/Matthew clique try to obfuscate the issues around my becoming crippled).

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A brief digression on Christian Values

One of the teachings when I was young.

"Love your neighbor as yourself" is a core ethical teaching, found in Matthew 22:39, meaning you should extend the same care, compassion, and concern to others as you naturally do for yourself, viewing their well-being as equal to your own and fulfilling the law through actions like kindness, generosity, and seeking their good. It emphasizes active, empathetic, sympathetic treatment of everyone, including strangers.

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Christian Camp

I went to Christian camp a lot. A lot.

Like sometimes 2-3 times in a year for 2-3 days. I loved it. It's actually great. Religion is weird, but Christian camp is fun. I went to Lake Taupo Christian camp.

You stay in cabins, and make dampa, and do archery, and do glow stick rope trails at night, and go on day hikes, and eat meals in the mess hall, and compete to memorise Bible verses, win at games, and pass cabin inspections, so that your cabin wins. And play air hockey on a wooden air hockey table with no air. Or mini putt on a broken down old mini putt course. It's cool. It's fine. And sometimes you watch a McGee and me video, or go to the music section of the day. I actually loved it.

Also, we went to a Christian music festival many years. That was amazing. Good live music, carnival rides, tents, food, talks. Lots of music, bands, kids club (I hated kids club, but loved the rest), water fights, people staying in novelty tents disguised as giant wooden castles. It's amazing.

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Christianity

We were taught that “little white lies” are just as bad as “big lies” (represented in black). And that any sin muddies the waters.

We also learned about the golden rule, “do unto others as you would have them do to you”.

And we engaged in Bible studies at school and church.

There is another page on this website about my former Christian beliefs.

https://howcommunicatetwo.blogspot.com/2025/10/christian-beliefs.html

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I’m just dumping this here, I’m not sure where to put it.

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Subject: David Solt Charge discussions- WITHOUT PREJUDICE

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Kia Ora

 

I act for Mr David Solt, who is charged with breaching a protection order by refusing the leave the family home when asked. The protected person was not at the home at the time, and did not ask him to leave personally.

 

The circumstances of the alleged breach are that Mr Solt's father, Paul Solt, went to the home with police to ask David to leave with him on 26 April.

 

However, Paul had assaulted David the day before, 25 April, as set out in the attached family harm report.  I see the police officers on the day considered laying a police safety order to protect David from Paul, but decided not to because Paul had left the property. It is a shame they did not lay that police safety order, because Paul would have been prevented from going to the home and continuing to terrorise his son.

 

David therefore did not leave the home with Paul as requested because he was too scared to leave with his father. I understand the police at the scene gave him the choice of leaving with his father or leaving with them under arrest, and he chose to leave with the police because they at least hadn't assaulted him. He was therefore not acting in any way that would psychologically abuse the protected person, who was not there.

 

Mr Solt has substantial physical disabilities, as set out in the doctor's certificate I have already provided to you, and is now out of the property and settled in housing appropriate to him. He has no previous convictions and I understand he is looking for a family court lawyer to discuss parenting issues in an appropriate way.

 

I therefore invite you to withdraw this charge. The elements are not made out, and in the circumstances, I do not see the public interest in prosecuting David for refusing to be alone with someone who had assaulted him the previous day.

 

Please feel free to contact me to discuss this matter.

 

Kind regards

 

 

Sophie Barclay

Lawyer

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My note, added afterwards: I was arrested by six police officers. That is, there were six police officers present at the time of the arrest. Including two who had been present when Amanda tried to have me trespassed from the house. And two who showed up for the assault call-out after my father showed up and had attacked me. And also present were Niel Deehan and I think Shane (I think, but can't recall, I have it written down).

I had told the two police officers who showed up on the previous day that my father was really awful, and also a pedophile.

My father and Jess Mackenzie were also present. Jess Mackenzie and my father had been given a key, to let them in. So that the police could get in there more easily.

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My lawyer from the pds told me not to mention in this letter to the police that I arrested by six police officers. Including the two who attended the assault call out.

I ended up staying at my father’s mother’s house. I had no where else to go.

And in spite of doing thousands of squats in late 2022 and early 2023, and walking for exercise, sometimes up to 60-90 minutes a day, I was still unable to recover. Therefore I was unable to shower. And also I was therefore unable to find suitable housing, let alone view it myself under my own steam.

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Further note: I had to plead guilty, and then get a “discharge without conviction”. It took about a year, maybe longer to make that happen. And during that period I was hamstrung in how vigorously I could try to get information. Don’t forget, my father had tried to get me put me in a mental institution. And I had to avoid up to a three year prison sentence. If I had out one foot wrong, it might have jeopardised my chances of getting the discharge without conviction, or increased the chances of my getting in trouble with mental health services.

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Girlfriend

Ummm.

What if I had a girlfriend who was a good person?

What would I want?

Maybe...

Genuine affection from someone who cares about me. And for them to be a basically decent person.

And exclusive.

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Concubine: is a concubine an acceptable substitute

Is a concubine an acceptable substitute for a girlfriend? Not really. But they volunteered to be mine forever anyway. I dunno why. Maybe out of guilt for the horrors they put me through. But they did.

It might be nice.

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Recap:

Genuine affection, someone who cares.

Basically a decent person.

Exclusive.

But I guess I might just have concubines instead.

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Type of relationship

As a girlfriend, voluntary free association. Ie, they're free to choose? And they have “privacy of mind” as they choose. And they make their own decisions in life, without input from the “mean girls” of society talking into their head. They’re able to think their own thoughts, and are free to choose for themselves who to date, and when and how. They are self governed and self governing, not collectively, psychically and electronically managed by the other women of their society.

But failing that... a concubine!??? I guess they come over for 1:15 a day, someone good/good natured. Can they be exclusive?? 45 ish for sex, 30 to socialise? Maybe I can’t get an exclusive one?

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Are the women pretty enough? (Yes)

Yes. They’re pretty enough. Easily!! Even the ones who aren’t “perfect” looking.

Also, I’d get fit/healthy first. If I weren’t prevented from doing this by the electronic busybodies in the skies.

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No confidence

What if you have no confidence in the system? And you assume that this new way of life will fail, and the new types of governance will fail? Just like farmers with small land holdings in the USSR assumed the new “system” would fail and refused to participate in collectivisation?

What if you think your leadership is so unwise and unintelligent and inept as to be unworthy of your trust, and to place your confidence in them would be foolish. I don’t have much faith in our: bureaucrats, academics, intellectuals, boards of directors in our government agencies, educational institutions, academic institutions, public health officials (hi Helen Clark’s husband) etc. [Helen Clark was a university lecturer before becoming prime minister and head of the UNDP, and her husband was a professor/sociologist in public health.] Those sorts of people have a lot of sway in our society. [note: Robertson was a staffer of hers, and Ardern was her pet project]. They have a lot of governance sway in our society. I also don’t trust the corporations who ride roughshod over our society. And I don’t trust our intelligence agencies who are in America’s pocket NZSIS and GCSB. Or our public health boards or hospitals (hi ORA and my CCDHB NZOM doctor Janet Turnbull). And I don’t trust our military intelligence either (I knew one). Or our police detectives (the one who arrested me was a “family violence specialist according to his business card” - dragging a crippled/disabled dishevelled man out of his own home, after he was attacked by his father the previous day, and he did it in the presence of that man’s father and 5 other officers (also, the man clearly could hardly walk [only by levering his feet off of the ground like a penguin], and hadn’t showered in 7 years). Or our courts. Or our big corporations (hi vodafone). Our politicians also exist. Don’t worry too much about them or low.

What if you have no confidence in them? At all?

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Are they concubines or girlfriends?

What is a concubine?

A concubine is a woman who lives with a man in a domestic and sexual relationship but isn't his legal wife, often holding a lower status than a wife, though sometimes treated well, common historically in polygamous societies, as seen with kings having many concubines like Solomon, or in instances where women sought security, with the practice varying by culture but generally involving unequal rights and social standing compared to a primary spouse, often with their children also having lesser status.

 ^ this definition was pulled from an encyclopedia

Are they my concubines forever?

The women (about six of them) said that they were mine in perpetuity. I'm not sure why they said that, but they did in fact say it. I'm not sure what their status is, or exactly what their role in my life is, but they said that they were mine forever (to do with them as I please). Perhaps they are concubines? Perhaps they are prostitutes? I'm not sure. How to classify them? I could classify them as either concubines or prostitutes. I think that I might label them as concubines. Perhaps let us classify them as concubines, just for the sake of argument.

Perhaps we might figure out together what their role in my life is, what their “employment status” is, and whether they are to be mine forever? They did declare themselves to be mine forever.

They said it just after Xi said that I had "won because I shagged Dasha and loved it", and that the women should put out, otherwise they are “dumb, bitch ho's" (which is an "in joke", referring to a tongue in cheek ironic use of language that I used to engage in) They declared themselves to be mine in perpetuity, to do with them as I please. The women who declared themselves to be mine forever were Clare, Siobhan, Brynn, Grace, Ambika, Angela and Sarah (the “fae/philosopher-king” lawyer). If you want to know more, please go to the microblog.

Ps: at one point I was led to believe, and was working on the assumption that they are kind of similar to "forever wives" (sorry for the deliberately naff wording). At other points I used the mental model that they were prostitutes? My current mental model is now that they are similar to concubines, but not exactly. More like concubines 2.0

PPS: To be perfectly honest, I had initially wanted and hoped to find a normal girlfriend? And a muggle girlfriend at that. Not a concubine, wife, prostitute or whatever. Instead, someone decent and honest who I can trust. But we're still working that out. I think that’s the sort of thing you might have to find for yourself. Perhaps as well as a concubine? Clarifying statement: two(ish) years ago I had wanted to sort my life and my health/fitness out, and then to find a conventional girlfriend. And in the meantime I had hoped to remain celibate and single, cloistering myself away while working on rebuilding my health and advancing my education (aka, living like a monk). But it seems that concubines are all that is on offer?

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Some further discussion on the nature of their place in the world

Are they concubines, girlfriends, or prostitutes?

When I say prostitutes, I mean that in the economic sense. Are they fulfilling the economic role of prostitutes? Are they selling sex for money? Are they sex workers who are being remunerated for their labour? My answer is that yes, as a former accounting student they are sex workers, and they are getting paid. However, it might be better to say that (in an economic sense) they are a hybridised version of concubines and prostitutes. But for reasons of politeness, and sparing people’s feelings (also that many of these women were trafficked into prostitution against their wishes), it might be better to describe them as semi-voluntary concubines who were press ganged into it by representatives of the international corporate/banking world (the representatives are madams/pimps/traffickers like Siobhan and Brynn).

We could just call them concubines for short.

But they’re concubines 2.0

Ps: Also, but many of them are being treated as common property, which I think defeats the purpose of concubinage, but oh well. At least concubines in the ancient world were afforded the security of being a part of their master’s home.

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This next comment is about day dreams, stray private thoughts that turned out to be being observed and recorded.

Treat this next comment as a totally unhinged and only half finished/written comment from an exhausted caffeine addict...

Sarah and "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned"

[I didn't think that Sarah (my fae-lawyer) had much sex appeal. This will make me sound insane: back when I was young, I had long convoluted day dreams where I felt that even if we were both Christian, and had committed to life long monogamy, fidelity and marriage, that I would lose interest in her, and have to apologise to her for lack of interest. I.e. I would have to say that even if we were married, and I had no one else, and no other options, and you were available to me, I wouldn't be bothered to sleep with you by the age of 23/24. I'd lose interest. And I would imagine how to have the compassionate, kindhearted, sensitive Christian conversation to let her down gently. Yes, I know it's weird, but I didn't know anyone was watching my daydreams back in the day!!! A winsome conversation!! How to break it to a Christian spouse that you loved her, but just were no longer physically attracted to her! She is actually my fae lawyer. Note: after being married to Amanda, I used to think to myself, what if I had married someone better? For example, Sarah was one of the better and more worthwhile girls in school (smarter at least). It is a very, very silly comment! Ummm. I actually don’t think that she’s objectively that bad in terms of looks??!?! She's just middle of the road. Absolutely normal, 5/10. However, sometimes my day dreams are kind of random!! A man's daydreams should be private!]

Uhhh. And these people are trying to “prove” that I don’t "want" anything. Well… my “lawyer” has the opinion that I don’t want anything in life, because I don’t “want” her. I.e. hell hath no fury like that of a woman scorned…

I used to do a lot of historical counterfactuals about my life, including what if I had married someone else.

I had these day dreams at the age of 22/23. Or younger. Years and years ago. Which means she has had 15+ years to stew over it. And therefore all of her decisions are probably unfair. Because "hell hath no fury like that of a woman scorned". That is, if I am not attracted to her, I clearly neither want nor deserve ANY women. Furthermore, I had daydreams along these lines MANY MANY times. So many times. It was a common day dream. And unbeknownst to me, she listened in to many, many of them.

It is all about my private, ancient day dreams, and her reaction to them.

This is one of the most absurd things I have had to explain. Because it was just day dreams.

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She was the one making “legal decisions” relating to my situation.

Sarah and I were in accounting class together. In both 6th and 7th form. She got good marks, and was quiet and studious.

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A repost of “misc stories”

I think that I downplayed this too much a little while back. But it’s still worth reading.

https://howcommunicatetwo.blogspot.com/2025/07/misc-stories.html?m=1

The link takes you to “misc stories”, and it’s a pretty decent page. It can help to catch you up on my story. I down played it a bit because people said that it wasn’t popular. But I think it’s okay. It’s good.

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Below comment is borrowed from Google:

Alexander the Great and “going oriental”

Yes, Alexander the Great adopted and utilized elements of the Persian royal court, including taking Persian wives (like Roxane and Stateira II) and incorporating the concept of a royal harem with concubines, though it was more about political integration and demonstrating kingship than purely personal indulgence, according to ancient historians like Diodorus Siculus. He took over Darius III's harem and added many women from Asia to his retinue, parading them for selection, which was a very "Eastern" practice contrasting with Macedonian customs. 

Key Points:

Political Strategy: Marrying Persian noblewomen and adopting Persian customs, including the harem system, was a deliberate move (known as Verschmelzungspolitik) to secure loyalty and legitimize his rule over conquered territories, say sources like Livius.org.

Persianization: He adopted Persian dress, court rituals, and incorporated Persian royal traditions, including maintaining a large retinue of women, similar to Persian emperors, note sources like Wikipedia and the Encyclopædia Iranica.

"Oriental" Luxury: The practice of having numerous concubines selected for the king's pleasure was seen by Greeks and Macedonians as a hallmark of Eastern luxury and decadence, contrasting with their own norms, explains Reddit discussions citing historians.

Wives and Concubines: He married Persian princesses and also had a large number of concubines, taking over those of Darius III, according to Arrian and Diodorus Siculus.

In essence, Alexander embraced and adapted the "Oriental harem" system as a tool of empire-building and cultural fusion, though it also reflected a departure from purely Macedonian customs. 

My note: Alexander’s men were very strongly opposed to his taking on an “oriental style” harem. Because it tended to weaken leaders and cause them degenerate. They didn’t want him to go “oriental”. It was a very important part of history! By the way, Alexander the great’s tutor was…. (Insert name here: look it up!). And he even was known to have met Diogenes the Cynic (one of my favourite philosophers).

Also, Alexander the Great’s military victories and tactics are well worth studying, if you’ve never studied them. As is Greek history itself. I can’t currently recommend any materials on the history of Alexander the Great. I forget the titles of the books that I have read about him. Professor Donald Kagan’s lectures on Ancient Greek history are good, and available for free on open Yale, but they’re not about Alexander himself.

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The map is not the territory

“The map is not the territory” is my favourite philosophical concept. Now of course, you need other concepts before you come to this one. You need to be able to think objectively first, before thinking subjectively. And then you understand that the map is not the territory. That is, you have to do the work. But it is still my favourite concept.

"The map is not the territory" means our understanding, models, or descriptions of reality (the "map") are never identical to reality itself (the "territory") because representations are always simplifications, abstractions, or filtered perceptions, not the complete, complex thing. Coined by Alfred Korzybski, the phrase warns against confusing our mental models, plans, or data with actual, dynamic reality, highlighting that maps omit details, can become outdated, and are subjective. 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Map–territory_relation

Mental models are not the same thing as the actual reality. And many of the “maps” we use to describe reality are either subjective, or inherently limited. Or are merely representations of underlying realities.

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You may live to see man-made horrors beyond your comprehension.

Radio waves. In your brain. Obvious to mr Tesla coil.

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Turkey and History

Did you know that Turkey banned sharia law, ended the caliphate (their claims to headship of global Islam), expelled the Masonic lodges and nationalised the means of production and transportation shortly after World War One? It’s under the tab “republic of turkey”. It’s worth reading about.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/History_of_Turkey

This is just random history.

I used to read plenty of the encyclopaedia Wikipedia on my phone during my years of being crippled. Because I couldn’t do anything else.

The moral of the story, is that throughout history there are many ways to arrange, rearrange and manage one’s society. Another good period of time to learn about is the Meiji restoration in Japan.

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Stuff to write about

Topics: Hell hath no fury (Sarah, the fae lawyer) like that of a woman scorned (long story)

Topics: are the women pretty enough? Yes! A resounding yes.

Topics: who are the major players

Topics: harems, consent, coercion and domination (I don't like their harem/coercion/consent situation)

Topics: damaging my body, crippling it, keeping it tethered in a crippled state for years, and then lying by labelling it deconditioning

Topics: major players, “the clique”, the partnership with the CCP intelligence community. Amanda, Siobhan, Brynn, Lesley, Sarah. Matthew, Paul, Tedge, Chinese intel. Over the years. Maybe I could include more?

History: writing my life story

History: a history of what they did to my health, fitness, wellbeing and over all physical capacities and functionality for years

History: an account of the IVF, fraud (illegal) and exploitation

History: of using police to cover up this illegal IVF fraud

History: of Amanda lying to and misleading the courts as part of this cover up, so as to prevent David having custody of Lily (in sworn affidavits).

History: of my father lying to police and mental health services in order to assist Amanda in covering this up (which is a criminal act)

History: of the doctors clinic lying to assist in this cover up, and also Janet Turnbull

History: suing the fertility clinic for their part in fraud, and the cover up (I have email records)

History: of inappropriate use of police force that could result in the loss of police jobs, and also result in civil action and compensation

History: of suing the DIA, and doing things like an OIA to get information that could get people thrown in jail, for obstruction of justice (or similar)

History: of making formal complaints to the NZ law association (equivalent of nz bar) about my lawyer Sophie Barclay for lying, and misadvising me (pretending that the crime could be dealt with by diversion). And dereliction of duty by not meeting with me before the court date. Not investigating the IVF issue, and not getting me in touch with a social worker after learning that I was living with the mother of the man who attacked and threatened me (and has also filed a section 8b). And not taking action when she heard that I was arrested by six officers, and that my father was present at the arrest (the day after the assault).

History: restarting sex in 2016 after the “torso integrity compromised” thing happened (I.e. my back/rib cage was pulled out of place, or fell out of place, and kept that way) and having a lot of sex out of obligation and duty, because Amanda really wanted a baby. This was back when I wasn’t even capable of showering, let alone walking normally down the street.

History: why should a man who can’t shower safely, and hasn’t showered for 7 years care about sex at all? Let alone “want it” or “desire it”. Yes, that was the situation back when they started this whole thing! They started sex games back when I couldn’t even shower. I hadn’t washed my hair in 7 years.

History: what happened when Amanda suddenly got pregnant in 2022.

Topic: I had to explain reverse social engineering on this blog, thoroughly, because I was falsely accused of trying to start a revolution, armed insurrection, coup, or of otherwise engaging in treasonous action against the state, or perhaps of engaging in decentralised terrorism (aka asymmetric warfare).

You could accuse me of being a radical if you wanted, or a bit of a subversive. Although those might be inaccurate as well, given that I saw myself as being inactive back in 2022 (and before then as well, due to poor health).

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Note: I recently updates a few of the comments/sections below this point. I really need to tidy some stuff up. And maybe do another “setting the record straight”.

Setting the record straight: I really didn’t want their version of a harem. The women are more than pretty enough (I just hate the word hot, and they play word games). And I need to rewrite a history of the health stuff leading up to 2016, and explain the events fully.

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Long term relationships: girlfriends, partners, lovers and family

Amanda and Brynn are long term lovers. Amanda is Brynn’s girlfriend. They are very close. They have been together since high school (unbeknownst to me). I think that Brynn is Amanda’s favourite, and vice versa. Siobhan and Amanda are also long term lovers. They have been together since high school. They are very close, but seemingly not as close as Amanda and Brynn. Amanda and Brynn now have a child together. Lesley and Brynn get along fairly well also (kind of like family; I don’t think they have sex though? But Lesley is kind of like Brynn’s mother-in-law).

Ps: Brynn always wanted to make “pumpkin pie” (that symbolically means that she wanted to seduce me and to create children)

I did not know about any of this until 2022.

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https://www.howcommunicate.com/

^For pictures of Lily and Brynn and Amanda and I.

The page linked just above has pictures of Lily and Brynn right above one another. And they resemble one another quite a bit. Lily doesn’t look like Amanda.

It also has a bunch of police documents (the police disclosure) and some court documents (the protection order, furniture order, occupation order, and Amanda’s affidavit).

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IVF, Babies, Lily, Police etc

It is illegal in New Zealand to get IVF without the written consent of the husband. Nor can you use a donor egg without the written consent of your husband. Brynn is the egg donor for Lily. I didn’t discover this until Lily was about a year old. I didn’t have proof that Amanda got IVF until Lily was about a year old! They almost certainly made some sort of highly illegal misrepresentation to the fertility clinic in writing (possibly pretended that Brynn was Amanda’s partner, but I’m not sure; or perhaps signed my name instead? Either way, I think they’re in trouble if infind the proper information). -update/edit

Amanda used IVF to get pregnant with my sperm and a donor egg (from Brynn) and then filed a protection order (on grounds of emotional abuse) and then used the police and courts to get rid of me. The DIA also participated in the cover up. I requested information from their database of all children conceived by IVF in New Zealand, but they lied to me and pretended that they didn’t have it. I applied in writing, using the correct forms. The fertility clinic itself also lied to me when I called and also emailed them. They pretended that they didn’t have the information that I requested.

They exploited me for reproductive purposes, so that she and her long term girlfriend could have a baby, and then used the corrupt courts and police to get rid of me. And had the DIA lie and withhold information. They did this after making me sick for ten years (Also, I was basically an invalid for about 6 of those 10 years), and then causing me to be crippled for 6 years.

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// I am not sure why they did a lot of the things they did, but I have managed to glean a few parts of the story so far

Why cripple me? 

Answer: babies.

Why did they cripple and trap me for all of those years? I think that it was so that they could hopefully have babies and make “money”.

Siobhan had the idea of getting many of her friends pregnant. Amanda, Brynn and Lesley wanted a child.

Paul invented the idea of trapping me in an escalating cycle of compounding pregnancies.

Siobhan (and others) expanded on the plan to include a never ending avalanche of sex. At least, I think it was her.

I think.

And the Chinese set (including their president) stepped in to provide funding and support, somewhere along the way.

They also gave the green light to cripple me altogether in 2016.

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Sex Games and Babies

I thought that a lot of the sex games of the past two years were all about babies? They wanted sperm? For having babies with “good genes”? Or maybe they wanted to “addict me” to sex. And then when it was about to dry up, let me have the women only if I agreed to get them all pregnant? Or something like that?

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Question: Are the potential girlfriends/harem girls bland, ugly, plain, or just too "meh" to date?

No. They are more than attractive enough to date or sleep with. They are more than lovely enough to date. Much more than lovely enough to date! A lot of them have plenty of sex appeal, as far as I am concerned. Many of them far exceed the “standards” I have for women. And a lot of them are more or less to my liking, in terms of taste? You know, they’re my cup of tea. Sorry for the clunky language (some people are perfectly attractive, or otherwise okay, but sometimes they’re just not your cup of tea. Which is totally okay! But many of the women involved in the game are both attractive and my cup of tea).

This includes a lot of the women I have met, and the ones paraded past me over the past 18 months.

However, these people have played silly language games, and have misled the listening audience. And pretended that I was too fussy, or thought the women weren’t good enough, and rejected them. It's a whole lot of Chinese whispers so far as I can see. I try to communicate, but am stymied.

Chinese whispers

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Violence, Coercion and Force in the course of getting a harem

Way back 18 months ago, when initially discussing this whole thing, I said that I wanted a girlfriend, not a harem. Or something like two girlfriends, if that was on offer. And if it had to be a harem, I wouldn’t have wanted a harem that’s governed by force, violence or coercion. I would only have wanted a harem if the women actually wanted to be a part of it, or ask of their own free will to be a part of it.

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And now for a quick look at the ethical problems associated with the use of violent coercion, ie, physical force, to get women to be a part of my virtualised “harem”

The problem is...

Do I want "actually normal" people to be violently coerced into a sexual relationship with me? No..

Like about half a dozen from when I was young? Or some of the women I met recently??

So that is why I said that I could tolerate the "evil girlfriend" brigade. That was so I at least can bring about a cessation of harm to my person, by "winning" the game??

^Just a quick discussion. Because someone asked…

So there are women I’d prefer as voluntary girlfriends, but only on a strictly voluntary, mutually agreeable basis. Without the dregvant acting as mediators, of course. But given the ethics of the situation, perhaps the “six evil girlfriends” are the only morally appropriate option??

Btw, there is a list of women I liked in the past, and it can be found on my other website “howcommunicate.com”. That page is there just to clear the air! It is not a hit list.

Pretty Enough? Yes, easily!

Just to clear the air, I think a lot of the women I have met are quite pretty. And more than lovely enough to date. But you guys ask the wrong questions again and again? A lot of my concerns are to do with ethics and morality, not physical attraction.

A lot of the women I have met in the past I would classify as being “quite pretty”, or describe them as being “pretty enough to date”, or “lovely enough to date”. In fact, a lot of them I’d describe as… the standard is here, like 30 cm above the table, and you have to clear it. But the they have “well exceeded” the standard of being lovely enough to date. And put the hand 60cm above the table. That’s by how much you clear the bar. You know what I mean? Like even the normal ones, back when I was young and so were they, it’s like, the bar is here *gestures* but then you’re so far above the bar that you clear it with ease. It’s like, easy? The normal ones well exceeded and cleared the bar for being “lovely enough”, or pretty enough to date. There was a standard (for being pretty enough), and very many of them well exceeded it. They soared right above it, way above it. But then this system misrepresents me and pretends that I think they’re all ugly!

But the dialogue we have?? It’s rubbish?? These people are rubbish at communication, conversation, and the use of language. The conversation got off on the wrong foot??

Tldr; a lot of the women were more than pretty enough to date.

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I need to do a solid write of all of these topics. Harem and coercion. Women = pretty. Babies and IVF. As well as the torso integrity compromised, integrating that into a better story. I was obliged to have a harem to both have my health back, and be allowed to go for normal walks to the show and back (months ago).

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I have updated a few things in the following posts, that might be worth rereading. Even if you have read them once before. I’ve been rewriting them in a piecemeal fashion.

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Torso integrity compromised is worth reading. There are updates now at the bottom of the integrity torso compromised page. 

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Reposting: just some stuff about Ayn Rand, and a bit about traffickers. Just for background, just out of my archive.

Ayn Rand

I used to be a massive fan of Ayn Rand.

I liked “atlas shrugged”, “the virtue of selfishness” and “capitalism: the unknown ideal”. I used to be a libertarian (Ayn Rand small Government libertarian). Mostly out of a concern for the possibility of totalitarianism and fear of rampant, excessive collectivism.

I didn't like the fountainhead.

I also used to like the Ludwig von Mises institute, AIER, and some other libertarian blogs.

I was a commerce student (accounting and finance). I loved economics. And the history of economics. I read my way through the major works of people like Ludwig von Mises, FA Hayek. I read Carl Menger, William Stanley Jevons, F.A. Hayek and Bastiat. I read John Stewart Mill. I also read Keynes and Friedman. I was a massive fan of capitalism, and I thought that most of life as adults, and including relationships, should be voluntary and un-coerced. Relationships should exist by means of voluntary free choice.

Here are a few randomly selected quotes of Ayn Rand.

https://fee.org/articles/35-of-ayn-rand-s-most-insightful-quotes-on-rights-individualism-and-government/

I was opposed (in my late teens into early twenties, when I gave up on ayn Rand) to the initiation of force or fraud or coercion on other adults. But that is possibly a long conversation, best suited to a face-to-face situation. At the same time, I was strongly pro capitalism, pro market, heavily christian. And very altruistic. I subordinated my to whatever I thought was true, good, lovely, worthy and right. (I’m not willing to justify myself on that one. But I did so without reference to the morality of people who I consider unworthy of so much as being consulted in the matter lolol).

I was more into Christianity and Christian morality/ethics than I was into Ayn Rand.

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Speaking of altruism and morality. I used to think that child sex trafficking, and child groomers, were some of the worse people alive. And that people who fought against that were good people. I also thought that totalitarian communists and Nazis were the worst people on earth. And people who stymie those things, or het hen after were doing good work. I also thought that privacy was important, and intellect, and creativity. Last but not least, I thought that intelligent economic development was extremely important! Like water, sanitation, food, infrastructure, housing etc. jobs, productivity. At least until everyone is fed, watered, housed, clothed and shod. And is employed, educated (at least a tiny bit) and has access to at least a tiny bit of healthcare.

Pimps and the sex industry are horrible too.

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As a Rand fan and accounting and finance student I was a massive fanatic about private property rights as well. As a former rand addict, of course I’d have a problem with trying to violently force a women via satellites to be with me.

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They crippled me for six years, and lied by claiming that it was “just deconditioning”

They falsely claim that the thing that caused me to be crippled from 2016 to 2022 was something called “deconditioning”. But they’re both wrong and lying. It wasn’t caused by deconditioning. My being crippled (and my other health problems) was caused by a computer script/program (an AI generated piece of software) that kept my body locked down 24/7, using my own muscles. It shortened and compressed my torso using muscles such as the lats and iliopsoas. It used “electromagnetic nervous system splicing technology” to do so.

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Here are a couple of examples:

2022:

During some parts of 2022, I was doing 90+ minutes of walking per day, back-and-forth inside the house at 17 Princeton Road, Raumati Beach, Kapiti. And I was doing 100+ mini squats daily. I was doing this for months on end. I improved somewhat, but did not fully recover.

2023:

I was doing 60+ minutes of walking, back and forth inside the house in 6 Raine Street, and 300+ mini squats daily. I was doing this for multiple months.

If my health problems had been caused by deconditioning, then I would have been able to make a full recovery. Therefore it was not deconditioning.

What is a mini squat? It is a shallow-ish squat, that emphasises the hip-hinge part of the motion, without aggravating or messing with the inner hip muscles (including but not limited to muscles like the iliopsoas). It primarily seems to use the hamstrings and low back muscles. It uses the glutes and quads as well, of course, but it has to be a mini squat. Ordinary squats weren't really viable as an exercise. So I had to create a work around. And that meant inventing the mini squat. There was a knack to them, that involved a “trick to work around the pull on my hip via my iliopsoas, but it is difficult to explain. I did thousands of them. Thousands.

By the way, my body awareness (aka proprioception and kinaesthetic awareness had been dysfunctional for years, due to being kept crippled). And my body had been put into the wrong shape, and kept in the wrong “shape”. They kept me in “torso integrity compromised” state for years. [The relationship between the pelvis, lower back and hips was a bit wrong. As was the relationship between the spine, chest, upper back and clavicle. If that makes sense.]

I did thousands and thousands of mini squats and hours upon hours of walking over quite a number of months (maybe at least 5-6 months), but I didn’t recover. Therefore it wasn’t deconditioning that caused me to become crippled, or kept me crippled/disabled. Note: I had been walking for at least cumulatively one hour a day for years, as well.

I did not become aware of the existence of remote control nervous system and muscle manipulation until about 2024 iirc. So I didn’t know what was wrong with me, or what caused it.

I have updated the “integrity torso compromised” post, for those of you who haven’t read it, or might want to reread it.

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Draft (3 paragraphs):

Basically, they pulled my back out of place in 2016, and wouldn’t let me out it back into place.

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I couldn’t put it back in place. They wouldn’t let me, and I didn’t know how it happened or why. I HAD NO KNOWLEDGE OF THE EXISTENCE OF THE SATELLITE THING.

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And so to cope with this, for years, I had to do things like pin/pull my shoulder blades back and down, and fix them in place, while also clamping my arms to my side. And I had to use my shoulder blades, arms and chest to “grip” to my back. All the time. It was basically impossible to live. It is hard to explain it in clear plain English, but that is more or less how it was.

It might help to read “integrity torso compromised” and “how I got this way part two” first. I haven’t yet written a proper and good account of what happened to my health, or my back yet. But you can glean enough information to piece it together.

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The Retaining Wall Metaphor

They had this concept of a retaining wall (a metaphor). Which is that I needed to have a “retaining wall” of women, to be considered “safe” to them, before they would let me out of the house long term.

This is one of the main reasons I fought for the women (a so called “harem”).

According to their point of view, I needed them to feel “safe” enough to have me roaming society before they would let me out, because I thought they were afraid of my story of being crippled for 7 years getting out there into the world. I was a PR risk to them, back 18 months ago. And so I needed a harem to keep me tethered to their culture.

They communicated to me this idea of a “retaining wall” to me via images on instagram wall. It was actually a picture of a wall of sandbags, at which they threw tons of buckets of “water”. It was just a metaphor. And it was used in mental conversations a fair bit.

I was obliged. It was an obligation.

I did everything I could to try to get out of it.

But it was an obligation.

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Harems, coercion and domination

To me, to have a harem doesn’t automatically imply coercion (or domination). Not that I even wanted one anyway!! See below.

Why not?

Because in this case, it consists of adult women who volunteered themselves to be a part of it, and badgered me into participating in their games. They were pushing themselves into my life when I just didn’t want to have anything to do with them!!

To me, they wanted to voluntarily sign up for harem duty, as independent, rational adults. Mostly to make money, but also to get pregnant so that they can have children (high IQ blah blah blah).

But they insist that a “harem” automatically = violent control and domination. No. It doesn’t.

It is fundamental to their point of view that a harem = violence or coercion. But it doesn’t hold true. They invited me to have a harem. They nagged me into it. It was very important to them! I wasn’t chasing them, they were chasing me.

One of the biggest fundamentals of their point of view has fallen apart. They use this fundamental belief of theirs to justify their violence against me. But the fundamental that they push is bollocks. It is total nonsense.

And I even told them that I was 95% uncomfortable with the idea of fighting for a harem, because I thought that the system might be too coercive towards women, and towards people in general.

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If I had known that these people equate “harem” with “coercion”, then I wouldn’t have bothered to fight for them.

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New edit:

I actually need to rewrite this segment/post about domination, coercion and a harem. Because I actually told them many, many times that I didn’t really want a harem (about 18-24 months ago iirc), because I thought that their culture was inherently coercive. And I didn’t agree with that! After all, I used to be a Christian and a massive Ayn Rand fan (I loved Ayn Rand style libertarianism, especially the whole non initiation of coercion by physical force or fraud, way back, before my views mellowed).

Uhhh. In theory, I could have tolerated a “harem”. If it was on an ethical, voluntary, mutually beneficial basis, such as a libertarian/capitalist basis. But in practise, I didn’t really want their type of harem (coercive). Except I accidentally won one? When I didn’t really want to have to fight for one!!?

I will completely rewrite this edition on coercion later. The gist of it should be “I don’t want a harem, because it is coercive, at least within your system”. Even though in theory it could be voluntary and non-coercive. But I accidentally won one, as a side effect while I was fighting to have my health returned to me.

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Just as an aside,

Tbh? I don’t actually want to control women. Rephrase: I have not have the desire to control a woman going forward. As an individual. Because it is a hassle, and I ought not to have to. I don’t actually want to have to coerce or control a woman (or multiple women) into a relationship. I think that other people might prefer the term domination, but I don’t like that term.

Mediocre conversation will probably flow from the above statement. But it’s okay. Their conversations tend to be incoherent and don’t make sense anyway.

I probably will end up with “control or domination or whatever silly word you want” over a women. Because I accidentally won them (even though insist want to compete). But don’t love the whole concept. Hypothetically, why not have a relationship by agreement? And manage it via conversation? Or possibly make commitments and stick to them? I used to be an Ayn Rand style libertarian and a Christian, after all..?

^I’m still trying to figure out how to address these issues??

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IVF, Lily and Brynn

Uhhhh. Amanda asked for a sperm sample in about 2021 (iirc) to check to see if my sperm was healthy. She was desperate to have a baby. It has consumed her for years, and was the main reasons we kept on having sex even thing I was totally crippled. And then she went to get IVF without my knowledge or consent, using my sperm and Brynn Huso's egg. Which is a significant crime.

She could go to jail for that. It is illegal to get IVF without the written consent of the husband. The signature is required. Which means that she commit fraud somehow. Maybe she pretended that her husband didn’t exist, and that she was in a de facto lesbian relationship. And then also pretended that the sperm donor wasn’t me. And also, to commit fraud to have a baby with your girlfriend is going to be highly illegal. But the Department of Internal Affairs (where Amanda used to work) covered for her.

I was just about ready to go on a bit of a warpath against certain individuals, gaining convictions and civil victories/settlements, before going to the MSM. But they denied me the opportunity to do so. By denying me the use of my limbs.

Furthermore, a lot of the things people did after that were for the purpose of a coverup.

There could be jail time for people like Brynn and Paul also. For things like criminal conspiracy. Perjury, fraud. Assault, abuse, miscarriage of justice. I’m not sure what else. They did so many things. And these people were trying to cover it up. I didn’t have use of my legs.

Take a look at my other website howcommunicate dot com if you want to know more. There is a photo of the two of them beside one another.

www.howcommunicate.com

Ps: I tried to get information from the Human Assisted Reproduction Technology register at the Department of Internal Affairs, but they claimed not to have it. They lied.

By the way, there’s a little bit of stuff on that website, www.howcommunicate.com that you might find useful. Including some stuff to with Lily, and to do with my medical records, and also to do with things like foot binding. You might have to look at a couple of tabs though. 

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Babies and reproduction

Who is most to blame in this “organisation” (or “group”)?

Brynn, Amanda, Lesley, Siobhan, Paul, Matthew, Sarah, Joseph? Xi also played a part. And so did my mother, multiple times.

Siobhan was obsessed with the idea of pregnancies and babies. She wanted babies. And she wanted to manipulate or otherwise control me into impregnating her friends. I think that was a long term scheme she had desired for many, many years. Siobhan had wanted to create a breeding scheme for years! I think they wanted to get me “addicted” to sex with them, or otherwise have tons leverage over me, so that I was forced to impregnate her friends.

It was kind of a breeding and/or eugenics scheme (the whole IQ and intelligence thing”.

There were many other women who wanted to get involved once I was “trapped”. I was supposed to get lots of women pregnant, I think. It’s kind of sick. I don’t know how many people were involved in this scheme (or group, or organisation). And I don’t know how deeply committed and involved the CCP set were early on. Or if they were totally committed to the pregnancy side of things. If I’m honest, I’m still figuring it out myself.

Uhhh. Lesley Jones always wanted a second child, and/or a grandchild. But she never had a second child. She aborted one, miscarried another, and later became infertile after having her uterus and cervix removed, due to cancer or some other issue such as HPV related complications. Her daughter Amanda Ward was/is also infertile*.

*We were “trying” at Amanda insistence for about 6-7 years. This was for the full length of time I was crippled (I had declined and delayed on having babies for ages, because I thought we couldn’t support or raise one properly. I also thought that Amanda might not be a good and capable mother.) She eventually wore me down, and so we started sleeping together without condoms in about 2016.

Ps: I really, really need to rewrite this part of the story, the stuff about fertility, reproduction and IVF. Fraud (yes, really), corruption (DIA) and coverups. Because it might be one of the most important parts of my whole story.

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Hi everyone, I have recently posted quite a few comments that are important. I have a few segments that I’d like people to consider reading. They start with the “retaining wall” and go all the way down to the pictures of Lily. (I am not asking for the horrible pain satellites to force people to do it).

The thing called “setting the record straight” is very important, and a number of other topics. Such as Siobhan not being important to me, the idea of “harem and domination, coercion and violence” and related discussion, the story of Amanda conspiring with our vet  to murder my favourite kitten and get away with it, a link to a decent photo of me at age twenty, a discussion about the use of IVF and fraud. And a couple of photos of Lily. There is a lot of material that just got updated recently.

For those new to this blog, general disambiguation and the grab bag will set some things straight. But there is so much background that it can be hard to catch up or keep up.

I uploaded a few new documents to my other website as well. Howcommunicate.com including some relating to IVF and the misuse of the police/courts. But the stuff on this page is probably more worthwhile.

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The Retaining Wall Metaphor

They had this concept of a retaining wall (a metaphor). Which is that I needed to have a “retaining wall” of women, to be considered “safe” to them, before they would let me out of the house long term.

This is one of the main reasons I fought for the women.

I needed them to feel “safe” enough to have me roaming society before they would let me out, because I thought they were afraid of my story of being crippled for 7 years getting out there into the world.

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Harem and “domination”

To have a harem doesn’t imply coercion.

Why not?

Because in this case, it consists of adult women who volunteered themselves to be a part of it, and badgered me into participating in their games. They were pushing themselves into my life when I just didn’t want to have anything to do with them!!

To me, they wanted to voluntarily sign up for harem duty, as independent, rational adults. Mostly to make money, but also to get pregnant so that they can have children (high IQ blah blah blah).

But they insist that a “harem” automatically = violent control and domination. No. It doesn’t.

What if it was a voluntary, libertarian harem. Where they assigned themselves to me to make up for all of the hard done to me. Perhaps as partial recompense for the massive harm to me? Is that coercion?

It is fundamental to their point of view that a harem = violence. But it doesn’t hold true. They invited me to have a harem. They nagged me into it. It was very important to them! I wasn’t chasing them, they were chasing me.

One of the biggest fundamentals of their point of view has fallen apart. They use this fundamental belief of theirs to justify their violence against me. But the fundamental that they push is bollocks. It is total nonsense.

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Violent control and coercion

At one point, I was “fighting” for a harem of ten million women, a “billion dollars” and to have my health back (aka, the magic wand). This was about a year back? I can’t recall exactly. Now, they claim that because I tried to fight for a harem of ten million, that I want to fight for the control through violence of a harem of women, but that is lies. I was obliged to play that game, because I wanted my health back. They said that if I wanted my health back, that I was obliged to have sex with at least one fae-druj woman, at least once, in order to have the “magic wand”. The magic wand meant (to me) that I would have my health back for the first time since I was 18. Also, that they would uninstall the computer program that keeps my torso locked down, by means of AI.

What I really wanted was “to have nothing to do with any of these freaks”, and then to rebuild my health, and then to rebuild my life (education, friendship), and then to find a “muggle” girlfriend. And the relationship with the muggle girlfriend would be on a mutually agreeable basis. Like, not anything to do with the “fae-druj-philosopher kings”. By the way, you whole world view, and all that you are, and all that you do, and all that you think feel and assert, is daft and asinine.

And they use the idea that I “want” a harem as an excuse to be violent towards me. And also they use the theory and belief (erroneous) that I was fighting on behalf of a non-existent revolutionary ideology (known as “reverse social engineering”) as an excuse for insisting that unplayed their games. Note: firstly, reverse social engineering is more like a design philosophy, and a framework for analysis and study. And secondly, I had chosen not to implement it.

Dumb.

Their whole thing is dumb.

I might have to fight to change many of their points of view in the AI computer systems “memory banks”. But I don’t know how to do that.

Also, they pretended that they had actually changed me, like reprogrammed me. But tbh, not really. I’m still me. I’m just really exhausted and a bit miserable. They’re just full of it. They just lie all the time. And they’re actually pretty ignorant.

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I had wanted a period of singleness and celibacy while I recovered

I had wanted a period of singleness and celibacy, during which I piece together my health, and rebuild my fitness, and then to find a “muggle” girlfriend. And I wanted the relationship to exist on the basis of mutual voluntary agreement. Kind of like voluntaryism? On a mutually voluntary basis. And I wanted an actual relationship.

Just for some background, I used to be a libertarian, and was fairly serious about the concept of the non-initiation of the use of coercion, whether by force or fraud. And I used to be a massive fan of Ayn Rand. Especially the book Atlas Shrugged, not so much the fountainhead. And I loved her non-fiction work especially, “Capitalism: The Unknown Ideal”. I was simultaneously a sincere Christian and a fairly serious libertarian.

I was mostly a libertarian out of concerns about possible USSR style totalitarianism in the future. Or other types of totalitarianism (like Maoist, or something I had never heard of).

As a Christian, I believed in the birth, life, crucifixion, death, burial and literal resurrection of Christ, and that he ascended afterwards. I also believed in life eternal. And the following literal things: miracles, angels, demons, heaven and hell, the existence of speaking in tongues etc. I believed that the Bible was the word of God. And that God spoke directly to people. I believed in the existence of sin, and in the importance of repentance. That you could pray and have sins forgiven. I also believed in the rules about lying, murder, hate, sex, relationships, divorce, marriage, envy, idol worshipping, not having any other Gods to worship, altruism and love.

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My life was all but over at the age of 18 when I lost my health

To me, my life was all but over at the age of 18 when I lost my health and never regained it. So I’m stuck in the past! I think about the past all the time. Ever since then, the thing I’ve wanted most is to have my health back, so that I can rebuild my life and do the things I want.

I lost my health during the dreaded and hated Europe trip that I had with my mother (she lived and lives over there) in early 2007. I was there for six weeks, and I got really sick. And never, ever recovered. I have described this elsewhere. My life has been mostly over since then. Or at least that is how it felt.

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Anal Sex

We probably should have a quick conversation about anal sex and why it is a bad idea. And bad for society.

It is on my second website:

https://www.howcommunicate.com/anal-sorry-awkward-conversation

I hate the internet so much. I hate having to have conversations like this. It’s so awkward.

Ps: that page currently has a couple of other topics of conversation in it.

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Two pictures of me

I posted two good photos of myself on my other website, because the resolution is much better on that hosting platform. It is a good idea to see at least one good photo of me from the age of 20.

Www.howcommunicate.com

That’s me at 19 and 20.

The first photo is of Amanda and myself on our honeymoon. The second photo is of a family get together with my mother, cousins and a family friend.

Please visit my second website www.howcommunicate.com to see that photo. It is at the top of the first page.

Ps: I had already lost a few kg of muscle due to poor health by the time those photos were taken.

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As of today, here is my update: Angela, Ambika, Grace and Brynn said they are all mine forever. That is “in perpetuity”. Forever! Also, "Alice" (I forget her real name) from high school said that she was “in” too. In my opinion, Alice was the most attractive girl in my year at school. I have asked Siobhan to leave me alone. I am currently trying to convince the computer system that I have dropped her. She and Brynn are trying to be a little bit too “clever” in their use of the computer system and the rules of their culture. They have tried to be altogether “too clever” for a long time.

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How important was “Siobhan” to me? Back when we were young?

Not very. I hardly knew her in high school. I only spoke to her for about 10 minutes cumulatively in high school. And since then only about 5 minutes once on Facebook at the age of 21.

Back when I was in high school, I preferred girls like: Clare, Amanda, Emma Mackay, Leah and Brynn. Amanda, Jess Mackenzie and Grace were all friends of mine. Amanda was my closest female friend at Paraparaumu college (15-18). And Jess Mackenzie my closest female friend in general (she lived back in Hawke's Bay). Most of my friends were guys. Siobhan was hardly on my radar at all.

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Amanda Killed Cupcake

Amanda took my favourite kitten (young cat) and had her killed by the vet, and then had the vet call me to tell me that my kitten, Cupcake, had died after being hit by a car. I only found out recently.

I loved that cat.

She was the perfect cat, and the first one that was truly mine (we bought Cupcake and Umiboshi together, as a married couple). I adored her. I can’t understand why anyone would do that? Why would you even want to?

This happened maybe 14-15 years ago.

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Setting the Record Straight

Setting the record straight, version two

A quick setting the record straight, please check it out.

Seriously, if you haven’t looked at it, please give it a read.

I have been doing a lot of “setting the record straight” lately. It’s hard, because there have been so many lies told about me.

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More of my story, as well as setting the record straight a bit.

I just updated this post, and rewrote some of it.

Doctors and the health situation

It’s still a little bit rough, but it might be useful reading for some. They actually attack me whenever I try to talk about my health history. And hide and/or lose information.

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Update:

Just to set the record straight on a few additional matters:

I put a quick update in the page for “basic fit” about my fitness levels in the past (it is highlighted in blue), and a quick update in the “doctors and health” page about damage to my lower intestine. The update about damage to my intestines is right at the end of the web page.

I plan to fold these into a couple of extra posts to be added to another “setting the record straight” post. These updates are a little bit rough and unpolished. But given the circumstances, they may just have to do. 

Link to “basic fit” page.

Link to “doctors and health page”

Warning, both pages are fairly disorganised. The recent updates are highlighted in blue, and some of them in green. You have to dig to find what you want, and filter out a lot of garbage. I will be creating a curated and tidied up page with a lot of the information about my life later, if possible. 

There is another quick update here:

Sports and martial arts page

This quick update clarifies stuff about fitness/sports/boxing/fighting. The recent updates are highlighted in blue.

I will also be adding a few segments from these pages (rough as they may be) to the bottom of the page “setting the record straight”. At least until I do another page about “setting the record straight”.

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One unrelated clarification:

Let me clear something up, the point I was trying to make way back when (by mentioning boxing) is that I did boxing and judo when I was young, which means I can take a "few knocks" without being a cry baby, or making too much of a fuss. That’s it. But also that what they did back there was "a bit much". The way I was treated was beyond the pale. I mean Copthorne and the few months afterwards. That was beyond the pale. It wasn’t just a “bit of nothing”.

But that whole thing got mis-interpreted.

They acted like I was engaging in “macho posturing”, or otherwise being aggressive in my attitude and speech by day dreaming and/or talking about boxing. But I wasn’t. Instead I was trying to make one simple point. And the other thing I was trying to do was … engage in day-dreaming to keep myself occupied. And day dreaming about past hobbies helps with that. Such as boxing or computer games. Day dreams shouldn’t be considered conversations. Although sometimes I flow with what other people are doing, simply to be able to day dream for the sake of distraction and diversion. Hopefully that helps to explain things!!? I know that it is a slightly eccentric thing to do, but I think that it is okay.

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I have had to do a bit of work catching people up on these issues, but it had to be done. It’s a hassle, but worthwhile.

I would love to tidy up this information, to make a new and improved “setting the record straight post”, but I can’t. I don’t have the capacity for that at the moment. I’ll get to it whenever I can. But I think that normal people understand that it is hard to defend yourself against the spurious and asinine accusations of these weirdos. And it is difficult to explain yourself to the general audience who may have been misled a fair bit by the above mentioned weirdos.

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IVF, Lily and Brynn

Uhhhh. Amanda asked for a sperm sample in about 2021 (iirc) to check to see if my sperm was healthy. She was desperate to have a baby. It has consumed her for years, and was the main reasons we kept on having sex even thing I was totally crippled. And then she went to get IVF without my knowledge or consent, using my sperm and Brynn Huso's egg. Which is a significant crime.

She could go to jail for that.

Furthermore, a lot of the things people did after that were for the purpose of a coverup.

There could be jail time for people like Brynn and Paul also. For things like criminal conspiracy. Perjury, fraud. Assault, abuse, miscarriage of justice. I’m not sure what else. They did so many things. And these people were trying to cover it up. I didn’t have use of my legs.

Take a look at my other website howcommunicate dot com if you want to know more. There is a photo of the two of them beside one another.

www.howcommunicate.com

Ps: I tried to get information from the Human Assisted Reproduction Technology register at the Department of Internal Affairs, but they claimed not to have it. They lied.

By the way, there’s a little bit of stuff on that website, www.howcommunicate.com that you might find useful. Including some stuff to with Lily, and to do with my medical records, and also to do with things like foot binding. You might have to look at a couple of tabs though. 

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My Daughter Lily

I just uploaded a few photos of my daughter Lily.

See my other website for some other pictures if you like at howcommunicate dot com. There is even a picture of Brynn Huso there, just for the sake of comparison.

Link to photos page here.

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Crosspost from the “negotiations” tab

Amanda and Siobhan are in a long term sexual relationship. Or were in one for 20+ years. They were friends and were engaging in sexual intercourse often. Unknown to me.

Amanda and Brynn are in a long term sexual relationship, and were in one for 24 years. Since they were 13 years old. They have been sleeping together for years. Unknown to me.

Brynn and Angela are friends, and have lived together, I think? And are sort of in a long term lesbian relationship.

These people, along with Sarah, the “lawyer” formed a lesbian sex and fertility cult. These people purpose of the cult was to make money, and get pregnant. They wanted babies and money.

They turned me into an invalid, in an attempt to control me.

And then crippled me back in 2016, possibly to stop me getting away. Some foreigner signed off on it. Let’s talk about it later. I might make a new page called…

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More stories: Amanda, Brynn, Siobhan, Lily, IVF, a profit oriented lesbian sex and fertility cult

By the way, Brynn is the egg donor for Lily.

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They exploited me for reproductive purposes, using IVF. Which was a criminal act.

And then they tried to use the police to cover up their crime (I started asking questions). And they commit perjury along the way.

And then the DIA covered for them too.

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They kept on saying that it was “deconditioning” back know the day.

Deconditioning

I was trying very hard to recover back around 2022ish. 

And it wasn't deconditioning. I used to walk for about 90 minutes daily within the house, back and forth, for the sake of my wellbeing. Interspersed with rest. I also used to do 100+ mini squats per day to try to improve my fitness.

It definitely wasn't deconditioning.

There is a better discussion of this on my other website.

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Kazakh Famine

For those of you who didn’t catch this article last time:

The Kazakh Famine. It’s a must read part of history.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kazakh_famine_of_1930%E2%80%931933

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Filipp_Goloshchyokin

Bad egg^

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nikolai_Yezhov

Another bad egg^

He was a “good friend” of Filipp

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The Kazakh Genocide

The forced collectivisation of agriculture costs lives.

The three above Wikipedia pages are all about helping people to better understand the “Kazakh genocide by means of forced collectivisation of agriculture”.

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Education

For more information (optional), please look at some of the following materials:

The Industrial Revolution

Great Scientific Ideas That Changed the World

The Enclosure Movement - short

The first two are lecture series offered by “the great courses”, and the third one is an episode of the radio show “In Out Time” hosted by Melvyn Bragg, on BBC Radio Four. The first one and third one both talk about agriculture and related topics such as modes of land ownership. The second one provides invaluable background knowledge.

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Gregor Mendel

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gregor_Mendel

He is an Austrian, Augustinian monk. And a really cool guy. He was a real inspiration for me, because he got things done without being an employee of a corporation, or a full time university professor. He wasn’t married, and he took vows of poverty, celibacy, community life and obedience to his religious order.

It just pleasure reading, if I’m honest.

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My health and “the magic wand”

Ever since I was 18 years old, what I have wanted most was to have my health back. I was supposed to receive my health back after sleeping with someone. I.e. the magic wand. But I did not receive the magic wand. After that, what does anything matter?

I slept with someone (as required to) back in Christchurch, but did not receive my health back? I was lied to. After that, what does anything matter? My health was the prize, for me. That’s what I was fighting for. But they denied me the thing I wanted most. While also pretending that I was fighting for a non existent ideology. And also pretending that I was a Taoist.

They pretended that I was a Taoist and also that I was fighting for a non-existent ideology. In particular, Siobhan and her associates lied to the “computer system”, and the audience.

I am not a Taoist. And I don’t have a specific ideology. I used to be a Christian, if that helps. Also, I used to admire people like Norm Kirk, Tage Erlander and Olaf Palme. The history of socialism in those countries has a bit of Christianity heritage woven into it. But I also had/have a lot of admiration for the history and people of Switzerland.

But I “identify” as someone who has suffered a lot of harm and has had a very difficult life. Someone who for a very long time had simply wanted to get healthy and get a life, get some friends (any decent friends), finish a degree (any degree), get some hobbies (any decent hobby) and get a job (any job). I was not hyper political in the past, because I had met even bothered to join a political party. My life was awful from 2011 to 2016, and worse from 2016 to 2022. And even from mid December 2006 through to 2011 it was full of health problems and issues. And I never knew what caused them. I don’t think people know how bad it was, even like from 2006-2011, or 2011-2016. And I sought so much health advice and professional support and help. I saw a lot of doctors and physio therapists. I did everything I could, but had so many problems.

I do not “identify” as someone who was a political activist 2007-2016. Instead I was a struggling and sick student in 2007 and 2008, and an invalid ever since then.

I wasn’t fighting for an ideology. I was just plain unwell. And also I wasn’t a misogynist (I have already defined this down below). I define myself as != misogynist.

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Miki Matsubara

Link to another page 

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I don’t have much faith in this system of satellites and secular psychology (aka psych engineering)

They are as daft as the residents of Springfield who invested in the monorail instead of investing in road repairs. See: Marge vs. the Monorail.

Monorail song from the episode:

https://youtu.be/taJ4MFCxiuo?si=Comd_qne23z2NLvy

The full episode is available on Disney+ if you have it. It’s worth watching (or rewatching). It’s a classic.

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Crazy specific analogy, these people are as daft as people who borrowed heavily against their house in order to invest on margin in the 1987 New Zealand stock market in the month of April. This is a slightly niche example.

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A better article about Paul Erlich and the cure for syphilis

http://www.smj.org.sg/sites/default/files/5111/5111ms1.pdf

It’s just an important part of history. Unfortunately, as with all history, it must be understood in context. And there is no way to “microwave” an understanding of history. Please note, I have linked people to a few lecture series elsewhere, which are all very good. They can be found somewhere on my “education” page? There are about 4 that I like most: one on each of science, Industrial Revolution, epidemics and public health, and the last one on English history.

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Paul Ehrlich

Here is one of the most important scientists of history:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paul_Ehrlich

Nobel prize winner, often known as the father of immunology.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manifesto_of_the_Ninety-Three

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Syphilis, Salvarsan and Sahachiro Hata

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sahachiro_Hata

^ nominated multiple times for a Nobel prize, but never won it. He should have. He was the first man to isolate the bacterium responsible for the black plague during the Hong Kong outbreak. He co-created the cure for Syphilis back in 1912, along with his colleague Paul Ehrlich.

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6478456/#:~:text=Now%20for%20Salvarsan%3B%20recognised%20as,Japanese%20man%3B%20Professor%20Sahachiro%20Hata.

The system pretended at the time that a cure for Syphilis didn’t exist. Probably because of the stigma associated with it, and the morality and hygiene aspects of the situation. I.e. if we admit that there is a safe and effective cure, and people understand what is meant by “latent syphilis”, then they’ll think we are wicked, filthy, diseased and dangerous.

People viewed people with syphilis as being sinful, bad, wicked and evil. Just vile.

No nose club

Umm. You used to be able to tell who was “sinful and wicked”, just by looking at them. Witches had warts, and bad men had syphilitic faces and heads. Their hair fell out and their noses (and private parts) fell off.

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A look at the history of mercury in medicine

It is a tough article. Most people should skip it:

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC8924441/#:~:text=For%20more%20than%203%2C000%20years,%2C%20dental%20amalgams%2C%20and%20substitutes.

It’s one of those articles where you have to read between the lines. But basically the ancients in China (and other places) loved mercury (extracted from Cinnabar) for burning off STI sores, and getting rid of skin diseases. And for treatment of VD in general. But I still need to read it. It is not for all of my blog’s readers. Umm. A lot of people lived weird lifestyles, and got lots of nasty diseases. And then needed a way to get rid of the disgusting and disfiguring diseases. They used mercury for this. Mercury and sexual excess went hand in hand in the ancient world. Perhaps that is why the old Chinese emperor Qin Shi Huang had rivers of mercury in his tomb. They revered mercury for its ability to prolong access to the physical pleasures of life. First emperor, and the guy who had the Terracotta Army in his tomb.

Ps: I understand that some of the words I use are anachronistic, like using the old fashioned term VD (venereal disease). But it’s fine. I do it on purpose.

PPS: see also diseases like yaws, often labeled as syphilis. It is in the same family of diseases as syphilis. If you have ever read a book like the Old Testament, then you will have read about all sorts of things to do with infectious skin diseases in the books of the law. And hygiene, and quarantine, and burning infected houses, and excluding the infected. That sort of thing is all about diseases like yaws, as well as leprosy. Disease and hygiene are a very important part of religious belief. By the way, certain nations and people groups have (and had) very different attitude towards disease and hygiene. It’s just a part of lifelong education. You also need to understand that syphilis and sexually transmitted diseases had an influence on things like the puritans and the revolution in England. Which is also a fundamental part of history. Just google “syphilis and puritans”.

You need to know that syphilis and yaws are in the arm disease family, but that yaws had existed in the old world for a long time? And syphilis showed up in about 1500.

If you want to know more about the history of epidemic disease, and medicine, then please visit this link: openYale, epidemic disease since 1600 in western civilisation.

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The Napoleon of Notting Hill

Some pleasure reading:

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/49673.The_Napoleon_of_Notting_Hill

https://www.amazon.com.au/Napoleon-Notting-Hill-G-Chesterton/dp/1602068704

https://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/20058

When I listened to this book in 2015, I thought that it was one of the funniest and cleverest books I had read in a long time. If you’re interested, read it for pleasure, not for “self improvement”.

It’s fun. It’s all about the cohort driven, statistical society. Sort of. It’s very smart.

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If you are bored, and want to read something new, here is an unrelated page about quacks, hucksters, charlatans and con artists in the field of nutrition, diet, exercise and health:

An unfinished page about charlatans and hucksters in the fields of fitness and diet

It’s fun, and informative.

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Siobhan and the idea of hatred and/or contempt for women

Siobhan fooled people into thinking that I hate women, loathe them, or view them with contempt. This is dumb. If you believe her, then you have just been fooled.

Her silly word that she uses is "misogynist", but I don't think that this is a very high quality word. And don’t think that it is used in a very intelligent manner. 

She uses selective editing and lack of context to put forward a particular point of view. Also, the people associated with this game use a lot of “garbage in garbage out” methodology with the computer system.

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Corporations

OneNZ rents spectrum to the satellites. And OneNZ is owned by Infratil. It is all corporations to me. And Infratil owns the cell towers, wait no, they just sold it to “Fortysout. And IBM or someone? They do the AI research? And if not them, it’s just some other corporation. And places Oxford, Cambridge and Harvard and Princeton did a lot of the science and social planning. They come up with the long term schemes and ideas for social engineering, the principles and fundamentals.

It’s corporations and universities.

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And by the way, 1989 was all about whether or not China was going to adopt corporations, consumerism and (state) capitalism as their model for development, and also as their way of life. As well as the vague mishmash of ideas and theories and methods coming out of universities globally.

See Dulles and the theory of peaceful evolution.

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Corporations + the education sector (including but not limited to the international university community)

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Dating non-Christian

I was very reluctant to date a non-Christian in High School. It was strongly discouraged by, and in, the books I read. It wasn't a strict rule that I was totally obliged to follow. But I was extremely reluctant to date a non-Christian. I was even reluctant to date Catholics.

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Nerve Splicing, a visual analogy

This is a visual representation of “nerve splicing”. I think.

https://youtu.be/y4dKuU3YTn4?si=cRkAUip6tmVs7LFs

This is a demonstration of splicing wires together. It can be used as an analogy for what the electromagnetic nervous system interference technology does to your nervous system, and your nerves.

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I think my dad just gave me a cold. Looks like I am recovering.

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What was I fighting for?

Back when running around outside, or even fighting while still trapped inside (around the shower thing), this after I had found out that my crippling for 7 years had been “electronic” by means of nervous system splicing, what was I fighting for?

In my heart, I was fighting for my health. I just wanted my health back.

And to be free to go for a nice, easy simple walk along the water front. That’s what I wanted.

Another point:

Uhh. See around 2014ish, birthday dinner with Amanda. I know I said this elsewhere, but I can’t even go out to dinner with my friends without being fairly unwell. Or easily go for a lunch date with Amanda, or play board games with friends, or engage in a normal conversation without feeling really unwell. You can see this stuff in the memory banks. And people like Siobhan, Brynn, Amanda, Paul and Matthew know about all of it.

That is, I have to plan for the lunch date with Amanda, and then it costs me big time with energy. And of if I sit “wrong” in the chair while eating cake and drinking tea, I’m unwell for days. Seriously!?

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Social life

Ummm. I basically had no social life from 2012 until 2016, because I couldn’t physically socialise during that period of time, due to back problems and breathing issues.

My back hurt if I tried to hang out for something like 45 minutes, or a couple of hours to talk or play board games. And then I’d feel like I had been “hit by a bus” for days. Basically, I felt rubbish for days. Had symptoms and stuff. In fact, I stopped going to weekly family dinners with Amanda’s family, I stopped going to Church on Sundays, and I stopped playing Settlers of Catan (the board game) with my friends. Even having my family to visit was a problem.

I was lacking in conversation, and very socially isolated. And that takes its toll. Lack of socialising does a lot of damage to a person’s psyche. It’s horrible and inhumane. The back problems and breathing problems were caused by stuff like nerve splicing technology.

The lack of socialising stopped over time, from 2010 onwards.

I’m serious. I had weird issues with my back, breathing, posture and overall torso. I couldn’t even sit in a normal chair that easily.

At the same time as this, I was totally unable to benefit from exercise. I was able to walk, but that was it. More about the later.

But from about 2012 to 2016, no real exercising, no real socialising.

A little socialising? But not really.

I was able to walk for 45 minutes per day (or up to one hour) for extended periods of time. At one point (I forget when) I think that in late 2015 I was walking for exactly one hour a day. But no proper exercise. And my torso felt constricted, and my breathing was bad. And socialising was difficult, and made me feel horrible.

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By the way, they lied to the computer system, and said it was “de-conditioning” that caused my health problems, and caffeine addiction. Umm. They lie to the computers all the time. They cause “GiGo” (garbage in garbage out) to happen.

I vote we ban Paul, Siobhan, Brynn, Matthew, and Amanda from “wifi” technology.

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Garbage in Garbage Out - GIGO

(GIGO) /gi:'goh/ Wilf Hey's maxim expressing the fact that computers, unlike humans, will unquestioningly process nonsensical input data and produce nonsensical output. Of course a properly written program will reject input data that is obviously erroneous but such checking is not always easy to specify and is tedious to write.

GIGO is usually said in response to lusers who complain that a program didn't "do the right thing" when given imperfect input or otherwise mistreated in some way. Also commonly used to describe failures in human decision making due to faulty, incomplete, or imprecise data.

The expansion "Garbage In, Gospel Out" is an ironic comment on the tendency to put excessive trust in "computerised" data.

https://www.computer-dictionary-online.org/definitions-g/garbage-in-garbage-out

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Falun Gong

Ummmm.

Here is my heterodox take. It's really rushed. I’m not an expert! But I just want to give people a chance to see this stuff quickly if they’re behind the times! Setting the record straight, above this post, is much more important. See that one instead of this.

Falun Gong was started in about 1993 as a deliberately subversive, non violent religious movement. They hoped to use non-violence, self improvement, spiritual practises as a means of undermining the CCP and making China a democracy. They wanted to borrow from the playbook of Martin Luther King Junior, or Ghandi. They were formed in the aftermath of the failed (pro-left) Tiananmen Square uprising against the Chinese government.

They wanted to use non violent protest to affect political and social change. Just like MLK Jr or Ghandi. They wanted to change Chinese society from the inside out.

They were crushed, killed, imprisoned, confined and murdered. The CCP led state cannibalised them for body parts. The purpose of the cannibalism was to create fear in the Chinese people, that is "if you dare defy us, we will crush, mutilate, murder you and cannibalise you for parts". They had the same "heart" as those who conducted the Ghuangxi massacres, or the same heart as the Lenin Boys in Hungary (see their statements on cannibalism). They deliberately drove these people to suicide, using horrible techniques before harvesting organs, including skin, internal organs, bone marrow and corneas.

To cannibalise body parts is to try to create fear in people, like the Māori eating people to steal their mana, or out of utu, or to strike fear in their hearts.

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"April 25, 1999: Over 10,000 Falun Gong practitioners staged a massive, peaceful protest in Beijing, gathering quietly outside the central government compound in Zhongnanhai. They were protesting harassment against fellow practitioners in Tianjin and asking for the right to practice their faith freely."

Zhongnanhai is about 500 metres away from Tiananmen Square.

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Falun Gong gatherings and protests are illegal in mainland China following the 1999 government ban, which outlawed the practice and led to widespread persecution, with practitioners facing arrest, torture, and discrimination. A key event was a large, peaceful protest of over 10,000 practitioners in Beijing in April 1999, which prompted the government ban. While protests are prohibited in China, practitioners have been able to hold demonstrations and cultural parades in places like Hong Kong and internationally.

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Persecution_of_Falun_Gong

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Guangxi_Massacre

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lenin_Boys

^ see in Lenin boys comments about cannibalism

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This is one of the reason that Xi was so fanatical about my not having a "nature religion", because he is fanatical about avoiding scary new "religions".

They use cannibalism as a tool of war, and/or psychological war.

Their morals are bad.

They have bad hearts, bad minds and bad morals.

They engage in “wrong thinking, wrong actions, and they are use wrong words/speech (dishonesty and massive obfuscation of reality).

I am going to talk about a bunch of stuff that might change your perspective when it comes to me. Please be patient.

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Take Dannevirke for example

Paul and the rest of the set have made the false assertion that I was healthy by the time I was in Dannevirke. This assertion is false.

Because of the issues with my torso. I wasn’t able to sleep on my right side. I wasn’t able to curl up on the couch with a book. I wasn’t able to relax in an armchair to watch a movie. Any of these things would have caused me big problems.

I have to do weird things just to stay upright. And it’s hard to breathe normally. I have to brace my torso and back in strange ways.

Of course my body was still disabled/impaired. And the impairment is long term.

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Health

What does it mean to be healthy? It would be to be able to jump rope, play a round of gentle tennis and a decent game of table tennis, hit a boxing bag and focus mitts. And be light on my feet once again.

And to be able to breathe normally, and not to have to brace my torso/back unnaturally. 

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I would gladly have remained celibate until I was fully healthy, and regained fully my normal capacity for physical movement.

And also had had a shave, shower (including washing my hair) and a haircut. And had some dental work.

But I wasn’t allowed to. They insisted I start having sex. I would have preferred to remain celibate.

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Seventeen years of misery

Because of them and their remote control electronic nerve splicing technology: I was very sick for four years (2007 -2011), I suffered five years of living with debilitating impairment (2011-2016), and then spent seven years totally crippled and in horrible conditions (2016-2023).

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The main thing I wanted to do once I got out of Princeton Road was to get away from the freaks who had done that to me. And start over, with a whole new set of people.

And to be left alone so that I could regain my health in peace.

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Uhhh. And I wanted to get thoroughly fit (or as fit as I can get, all things considered). And finish my university degree in accounting, even just as an arbitrary symbol of status.

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And I always wanted to be an inventor or a scientist

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I had wanted to remain celibate until I was fully, completely and thoroughly healthy. 

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Quick statement on the idea of a “coup”

Ummm. A quick statement: relating to the time just before the arrest. It might clear up some issues…

Did I want a coup? No.

Was I planning a coup? No.

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I have actually suffered horrifically. And the point of view you have had implanted into your mind is probably not realistic.

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This is how it felt, seemed to me at the time of the arrest:

Please be aware that I didn't have full information, I didn't know that the “fae” (i.e. the people who use sex and bullying to control people) existed as a mimetically spread phenomenon distributed throughout the population. And I believed that I was watched on camera for 6 years. Actual camera. And I knew that the IVF thing had happened. But also I didn't know I had been kept crippled by remote control nerve splicing (that they had spliced into my nervous system to control my muscles).

A few days before I got arrested, I thought to myself that I need to tell my story. Let people know how bad it was. And heads will roll. People will get fired, or resign. It will be something in relation to corruption. People will get fired for the things they have done, and some will be arrested.

I believed that:

That I was kept on camera for 6 years, and watched even by politicians and the CIA, that they all saw me in that house, walking back and forth, crippled, freezing cold, underweight, filthy and miserable. Struggling to get down onto the toilet seat and back, struggling to get onto the mattress of my bed and back up. And then exploited for IVF, kept for the sake of impregnation (I kept having sex primarily out of duty). I was covered in dead skin and grime. I didn't shower for seven years.

A genius was kept crippled and covered in dead skin and filth, for years, to be exploited for high IQ sperm, while being watched by the CIA? I figured it was a rogue element of NZ intelligence, working in connection with Amanda and co? I felt that the breeding aspect of it was one of the biggest parts.

Whatever it was, it was rotten.

I thought that to add a multiplier to what happened I would get arrested to implicate courts and police. Who are both corrupt. That arrest would provide a multiplier (a bit of leverage).

But then I would get evidence, and then get out to the general public, before taking my story to the media.

But first I had to recover my health!

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By the way, the DIA lied to me, about Lily. Didn't give me the paperwork when I asked for it. Filled out the forms.

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They have some bizarre accounting, by which they decide I want to do something (coup) or desire something or harbour desires. But I think that these methods are daft. They’re designed for horrible people who lie all the time, even in their own minds. Their methods of figuring out what I want are nonsense.

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I had thought that by extending the olive branch of peace to Siobhan, we might bring about a cessation of conflict? But negotiations broke down. It was an attempt at a peace deal. She’s not important to me. I just thought that she might fear reprisals, and that a long term relationship might protect both of us. If I had her long term, I thought I might be able to form a lasting peace.

 

To be honest, I think she’s in over her head?

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I nearly formed a lasting peace through Brynn. And I think that would have worked. But the Xi set (and Xi himself) got in the way of that. Blasting her. This arrangement (long term Brynn) did not appeal to me (for personality reasons, and history; note: she is hot, blahblahblah), but it made good practical sense. And it would have solved this situation for me and for her.

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Intellectual Exercise

They knew that "reverse social engineering" at the time was a part of an intellectual exercise. And that I engaged in my intellectual exercise to keep myself sane. While suffering horribly for years.. even though Siobhan hides and obscures how bad things were, by misleading people through bad and “low quality” reporting.

Most of it was analysis, and hypotheticals. And the creation of imaginary frameworks. It was sort of the work of an inventor?

I already have discussed this in other parts of my blog.

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What was the intellectual exercise all about? Not that moving the world like a lever was all about implementing it!!

The idea is to disrupt pre-existing power structures in favour of democratic governance, and the welfare of the 80% (that is, the "normals" of society).

It is inherently anti-totalitarian.

The idea is that you create a "toolkit" for social change. Find the weak point! The best spot to create change. And then release it online, and publicise it heavily. Accompany it with a bunch of ideas and theories, and some educational materials. And then let people use it however they want.

The change is supposed to be in the form of non violent reformism. But the framework could also be used for peaceful, non violent revolution (see Canada's Quebec Revolution). It could also be used for a technological revolution (such as the Gutenberg revolution).

I also hate the patent system and the copy right system.

See: rent seeking (an economics concept).

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Just as an aside:

As for economic system:

Personally, I am in favour of social democracy for New Zealand, and in general. But some other forms of economic governance/system seem okay to me.

By the way: I didn't want to do anything with any of this!

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Some other models such as those used by Mondragon corporation, or syndicalism, labour unionism, cooperatives, mass agricultural small holdings also seem interesting. Some limited use of collective agriculture can be good for niche purposes. Like a village connected to a fair bit of land, managed collectively (see Marinaleda).

I don’t want to get bogged down in conversations about economic model.

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IVF and cover up

Amanda used IVF and Brynn’s egg to have a baby using my sperm without my written consent. Which is illegal, and could lead to jail time for multiple people. I was exploited for reproductive purposes.

They then covered it up (or have attempted to do so) using the New Zealand courts (both the family courts and district courts) and the New Zealand police. They also used the services of Dr. Janet Turnbull (palliative care specialist and NZOM member, head of ORA) to cover it up, along with my own doctors surgery (Raumati Beach surgery). Janet Turnbull is a very prominent doctor in the greater Wellington region. 

The Department of Internal Affairs also participated in the cover up (lying and engaging in time wasting when I requested vital information about the parentage of my daughter just before going to court). I needed information before I went to court. I lost money and custody, and had my health very badly damaged because of them in particular.

As did my uncle, Andy Foster, then mayor of Wellington, now a member of parliament.

This all happened while I was totally crippled, and kept crippled by means of “electromagnetic spectrum remote control nerve splicing technology.” I.e. they “splice” directly into your nerves to control your muscles to tighten or slacken them etc (it’s a long story).

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Movement, thought, brain and muscle and posture

The level of understanding when it comes to the connection between mind and body, brain and muscle, posture and consciousness, memory and habit, movement and stillness, thought and action, nervous system and awareness is probably fairly limited. I think that our understanding of it is in its infancy.

And we as a species still have a lot to learn, when it comes to the arts and sciences and traditions and customs associated with physical movement.

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Tomoe Takahashi

Paul slept with Tomoe Takahashi when she was 17, a high school exchange student and living with us. She was going to Taradale High School, I was at Taradale intermediate. He then started a long term relationship with her.

Her English was very bad, and it was the first time she was living away from home. She came to us via AFS at the age of 16 and was supposed to be a part of our family, like a sister or a daughter. She was in 6th form, her penultimate year of high school. My parents were still together at the time. 

This is her at the age of about 35/40. I’m not sure exactly how old she is in this picture.

My parents split shortly after Tomoe Takahashi left to go home to Japan for her final year in high school.

The official narrative for my parent’s separation was that my mother was unfaithful to my father many times, and that my father was a faithful husband, blameless, and a Christian.

My father moved to Paraparaumu after my parents split up. And then Tomoe Takahashi came back to New Zealand to live with him in Paraparaumu. She studied law at Victoria University. They had different rooms and pretended that they weren’t sleeping together.

I moved to Paraparaumu to live with my father. It was only after I had moved from Taradale to Paraparaumu (a 4 hour drive) to live with my father that I found out that they were sleeping together. I didn’t find out for weeks/months? They hid it. By then it was too late to move back.

Tomoe Takahashi and my father were together for 3-4 years in total, before he broke up with her. She was a victim. She loved Paul, and wanted to marry him.

Note: I had moved to live with my father because I preferred him to my mother, and thought that my mother’s infidelity had destroyed their marriage, and that he was a better and more moral person than my mother.

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Edit/update

More information on Tomoe Takahashi

She was a victim. She loved Paul, and wanted to marry him. 

Here is how the break up happened, after they were together for 3-4 years. 

He pushed her to move out of the house, by using the excuse that Matthew hated her, and threatened her, and then broke up with her later, after she had been living in Wellington for a few months.

The excuse that he made was, “Matthew walked into their room, caught them together, and said that if he ever caught them together he’d kill her” or something like that. So Tomoe moved out.

Matthew and Dad had a weird thing going where they pretended that Matthew was socially awkward and had Asperger’s Syndrome and got angry at certain things (my father even had him diagnosed). And had a bad temper, and was dangerous. The excuse was a lie, obviously.

My father later discarded her, just dumped her. And said that it was too hard to date her when she was living in Wellington (they kept dating for a while after she moved out, months or something). When he dumped her, she slapped him. She threatened to run up huge bills on her phone for him to pay, but that came to nothing.

I don’t hate her, but also don’t want to see her.

Sorry for the long and weird conversation. But my family is horrible.

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This is going way into the past now… 2004-2006,  it it’s inportant

Dating in high school

Back in High School, I had a rule that I wasn’t going to date anyone who wasn’t a Christian. You’re not supposed to be “unequally yolked” in a relationship with a non believer. I also wasn’t going to date anyone who was a Catholic, because I was a little unsure of Catholics and Catholicism.

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Bible Verse

I believed in scriptures such as 2 Corinthians 6:14, “do not be yolked together with unbelievers.”

“Warning Against Idolatry

Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? What harmony is there between Christ and Belial? Or what does a believer have in common with an unbeliever? What agreement is there between the temple of God and idols? For we are the temple of the living God.”

2 Corinthians 6:14-16

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It wasn’t a sin to have a non-Christian girlfriend. But it was something probably best avoided. The Christian books I read at the time advised against it.

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Lust and sex

I thought that lust and dwelling on lustful thoughts was wrong. And that it was important to avoid sexual immorality.

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I used to believe in scriptures such as:

Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body.

1 Corinthians 6:18

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Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.

2 Timothy 2:22

“But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart. If your right eye causes you to stumble, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell.” Matthew, sermon on the mount 

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I used to memorise scripture, and try to live according to it.

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Should I have a girlfriend at all? Back then..

Ummm. But I thought that I probably wouldn’t get one at all. There was some logic to it: celibacy was compulsory. I was going to remain celibate. And if one is celibate, then getting girlfriend is a waste of time. Because what is the point of having a girlfriend if you can’t sleep with her. Why not just have a friend?

Also, if you have a girlfriend, there will be the temptation to have sex. And sometimes… It just kind of happens? So… why run the risk (This was my reasoning as a teenager). And accidental pregnancy is an issue.

Also, given that I was supposed to avoid “lust”, and the dwelling on sexual thoughts and fantasies of women that aren’t mine (take captive every thought), it simplifies things to not have a girlfriend. If I were to have a girlfriend, I’ll get too close to her, and feel desires and have thoughts that I’m not supposed to have.

No girlfriend = reduces “attack surface” for lust, and unwanted sinful sexual thoughts and fantasies.

If I had a girlfriend, even to fantasise about sleeping with her was a sin. Or to dwell on the wrong thoughts was a sin.

Even to dwell on the thought (mentally) of having sex with someone who didn’t belong to be, and I wasn’t married to, was technically wrong.

(I also wanted a smart girl, which limited the size of dating pool quite a bit. That is, if I had anyone at all.)

Soooo, that’s some background to why I wasn’t chasing girls back when I was young.

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For a certain type of person, there’s some extra stuff (unfinished) down the bottom of this page. Extra discussion about Christianity in New Zealand and who know what and when.

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Character and personality

I’m kind-hearted and fair-minded, compassionate, reasonable and patient. 

I’m neither a bully, nor cruel. I am however a little sarcastic; light teasing is as far as it goes for me.

I am not 100% logical or rational. I’d rather treat people well, or be moral and decent, than be perfectly logical.

I hate injustice and the mistreatment of others. I hate senseless violence and mass murder, including murder by means of weaponised stupidity and wilful pigheaded ignorance. I don’t like totalitarianism, because it inevitably ends in mass graves.

I hate bigotry* based on gender, race, language, looks, weight, intellect etc. Uh, race, gender and looks mostly.

I see people as having a tremendous amount of inherent and/or intrinsic value, as though there is a deity who loves them, and cherishes them. And so I often feel sympathetic anger in response to injustice, and harm caused through senseless stupidity. Please note, I also grew up believing in eternal life after death, and the resurrection of souls. And so a lot of the attitude associated with feeling that people are tremendous valuable creatures still exists.

I am legitimately a good person. If you think I am a bad person, then that’s just you projecting your inner badness, internal wickedness and moral unworthiness on me.

Much of my moral compass is still fundamentally Christian in nature (things like love and humility; I will not explain or defend these two terms). That’s how I grew up.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 NIV

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I have actually suffered horrifically, and the point of view you have had implanted into your mind is probably not realistic.

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Also, they acted like they’d smashed my soul to pieces, because of the “stop sound” and tapping ‘physical gesture’ neurolinguistic programming thing. Umm. My mind is still all here. Hi! How are you!

I’m still alive and kicking!! My mind and soul are still here!!

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I’m absent minded. Or at least I used to be. I used to day dream all the time! But you guys force me to pay attention to your garbage all day!

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Clarification, and more information:

You need to know a bit of background for this one

They used AI generated software to automate it

2016 to 2022… Uhh. They set up an AI generated computer program to keep the muscles on my insides taut, or to maintain excessive tension. Even as I shifted from sitting to standing. They did it for years, to maintain the crippling.

It wasn’t “water guns” as these delusional people claim that it was (they keep on telling me that it was “just water guns”, and showing me a picture of a small water pistol, but it wasn’t).

It meant that I couldn’t heal or otherwise restore the proper shape of my torso. Language doesn’t capture the information or truth of the matter properly: but it was a travesty, and worse than you realise. And there was no way to solve it.

They were and are totally out of touch with reality on this one.

They created an automated computerised widget.

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A body into that shape is wrong

To put a body into that shape (I.e. position and arrangement of bones and muscles and sinew) and then to keep it that way for six years deserves a lifetime in prison. A worse punishment than that for murder. Uhh. I’m not being over the top.  It was a highly unnatural way for a back, pelvis, hips and shoulders to be. But it is very difficult to pain the right picture for you in words.

You have to have read the other things that I wrote to understand it fully.

Ps: I get manipulated into sounding “shrill” but to tell the truth about these sorts of things makes a person sound shrill. And this set of people have desensitised themselves to human suffering. But it really was incredibly bad.

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I like the term “cruel and unusual punishment”. And it was done in service of the hopes of enriching and impregnating bunch of women/lesbians. It was for money and sperm.

Torture is a fine term, but cruel and unusual punishment fits the situation better.

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Clarification for some of the guys from  “Chinese intelligence” who were asking questions

Back at 5 Weka Road when we were 20 (this is in 2009), we were a couple, Christians, married and faithful to one another (so far as I knew, at least). I wasn't a “run away”, and I still had a relationship with my father and mother. My brother even lived with us for a while.

I attended the Coast Community Church, along with Amanda (where both of us were baptized). Many of our friends went there.

I was as sick as a dog; and had just dropped out of university.

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Health problems = caused by satellite/cell tower

Wife = no good

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Everybody knew what caused my health problems, and that my wife was no good. And no one told me the truth. They all kept me in the dark. Including my father, my friends, my mother, my pastors, my many doctors, my physiotherapists, and my in-laws. My bad health (labeled chronic fatigue syndrome - cfs at the time) was a common topic of conversation, and what I could do about it. They kept me in the dark about my very bad health also. I’ve written about this elsewhere.

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Sick as a dog

I was as sick as a dog from 2007 to 2011 (I scraped my way through two years of university before I had to quit), and then I was badly impaired, very badly impaired, for 5 years until 2016. And then crippled for seven years, until 2023.

It morphed from chronic health problems early on into back problems. The health problems were caused by “remote control electromagnetic spectrum nerve splicing”, combined with the manipulation of my bodies own internal systems and muscles to destroy my health, sleep and wellbeing. They caused me to experience significant symptoms using my own body’s systems.

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Ps: these women (Siobhan, Brynn, Amanda, Sarah) have lied to you, and misled you, causing you to behave foolishly.

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Short story: no moving parts by Murray F. Yaco

This is a fun metaphor for our current intellectual and technical landscape, our current mode of civilisation, it is in the form of a short story. It’s a fantastic story, and it’s really short.

In audio:

https://youtu.be/PSP7MzwLpvk?si=KqqUHzacj_gtkVlT

In text:

No Moving Parts by Murray F. Yaco

“A machine can be built to do any accurately described job better than any man. The superiority of a man is that he can do an unexpected, undescribed, and emergency job ... provided he hasn't been especially trained to be a machine.

MURRAY F. YACO, Unspecialist”

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Education Minister

“Xi Zhongxun was designated as Minister of the Publicity Department of the Chinese Communist Party and concurrently served as deputy director and Party Secretary of the Government Administration Council's Committee on Culture and Education.”

==> Deputy director Government Administration Council's Committee on Culture and Education

That role is “Government” not party.

Given that he is one of the “8 influential elders” at the time, and also head of the party’s “publicity department”, that makes him education minister.

He is in the Mao Zedong’s “cabinet”, and he is education minister equivalent.

The publicity department could be renamed the party committee for values, organisational culture, cadre curriculum, and censorship.

Given his other role in the publicity department, and the fact that he is the party secretary on that committee, he hight actually be the most influential member on the Government Administration Council's Committee on Culture and Education.

I just wanted to let people know that he was the equivalent of Mao Zedong’s education minister. As well as being head of propaganda.

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What does it mean to be a bad egg?

https://youtu.be/3O_lmBLvVeQ?si=xPGDFlA19NXAGVPU

https://youtu.be/TRTkCHE1sS4?si=1UdrmxjSzdIC9HJB

https://youtu.be/APj2ArUy6v4?si=U_VEHsQ8kYXGqX4y

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Psychology

The ongoing (post)-modern experiment in social psychology is pretty daft, if you ask me.

But I guess we’ll see how it all goes?!

A lot of this bullocks is all to do with psychology. Or it uses psychology. A lot of it is talked about by Aldous Huxley and C.S Lewis. They are good people to understand it from.

A lot of it uses psychology invented, tested and popularised by B.F. Skinner. I don’t like B.F. Skinner. If you want to know more about him, then just read a psychology textbook. For what it’s worth, I don’t like psychology. I think it’s daft.

I prefer the theories of mind and analysis of human behaviour found in religious traditions (Christian religion, or other Abrahamic), or things like transactional analysis. I prefer the methods of managing human behaviour found in religious traditions. I don’t think all that highly of psychology as a science.

The Abrahamic religions understand human nature better than secular psychology. And they have better ideas when it comes to what people are, and how to live good lives. Zoroastrianism also has some fantastic practical ideas on how to manage human behaviour and culture.

Buddhism is a bad “religion”. But I don’t want to call it a religion, I would rather call it the far eastern cult of emptiness. It has bad theory of mind, and doesn’t help societies to become better places. It’s just another form of polytheistic idolatry, but it has the mind training technique of emptying out your mind, with the long term effect of hollowing you out so that the bad things in the world don’t bother you so much. Every time you think a thought, you have to kill it! By focusing your attention on letting it go! Or by focusing on your breath, or upper lips. Eventually your mind stops struggling, and you stop having thoughts arise. It kills off a part of your “self”, and stultifies your mind. It’s sick! IT’S FUCKING EVIL!!

[Digression: Psychology is a very soft science, if it counts as a proper science at all. It sits just on the diving line between the social sciences and the actual science. I think that a lot of it only just counts as science. By the way, it stinks as a science, and lacks academic and intellectual rigour. Economics and management theory don’t count as science, not really, so why should psychology? It’s the softest science out there.]

It is a social science, and can be useful. Just like sociology or economics. But it’s “fluffy”. It’s just applied behavioural analysis dressed up in the language of science. It’s the best example of scientism I could possibly come up with.

A lot of the psychology goes hand in hand with philology. 

See C.S. Lewis “the space trilogy” and Brave New World, and Brave New World Revisited by Huxley of you want to know more about the intersection between philology and psychology. The space trilogy has a lot in there about it.

And see also the “psychology of distraction”. Distraction is important. See this lecture from Harvard: towards an archaeology of distraction. I haven’t listened to it yet. Distraction: It is a tool for managing and controlling the population. Fahrenheit 451 touches on this briefly.

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Discussion regarding women

Update: Hi Brynn, yes. 95% sure. I’ll keep you. Yes, and long term. You’re crazy, but it makes sense. It solves a lot of problems, and it’ll be fun. And you’re hot. This only holds true if the “system” keeps up its end of the deal. For example, if the Chinese set ruins this situation or deal (again) then it might not work out.

Grace, Ambika and Angela also (+ Maya) and I think we’re okay.

That means I think I’m pretty much sorted.

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Hookworm analysis, I can’t vouch for it though.

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC5015833/

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I’m half blind without my glasses. Seriously.

But I can’t seem to manage to wear them anymore? Not since ages ago.

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Siobhan is Gone

I tried to extend the olive branch of peace to Siobhan, but talks have broken down. I had hoped that we could for some sort of lasting peace, by starting a relationship. And that it was appropriate in their bizarre culture to do so, but it turned out that it isn’t really possible. I also felt obliged to fight for her (or anyone) early on. I think that their culture and organisational structure is dysfunctional.

I’ve decided to cut off further negotiations.

And so I’m getting rid of her.

I don’t know what else to do?

I think that she’s just a bad egg.

And a bit daft.

https://youtu.be/TRTkCHE1sS4?si=003nBI5OSYF72lt6

Ps: I paid more attention to Siobhan than the others just because she had a nice instagram. And because I was supposed to fight for someone?

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Women

Preferences, in order:

Grace

Ambika

Angela

Brynn

These are the ones who said they were mine in perpetuity, to do with them as I pleased, see microblog for more information (with one or two exceptions).

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See also:

Maya (short term only though)

Sarah (from accounting class, now a lawyer) and Clare also said they were mine in perpetuity, to do with them as I pleased. But I might leave them alone.

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All I need is my health, and a shower, shave and a haircut first.

Re: victory, mentioned above…

It will also take me about 6 months to fully recover my health and my “capacity for physical movement”. 

Digression: Some might disagree, but that’s just how the body works. I have to reprogram my body. (aka, posture, breathing, coordination, eye sight, back health. The postural and muscle tone “set points” and “equilibrium points” need to be reprogrammed. Until those are all fixed, I have to do tons of stuff just to compensate for the issues, lots of workarounds. And the workarounds  are far from perfect {direct conscious control of muscles, joints and tendons etc, and a lot of mind-body methods; as well as self made brain-muscle control techniques, combined with NLP, and other techniques. Some of the techniques were ones I developed using tools from meditation, MBSR}. It’s awful. A total disaster. I’m only just functioning. And not really.)

It takes time to “reprogram” a body that has been broken down into this state. I repeat, to rebuild my body, I will have to “reprogram” it. The human body doesn’t work the way you think it does.

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Twelve Years

They can’t “soul receive”, the fact that they caused a good man to be badly physically impaired between 2011 and 2016, and then extremely badly crippled from between 2016 and 2023. That’s twelve years.

They pretend it wasn’t as bad as it was, or that it wasn’t their fault. Or that they only used a small amount of nerve splicing harm.  Or that it was something else. Or that it was justified.

But it was twelve years.

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Dumb Jargon: “soul receive” it is a very silly term, and a bit naff, but in this case it means to accept the truth, and understand it with all their mind, body, heart and soul, and assimilate it into their being.

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Post-script: and I was already sick before that. I was chronically ill from 2007 to 2011. I was ill all along.

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General Education

Here is some general education about the enclosure movement. In England we engaged in the forced privatisation of agriculture. We did this, and we did it for good or for ill. It is wise to read about it.

It was probably unjust, and forced people off of the land. But it greatly improved agricultural output, and fed the people.

As a side effect, a lot of the people pushed off of the land ended up in the cities, and formed a large potential labour force of people desperate for work. They were poor and needed jobs, and many ended up working in factories. It is a very important part of history. Don’t view it with modern eyes, and don’t view it with a “value laden” point of view, instead just try to understand it dispassionately and objectively.

It is an extremely important part of history, for a variety of reasons. And it isn’t hard to learn about. You can lead a lot in just 45 minutes or more. Good luck.

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BBC Radio Four: In Our Time

The Enclosures of the 18th Century

Melvyn Bragg and guests discuss the 18th and 19th century enclosure movement which divided the British countryside both literally and figuratively.

https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b00b1m9b

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Description of In Our Time, taken from Wikipedia

In Our Time is a BBC Radio 4 discussion series and podcast exploring a wide variety of historical, scientific and philosophical topics, presented by Melvyn Bragg, since 15 October 1998. It is one of Radio 4's most successful discussion programmes, acknowledged to have "transformed the landscape for serious ideas at peak listening time".

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More education about the enclosure movement and the modernisation of agriculture

I think that the enclosure movement and the modernisation of agriculture, as well as the consequences of those two things, are also briefly covered in The Industrial Revolution by Patrick N. Allitt, a course available from the great courses. This series covers a wide variety of other topics. It covers things like production of pig/wrought iron, coal, steel production, industrial textiles, Wedgwood and the pottery business (tableware), steam power and steam shipping. The lecture series is informative, but fairly easy to follow. You will learn a lot.

https://www.thegreatcoursesplus.com/the-industrial-revolution

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About the lecturer:

Patrick N. Allitt, Emory University

"We live in a world that has created many new incentives for us to become lifelong learners. Luckily, lifelong learning is a pleasure."

Patrick N. Allitt is a Professor of American History at Emory University, where he has taught since 1988. He received his PhD in American History from the University of California, Berkeley.

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Please consider reading these 

as well as listening to the Melvyn Bragg radio show:

https://medium.com/@esme.garlake/what-was-the-enclosure-movement-ef2ac0df05cb

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enclosure

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In China, Kazakhstan and Ukraine they engaged in the forced collectivisation of agriculture.

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Old information, here for the sake of completeness. You can skip it if you want.

Victory

A while back, Xi said I was victorious because “I shagged Dasha and loved it”. And the women are supposed to put out, and he called them “dumb bitch ho’s.”

But then people kept on damaging me!

But I still won, according to their absurd rules.

[See the microblog at 21 July]

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They kept me crippled: 24/7 - 365

After the thing that happened in 2016, and my back went bad, they kept my body locked down using with my own muscles for 6 years. They maintained tight muscles.

The thing that happened (this is a new attempt of a new description) it changed the relationship between my pelvis and hips, as well as my shoulders chest and back. As well as my abdominal muscles and my torso as a whole. And then pulled everything taut internally, so I could never reassert a normal relationship between hips and pelvis, shoulders and back. It compromised and ruined the integrity of my back/shoulders and chest, and the hip/pelvis relationship (hips turned out, pelvis rolled inwards, tailbone up, and ruined the integrity of my feet, and ruined the integrity and support of my abdominal wall. While standing, I couldn’t even pick up my feet off the ground to waggle them about safely!! I struggled to get on to the toilet, and off again. I had to brace my hips and pelvis together.

They kept it that way, actively, using my own muscles, 24/7.

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China Education System

China deliberately corrupted their own education system. They dumbed themselves down. And it shows.

Dumbed themselves down from 49 to 58, and then lost tens of millions people because of stupidity.

And they still dumb themselves down now, and it shows.

Ram, remember, regurgitate.

And bad psychology, including bad social psychology.pa/ not all education occurs at school and university. A lot of it happens via the (harmonised) media, and cadre education schools.

Xi’s dad has a lot of influence on curriculum in the lead up to the Great Leap Forward. He functioned as the equivalent of a cabinet minister, and an education* minister.

And later he did a lot of stuff in the areas of constitutional law, kinda like Geoffrey Palmer.

Added:

(While chairman of the CCP propaganda department, which is responsible for censorship and also party cadre curriculum), he concurrently served as deputy director and Party Secretary of the Government Administration Council's Committee on Culture and Education.

He participated in the miseducation of the Chinese people and cadres in the 50s, and then a bunch of people died. Not all of the blood of the 30-40 million killed after the 50s is on Mao’s hands alone.

He helped to dumb people down prior to the Great Leap Forward!

Just read those two speeches of Mao’s I referenced the other day if you want to know how bad it was! They (party cadres) had to be issued economics textbooks on the fly during the famine, because they didn’t have them.

https://www.marxists.org/reference/archive/mao/selected-works/volume-8/mswv8_03.htm

https://www.marxists.org/reference/archive/mao/selected-works/volume-8/mswv8_34.htm

The Chinese are asinine. They killed all of their sparrows, and then had a biblical sized plague of locusts. They tried to surpass Great Britain in steel production (the hallmark of industrialisation) and failed even to remember the difference between steel and iron, instead making a whole bunch of uneconomic pig iron.

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(See the The Industrial Revolution, Great Scientific Ideas That Changed the World lecture series, for more education and information, including metallurgy and the manufacture of steel, and improvements in agriculture made in the west that the East failed to replicate). As well as Mao: The Unknown Story for a good general (emotive) understanding of the Great Leap Forward.

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Uhhhh. Back as far back as 2009/2010, what I wanted was to just finish my studies at university, and then get a job. And also socialise more. But I wasn't able to. Because I was too sick.

I couldn't even sit at a desk and use a computer normally. Nor could I sit at a desk and do schoolwork (uni) properly. Nor could I even sit at the dining room table to play board games. Which means that I couldn't study, work or socialise. I just wanted a normal job, and okay-ish health.

I couldn’t even help a friend of Amanda’s with her economics homework.

They would hurt my spine, impede my breathing, and cause such strain and suffering that I would sweat weird sweat (it sounds silly, but the sweat itself was weird).

I think I wrote about this in “misc stories”, currently appended to the end of grab bag. Misc stories isn’t “perfect” as a document, but it’s okay. It has some useful information in it.

Health

Studies

A job

Socialise

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“Feminism” and the social roles and legal capacities of women

Second wave feminism, and a bit of first wave feminism.

I actually agree with a lot of the goals set forth by second wave feminism, and a lot of the ideas of first wave feminism (especially the anti alcohol part of it). One disclaimer, the movements themselves are full of garbage and were used to subvert societies. But the goals and ideas make a lot of sense to me, in theory at least.

It’s complicated what I actually think, but if you actually understand the theory, it’s worth looking at.

Things like, should a woman be able to open a bank account, get an education at a polytech, purchase the contraceptive pill, get a job in a typically male dominated area. Get a degree in science. Should she be able to leave a violent husband. Do men drink too much back then? Yeah.

I am not a woman hater?? And I don’t hate the ideas of feminists, a fair bit of the time.

I am not actively pushing any of these policies, and I’m unwilling to fight for or against them.

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Switch topics..

Different time period….

Basically, I was walking for an hour a day, and then they mollywangled my muscles so that I couldn’t even do that. 

And then the bad thing in 2016 happened.

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Walking for an hour a day had been a long standing habit. It was the only thing I could do for exercise.

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I was in bed for long periods of time back then. I was very unwell. I couldn’t move properly. Also, I had whole weeks or fortnight’s where my mind was “blanked”.

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Historical issue:

Syntax

I’m not really capable of “wanting” according to the syntactic rules pushed by these people. Their syntax sucks.

They want me to “visualise” according to their rules and “cognitive syntax”, and they also want me to use their language and vocabulary to “want” the women. And it’s annoying!!

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Think of this as just helpful terminology.

Updated:

Nerve Splicing

Define nerve splicing:

To splice is to join together. You can join rope or wires together by splicing.

What they do is splice their computers into our nervous system (the nerve tissue itself) using electro magnetic spectrum radiation (and the constructive/destructive interference points between them, as well as the highly complex relationships that are constructed out of constructive and destructive interference, along with timing, lots of timing. And triangulation. It’s complicated, but I think those are the building blocks.). They connect directly to our nerves. They splice into them. Including the optic nerve (I think).

They create “analogue” signals (or read them) inside our nerves. Our actual physical nerves. Telling them what to do, what to see. Or reading what they are feeling. Your nerves already use electrical signals, but the way. “It” hijacks your nerves by splicing itself in.

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Here is a picture of some nerves: warning, graphic!!

This is nerve tissue:

https://houstonhandandwrist.com/medical-conditions/painful-nerve-scarring/

https://www.headachesurgery.com/occipital-nerve-decompression-migraine-surgery/

Warning, graphic. Pictures of surgery.

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Disclaimer: I’m not 100% sure of how this stuff works.

Note: I found the term “nerve splicing” in the book Neuromancer, in the first few opening pages. Neuromancer, by William Gibson is a fantastic book. It can help you to learn a lot about culture. Particularly technology, corporate culture, the weakness of Governments, and the male-female dynamic. Better than Snow Crash. Way better. (I mean, I’ve never read Snow Crash, but so what).

They “splice” their electronic nervous system into ours.

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Here is a visual metaphor of what splicing is, with wires.

Here is another analogy: they “graft” or “splice” their electronic nerves into ours.

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More history

Here is some history on the development of science and technology.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aether_(classical_element)

“Einstein noted that his own model which replaced these theories could itself be thought of as an aether, as it implied that the empty space between objects had its own physical properties.”

The interesting parts are in the “legacy” tab.

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Hiding

Personally, I’d just like for there to be places to hide. Just from the satellites themselves. Or the “remote control electromagnetic nerve splicing” technology itself (from both satellites and cell towers).

And the best way to do that is with a social movement combined with new technologies.

I want people to be able to take refuge. Aka, to seek shelter, or to hide from this technology in the skies. We can live hidden? We can form the new “underground” of electromagnetically hidden people. We can have minds that are private again, and we can rebuild our personalities through a combination of education, conversation, reading and privacy. We can have normal friendship again.

I’m not a hive-mind guy. There are a lot of people out there who just aren’t hive-mind guys, or hive-mind girls.

Postscript

Note: In the aggregate, over time, culture changes. But never mind that for now. Get the technology operating first. 

Note 2: But in the medium to long term, culture matters. As Drucker said, “Culture eats strategy for breakfast”.

Privacy, education, conversation, friendship, shelter

https://youtu.be/C7ayji3ipyI?si=9ZMboGd93Kpr0I_3

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Mandatory HIV Quarantines in Cuba

Cuba had a controversial system of mandatory HIV quarantines in "sanitariums" (health resorts/prisons) from 1986 until the 1990s, where positive individuals lived isolated to stop the epidemic, offering care but costing freedom, with the system evolving into voluntary clinics by the 2000s, though its legacy of strong control and ethical debate remains. 

Key Aspects of the Cuban HIV Sanitariums:

Mandatory Quarantine (1986-1990s): Anyone testing positive for HIV was sent to isolated facilities, creating a system seen as "pretty prisons" by critics but credited for controlling the epidemic's spread by supporters.

"Double-Edged Sword": Residents received excellent free care, food, shelter, and education, shielding them from homophobia, but lost liberty and connection to family/jobs.

Effectiveness & Controversy: The policy significantly lowered Cuba's HIV prevalence, but raised major human rights concerns about arbitrary detention and freedom.

Read between the lines, and read a quick history of it. It’s just history, and it’s fascinating.

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This segment is really rugged/rough, am too tired to be writing tbh.

Back issues, and digestive issues

They gave me very bad back problems over many years, discussed elsewhere. These started in early 2007. They also gave me very bad digestive problems, discussed elsewhere.

They did so by means of what I call “remote control nerve splicing”. They accessed my nervous system by means of “electromagnetic remote control”.

Define and discuss “remote control nerve splicing”

To splice is to join together. You can join rope or wires together by splicing.

What they do is splice their computers into my nervous system (the nerve tissue itself) using electro magnetic spectrum radiation.

Ummm. I had back problems from the age of 2007 onwards. And had to do a lot to try to help them.

I had a lot of trouble with physiotherapists. I tried to do stuff with books on posture and breathing. And I tried alternative therapies. Not much success.

A lot of physiotherapists hurt my back, and I tried books on posture “like posture makes perfect” by vic barker. And I tried the Alexander technique (the books do nothing),  but the lessons/sessions help to relieve pain/suffering. Funny story though, every time I went to a session, they helped reduce my symptoms, but the remote control nerve splicing, they reduced the symptoms, and tightness in my inner muscles. Which meant that I felt much better. They also reduced the symptoms for my digestion.

What I mean by symptoms, for my back, is that they tightened down the overall posture for my torso long term, via my inner muscles. And I didn’t know what caused it. It really messes with you long term, particularly if you don’t understand it.

Years of it lol. It’s horrible.

I tried five different stints of physio with like 5 different physios.

I also tried stuff like yoga, tai chi, meditation, MBSR, headspace, hatha, ashtanga, breathing, posture, Tibetan five rites, Esther gokhale 8 steps to reduce back pain. Cranial sacral, acupuncture, physio adjustments, tons of physiotherapy exercises. Anything. Everything.

I saw something like 7-8 doctors as well, including a neurologist, cardiologist, and sleep specialists.

I’m going to do this post properly in the next few days.

Alexander technique sessions were the only thing that relived my symptoms and made me feel okay. Whenever I went to sessions, my back felt better, and I could breathe again. I slept better, and my bowels moved again. I felt like a totally different person.

The lessons themselves helped. But I also think they let up on the pressure on my psoas/iliacus, by remote control.

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I think they had just a touch of pressure on my core muscles by remote control maybe 24 hours a day, at certain points. I’m not 100% sure. They had my body tightened, and posture ruined, and back screwed up, and when I did the natural/alternative therapy, it relieved the issues but also they let up the pressure from the remote control nerve splicing.

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I already described a lot of it, in other pages. The stuff that happened to me later on. Such as 2016..

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Note: maintaining extra, or tons of tension 24/7 on the psoas and iliacus, or core muscles in general, can cause severe long term changes to the whole of the posture of the body. Especially because people are trying to solve it, and can’t figure out what’s causing it. And also because exercise doesn’t work.

The whole story still hasn’t been to, but most of it is available elsewhere, for those who still have a mind that can think.

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Tentative attempt to supply more information.

Via doing bad things to my back, they made it unpleasant to play board games with my friends. I had to quit. I couldn’t play video games at a console or a computer. I couldn’t lay down to read. I couldn’t lay down in bed on my back normally. They would hurt my back if I tried to socialise normally. Having family around to socialise for 30-40 minutes wasn’t really doable at certain points. In fact, it was only once I slightly better understood the nature of what happened (reverse engineering part of it) that I was able to do things again like conversation (starting in 2022).

And then in 2016, they ruined my ability to walk normally (I struggled to go for my usual daily walk), and then took my back out altogether. Crippling me fully.

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Other: they would micromanage the stuff they did to my back, but I didn’t know it at the time. They would micromanage me so that I couldn’t socialise (I sometimes had people to visit), and it was nice to socialise, but it hurt me physically! My back hurt, and I had symptoms (understatement).

They also prevented me from doing study, or learning programming, this was when I did tentatively attempt to get back into it. They would tighten up my back so that I couldn’t really use the computer. They also used the causing of issues to make it hard to even practise the skills of study. Like doing practise questions at a desk was hard. Really hard!

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More: I couldn’t even sit normally at certain parts of my life to enjoy breakfast with my in laws, dinner with friends, or go to a cafe with Amanda.

More: my body wouldn’t let me socialise normally. It would hurt/damage me too much to socialise, or go to family dinner with my in laws (they had family dinner once every week). 

[I’m too sleepy to do the full story on my back problems at the moment. I’ll get onto it when I can.]

For example, I’d try to go to a cafe to get cake with Amanda once a fortnight, in 2013ish. For a date, but it would cost me pretty big. In terms of symptoms and making me unwell. I couldn’t even sit normally anymore! This was due to what they were doing to my torso from the inside. Small example, but important. By this time I was not capable of even going out to play board games or whatever with friends. My whole health was ruined.

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First draft:

There was a little bit of "push pull", and when I did things like socialise, or go out for food with Amanda, or family dinner, or try to study, they would increase the tension internally, and I'd also feel worse.

When I did the alternative treatment known as the "Alexander technique" the symptoms would lessen. Both directly, due to the method. But also because they'd ease up off of the remote control tension.

I did a fair bit of the Alexander technique over the years.

I'll try to explain it better later.

First draft over, of this segment 

Umm. This sort of stuff does actually remap your body. The remote control stuff. And inability to exercise. And alternative therapies. Remapping = changing the "postural set point/s" etc (my personal term).

They changed the way my body worked pretty significantly.

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Next, they basically crippled/disabled me by means of digestive issues. They were really bad. Really bad. 

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I'm too blah to type this up well. But it was pretty bad.

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Another angle:

From December 2006 onwards I was sick. I came down with a chronic illness, and also back problems. The back problems didn’t get properly bad until 2008 ish. The label given to my chronic illness by doctors (after 18 months of trying to find an answer to why I was sick) was “chronic fatigue syndrom”. But that isn’t a very useful. But anyway, I was really unwell. I was unwell for quite a long time, and none of my doctors or physio therapists could help me. And they lied to me again and again. My symptoms were explained elsewhere, in some detail. One of the worst symptoms was fatigue. Tons of ongoing fatigue. You have to read a bit to piece it together. I had a non of health issues and symptoms from 2006 onwards, including back issues. A label is just a label.

I was really unwell from 2006/2007 onwards. In 2016, I had experienced years of illness and poor health, and chronic health issues, and back problems, when I got crippled and couldn’t walk any more.

This is just for information.

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I couldn't breathe very well. And if I tried to have a long conversation 20-30+ minutes, I might end up with a sore back, and breathing issues. And sweating, due to the back issues and the strain of talking. I know it sounds strange. But it was part of life. My back and spine used to hurt quite a bit.

And it would cause digestive troubles too. If I "pushed through" and did whatever I wanted, then I would end up with a sore back, and digestive complaints. It was horrible.

Sometimes I could end up with a back that was sore for days, and disorientation, just because I tried to have a conversation.

Umm. They totally destroyed my social life. I just want socialising at all. I couldn’t handle visitors, because of my back. And I also couldn’t talk in the phone properly. I even did trial and error for talking in the phone. I just plain couldn’t talk on the phone without symptoms. I think they actively used remote control symptoms on me, to cause problems. To condition me out of socialising. It was horrible, and so isolating. This was around 2012-2016. I just couldn’t socialise! It was awful!

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Their central thesis that I didn’t “want” anything is asinine. And probably borne of envy. Envy of intellect, from the males (ppl like Paul). It’s pathetic.

My father’s idea. The idea that I didn’t want anything came from my father. It was his idea, and possibly stemming from the high IQ etc. and also he was annoyed that I didn’t fall into his plots and schemes involving pregnancy in high school (I was a Christian, so I waltzed straight past all of the girls and basically ignored them).

It goes back ages, even as far as 2006/2007.

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Taoist

Am I a Taoist. No. Of course not. What a silly question. I am not a Taoist. And I don’t have an ideology either. An ideology is a mass thing.

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I have a personal philosophy, sort of. But not really an ideology. I am sympathetic towards anarchism, democracy, Christianity and socialism. I am a fanatic about education, and life long learning. I am a firm believer in technology, invention and design as a means of effecting change. And I feel that observation is sometimes more useful than trying to have the perfect ideology.

Ps: “Observatist” was a non ideology. It was kind of just the idea that you can observe things, and then make a couple of tweaks or suggestions, and maybe that works. It wasn’t all that well thought out. It just involves a lot of general education. It doesn’t really exist to be honest.

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Old information

This here is old news, from before it was confirmed that they started sleeping together when she was in high school, as opposed to when she came back:

Other, older information, from my background stories. I posted this 3-4 months ago.

This is from the background stories page. Tomoe Takahashi was our exchange student sister (AFS). She lived with us at 16 years old for a year. I really liked her. She felt kinda like family. Matthew cried when she left, she really felt like family us.

She came back at 18. And then started a relationship with my father. Umm. Your Dad shouldn’t be sleeping with your fictive sister… My father shouldn’t be in a long term live-in relationship with a woman aged ~18/19 years old who used to be our exchange student. She was living together with us at Mazengarb Road and Linwood Drive while I was at Paraparaumu College. She was 18 when they got together. My father was 39/40. I was 14 when they got together.

They were together for a few years.

She was basically his live in girlfriend. For example, they went to the supermarket together. They went on foreign holidays together. They went to family events together. To outsiders, they maintained a facade of “she is a foreign boarder living at our house to go to university to study law”, and pretended that they weren’t a couple! I think they hid it from Tomoe Takahashi’s father. And she had her own bedroom (technically), but stayed in his. Her room was basically just for her studies. She was a law student at Victoria University after all.

This was back in 2001/2003..?

I was approximately 12 when she first came to live with us (she is 4 years older than I am).

He’s a tiny bit creepy when it comes to women (understatement of the century).

Ps: Also, he had a bad case of Asian fever, just in general (eg women like Ariuna (Mongolian woman), Emma, Heidi, Vivian (all 3 Chinese), Aya, Yumi, Tomoe (all Japanese). And so many more. He was always chasing young Asian women.

This segment was in my background stories. I wasn’t totally sure what the actual facts were when I first wrote it. I.e when they started sleeping together. But it turns out they were sleeping together when she was our exchange student and still in high school].

Note: I think it tells us quite a bit about the women of this set that they knew this and didn’t ostracise him. Ditto for the CCP element of their operation. They knew this, but didn’t ostracise him.

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What is reverse social engineering?

It is an intellectual exercise.

It was a pastime, I used it to keep myself sane while being very unwell.

Don’t worry about it.

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Brynn

To me, who was Brynn? She was Amanda’s pretty friend. Also, we sat beside one another in Japanese class. We got along fairly well, but we weren’t exceptionally close.

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Siobhan

Siobhan. I never knew her that well. I spent more time talking to the woman on the train or the whaling boat than to Siobhan. Amanda in Kaikōura, or Bella on the train. I knew Ambika and Emma better than her, but I didn’t know either of them very well at all!

And my life was pretty much over at 18/19 anyway, due to my poor health.

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Privacy and the thriving of the human soul

I did some reading on how privacy, or the lack thereof affects consciousness, including in early modern England. But also in a variety of other situations. I also did a bit of reading on the topic of how learning to read changes consciousness, and how speech (and the development of speech) changes consciousness. I have also studied religion a bit, and a smidgen of anthropology, And I'm not sure that people can thrive without privacy inside their own mind.

Perhaps just like a seed must be buried beneath the soil, and watered before it will germinate and thrive, and grow, as opposed to being left on the surface of the soil to dry out and perish, maybe our souls need to be buried, and under cover of darkness to thrive and grow. And maybe it needs to be watered through normal good faith, open conversation (without lies, including lies of omission or certain topics disallowed due to surveillance) as well as time spent reading, both for pleasure and understanding.

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Book recommendation

Just for those who enjoy reading.

Merchants of Debt: KKR and the Mortgaging of American Business  by George Anders, a Pulitzer Prize winning writer.

It’s just useful information, for general knowledge and education.

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Back Problems

There is a long history of back problems that got me to this point, but I’ll write about it later. All caused by them, mostly by satellite. But also bad physio, ugh. Long story.

They do this thing called “nerve splicing”. I’ll explain more later. When it gets to your nerves, it’s analogue. But there is quantum, but I hand wave that away. That’s just maths.

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Photos:

First two when young, the second two half a lifetime later.

Note that the posture is pulled back and down. I have to do a lot to work with that. It’s been many years.

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I now kinda have to hold myself (my body) together pretty hard, it’s really uncomfortable. You can’t really see it in photos though. Life is strange, and very difficult.

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Posture

Apropos of nothing, posture is “long term habit” and it is stored in the map of your body/nervous system stored in your mind/brain. Sort of.

It also involves things like a “set point”. But the “model isn’t the same as the thing being described.”

This might be one of the times where posting information doesn’t help me, but oh well.

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Amazon, good reads or other reviews/shopping links:

Just a few links to things you might like. This is a work in progress.

The Effective Executive: The Definitive Guide to Getting the Right Things Done by Peter F. Drucker

The Essential Drucker by Peter F. Drucker

The Drucker Lectures: Essential Lessons on Management, Society and Economy by Peter F. Drucker (popular in China)

Drucker Management Thought Essentials (Chinese Edition) by Peter F. Drucker

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/53167910-peter-f-drucker-on-management-essentials

Uhhh, I just realised, that I don’t need to do any of this?

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Searching for the right metaphor, the right name

dregvant

druj

Fae

Elves

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“In Zoroastrianism, a "Dregvant" (Avestan: dregvant) is an unrighteous person who embraces the lie or "druj," opposing the righteous path of the supreme deity, Ahura Mazda. The term literally translates to "one who possesses the lie" and contrasts with a "Asha" (truth-seeker), who follows righteousness and order.”

It is synonymous with other terms for the wicked or heretical, like "daevayasnian" (worshipper of demons).

Just a thought.

"Fair folk"

"Lords and ladies"

"Elves"

"The land of the fair folk, faerie land"

I’m just trying to figure out what to call them, what terms to use…

The fae druj seems like a good term.

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Fae/elves

They’re like the hidden magical folk of Tolkein, Pratchett and C.S. Lewis. But not all of them are fully aligned with dregvant behaviours. And not all worship demons.

I like the term “fae” because it includes all magical folk, including elves, faeries and goblins, or whatever. The hidden folk? But I can’t find the best term for them.

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What does the term “fae” mean?

"Fae" is a term for a variety of magical, supernatural beings found in European folklore, also known as fairies, fey, or the fey folk. These beings are diverse, ranging from mischievous sprites to powerful nature spirits, and can be associated with various mythologies like Celtic, Slavic, and Germanic folklore. They are sometimes seen as ancient pagan deities or spirits of nature, often depicted with both benevolent and malevolent qualities. 

Folklore roots: The term "fae" is used as an older or alternative name for fairies, particularly to evoke pre-Victorian-era myths that portrayed them as more dangerous or powerful than modern, sanitized depictions.

Diverse nature: Fae can include a wide range of beings beyond typical "fairies," such as elves, nymphs, satyrs, and dwarves.

Supernatural abilities: They are typically described as having magical powers and a strong connection to nature.

Morality: Fae are often depicted as amoral, not adhering to human concepts of good and evil, and can be helpful or harmful depending on the situation or how they are treated. “

I took the above segment form google search^

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What can someone who values goodness do? He can get dregvant out of the “houses” and inner circles of otherwise good people.

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More ideas and concepts

See Terry Pratchett (Discworld and The Long Earth), C.S. Lewis and JRR Tolkein.

Read: On Faerie Stories by Tolkien, an essay

See: Terry Pratchett’s elves in the long earth, vicious.

See: Terry Pratchett’s beagles in the long earth.

See: fairyland and the queen of the elves, as seen in both The Wee Free Men and Lords and Ladies (both disc world, by Pratchett). https://wiki.lspace.org/Fairyland

See also the Gathas for more information, history, and practical ideas.

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Ashavan Praxis, and being hidden

What if those who adopted the underlying praxis of the Asha-van hid amongst the Christians and Muslims, and maybe Jewish people. That is, to seek out the dregvan and stymie or remove them from positions of influence.

But maybe to do it in a clever way. Like through direct democracy to get rid of defamation laws, or direct democracy to legislate monogamy vs non monogamy (sex is the currency of the dregvan), or by creating technology that gives privacy, or creating yelp for reviewing people’s character. Or letting local elected school boards in New Zealand fire teachers without cause, or severance pay, at the end of the school year (and let normal non-parents run for the local school board too). Or radio stations, file sharing, educational content all from a place of privacy.

Adopt the practical side of the religion, without identifying as one.

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Idea: economic nudge unit, combined with anti-druj (pro morality) laws, implemented by direct democracy. Do Zoroastrian praxis, the economic nudge way! Implemented by direct democracy, (or normal) democracy.

See also: technology that has the same effect. Stymies the way of life of the fae-druj, in a pro-morality way, using the principles and ideas of Zoroastrian belief, without using the trappings of their belief system.

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This is just discussion, and I am very tired at the moment….

The idea of ‘mind blanking’

Next,

They had this foolish idea that my mind had been blanked out, but their central theory was bunk. Or that my mind had been emptied out. This goes back as far as Khandallah, when they did the “music thing”. Ummmm. It’s just bunk. They central theory doesn’t hold up.

I’ll talk about it more later. Yes, the “inner voice” had been somewhat suppressed, but the inner “governer/observer” was still functioning.

In a nutshell, the central theories of what they were trying to do, just don’t hold up. I’ll elaborate more fully later.

And then on top of that, I was supposed to engage in lower order primordial “want”, or “hate”. Ummm. That just doesn’t hold up either. The whole thing is pretty shoddily put together. The theory of mind is bad, as are the psychological practises.

They would do silly things like have me look at a photo to see if my heart responded at all. And I would see if there was a response, or try to feel a response, and I felt nothing. It was silly. The whole thing was asinine. The fae-druj are asinine. (I think these methods were similar to biofeedback? I don’t think highly of biofeedback, except as a short term teaching tool, when used in good faith).

This topic is one that will take some time and effort to explain. To be honest, I should probably have a writing partner for this one, as well as a medical doctor and a lawyer (possibly from a human rights NGO) for it, as well as shelter to put it together. But I'll have to make do with what I have got available!

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More history

They also thought I was “toast” when I just wasn’t doing anything, in Khandallah. I would just sit and listen to music, while practising thought stopping techniques. They thought I was pretty much gone, just wiped. In fact they thought that because I’d stopped writing, that I was gone. And I was just flat lined psychologically. They thought it was a “lobotomy”.

Ummm. I wasn’t. I was just on deliberate stand by mode.

Their theories of mind, and how they work just don’t really hold up to scrutiny. Umm. There’s no polite way to put it? Or any good way to explain it? They had theories, but the theories aren’t really that great?

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Also, they thought I was “at war” with “the system”. I tried to communicate with them. But there was no way to get them to understand the first thing about me. They were suffering brain rot due to being attached to magic sky computers all day, and also had (personal judgement here) no real epistemological capacity that I could find. I think they’re suffering some sort of epidemic disorder? Perhaps some sort of instrumentation related problem.

They had this idea that I was at war with them, but I couldn’t get them to realise that I was not. I hate this term, and it’s only supposed to be used in private notebooks, but I couldn’t get them to “soul receive” the fact that I wasn’t at war with them, and that I didn’t want to be. I tried to persuade them of this, or otherwise reason with them, but with little effect. I could not bring about a state of affairs where they developed an appropriate level of understanding as to my disposition and intentions, as well as “status” regarding “war”.

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Repeat segment:

“They would do silly things like have me look at a photo to see if my heart responded at all. And I would see if there was a response, or try to feel a response, and I felt nothing. It was silly. The whole thing was asinine. The fae-druj are asinine. (I think these methods were similar to biofeedback? I don’t think highly of biofeedback, except as a short term teaching tool, when used in good faith).

Sometimes the language they use relating to this sort of stuff is just weird.

They say, “do you want xyz” and then test it? But I don’t think that the “science” behind the testing is very scientific… it plain doesn’t make sense, and the language even less so….

And don’t forget that I was (technically) being told that I was obliged to have sex, at first (go way back as far as Lilia).

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I just updated this page:

It is my page about “women”

https://www.blogger.com/blog/post/edit/1047653578514852439/1296257445895989916

There’s a pretty decent sized update there.

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The Hermit Movement, Networked

Ummmm. You convert a big building to this faraday thing, 50 metres by 50 metres 10 stories high, an old building that you pick up cheap. Maybe an old office building. It is still connected to internet, electricity, water, sewerage and gas. It has a mail box, and a front desk for couriers. There is still rubbish pick up. You fill about 80% of the internal volume of this building up with 50x50x50cm boxes of honeycomb steel. Every types of space you can cram these boxes in there. It has maybe half a dozen decent apartments worth of space unfilled by boxes of honeycomb steel inside it. Or maybe two floors worth in total, out of ten. The usable space is spread out a bit over floors two to five, it consists of converted offices, and the office bathrooms and kitchens.

A group of you do it, and you are partially self funded, partially supported by a gofundme. You just want to hang out and do nothing much. So you move in.

It’s all good. But as a back up, you create a backup communications network with other hermitages in your town, by old copper phone line (for voice and computer network). And then you just live. Who knows what you do. It’s all up to you. People with good minds, and good hearts, and good thoughts can shelter themselves.

Good ideas for places to do this might include:

Kentucky, Arkansas, Florida, Georgia, Tennessee, Indiana, Ohio, Illinois… or maybe Germany, or Spain/Italy/Greece (Barcelona, Madrid).

Why do you do it? Umm. Maybe you’re just not into the whole hive mind thing? You think it’s daft and horrible. You’re not a hive-mind guy/gal. You like freedom of conscience, and privacy of mind. And peace and quiet. And private, uninterrupted conversations with friends. And relationships private from, and separate from, the electronic busybodies and electromagnetic peeping tons of the world. As well as the ability to simply sleep at might, uninterrupted.

Ps: you could open a dairy/cafe/convenience store on the ground floor.

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Idea: what if you have more than one location…

Hermit kingdom

Ten buildings in one area. Each of them has 80% of the space chock full of boxes of honey comb steel. Totally full of it. Completely full. Even bathrooms, kitchens, some stairwells, roof top full of garden sheds of it etc.

Each building is shielded and about 10-20% of each building remains as useful space, available for use and inhabitant. They’re wired up for power, gas, internet, water, sewerage. And still even have rubbish pick up and mail delivered. 

Add in a copper phone network between each for phone and internet. Use encryption.

And now you have your networked hermit kingdom.

Beg for donations online.

Put it somewhere with affordable buildings, like in a blighted part of Kentucky, Michigan or something. Or in a place like Germany or France. Anywhere with spare buildings, and people who are willing to organise.

What you do with it, that’s up to you.

Any one of the following might be worth trying out.

Radio station, TV broadcast station, web hosting company, a refuge for harried intellectuals and other thinkers, or an engineering company, a publishing house, a printshop, or a new political, social or religious movement. A libertarian think tank, or a labour union headquarters. Whatever it is, it is distributed across ten buildings.

Keep it super simple. Perform only one function. You would be part of the hermit movement, but only one hermit kingdom among many.

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Example:

https://www.nzcommercial.co.nz/125765/large-central-office-for-sale-dunedin-central

Maybe 80% of the volume of the building is full of faraday “honeycomb steel” cubes. And a group of 200 student activists occupy the rest of the building. They pay for it all. Cash. Funded by respectable Australian Christian groups or eccentric USA libertarians via indigogo/crowdfunding. Ps: maybe 80% of the volume is overkill, and could spread it out a bit.

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Public Health, sanitation and the supply of high quality, clean water

For people who get stressed out by conversations about hygiene, sanitation, waste management, and the supply of clean water for irrigation, drinking and washing, as well as general public health, take a look at these:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ignaz_Semmelweis

https://www.britannica.com/biography/Ignaz-Semmelweis

Semmelweis reflex: The concept

Automatic rejection of new facts: Named after Ignaz Semmelweis, this reflex is the tendency to automatically reject new information that conflicts with existing beliefs or knowledge without proper consideration.

Try reading a few articles about Semmelwies and infant mortality. He is a really fascinating guy, and the reaction to his findings are even more fascinating than his research.

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https://www.thegreatcoursesplus.com/great-scientific-ideas-that-changed-the-world

https://www.thegreatcoursesplus.com/the-industrial-revolution

https://oyc.yale.edu/history/hist-234

https://oyc.yale.edu/history/hist-251

And then read a few biographies of a few people like Telford, Brunel, Faraday, Rutherford, Alexander Graham Bell, Gregor Mendel, Ignaz Semmelweis, Robert Koch, Haber-Bosch, and for Humphrey Davies, just read this page. I can't find any good biographies for him!

None of this is compulsory. But it is enjoyable and interesting.

Ps: the English history one traces our history coming out of the medieval era, into the early modern period. It is essential study for a particular type of person.

It covers such things as: “Particular issues addressed in the lectures will include: the changing social structure; households; local communities; gender roles; economic development; urbanization; religious change from the Reformation to the Act of Toleration; the Tudor and Stuart monarchies; rebellion, popular protest and civil war; witchcraft; education, literacy and print culture; crime and the law; poverty and social welfare; the changing structures and dynamics of political participation and the emergence of parliamentary government.” Note: we modernised over the period of about 300 years.

The great courses are pretty easy and a little simplistic, they’re “system oriented” but you learn a lot any way. 

Those stories are a story of triumph, not of despair. And they should fill you with hope, not sadness. Just don’t let the politicians and morons drag you down to their level! Don’t let the bastards get you down!

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Miki Matsubara

Link to another page

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Restriction of the franchise

Mostly I would want to increase the age at which you can vote to 25, but then counterbalance it by cutting off those over a certain age.

Restrict the franchise to those aged 25-67.

Restrict the franchise to those who have passed high school also.

People under the age of 25 lack wisdom, understanding and experience.

People over the age of 67 are already experiencing significant cognitive decline (on average), but are in denial about it.

No members of parliament over the age of 67.

No members of local councils of community boards over the age of 67.

No members of elected community boards over the age of 67.

No members of district health boards over the age of 67.

No civil servants over the age of 67.

No CEOs or directors of government agencies or departments over the age of 67.

No members of the board in universities over the age of 67.

No CEOs or directors of publicly listed companies (NZX) over the age of 67.

All NZICA chartered accountants and associate chartered accountants lose their “designations” at 67.

All members of the NZ law society lose their practising certificate at 67, permanently (still can technically function as legal counsel, but I think you’d automatically lose things like the insurance function of the law society?)

For doctors, the medical counsel of New Zealand deregisters you at the age of 67.

You cannot be a school principal over the age of 67. 

Or under the age of 25.

Maybe you can’t become a school teacher or a civil servant before the age of 25.

Along with this, you cannot hold any elected government position, or be a member of the civil service past the age of 67. Or hold a public governance role (universities, government boards of directors and also publicly listed companies). Bring back compulsory retirement. This also makes space for the young to get the needed experience. 

Increase the pension age to 67. Increase the amount of money you get in the pension by quite a bit (20-30%).

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Disambiguation and clarifications of my opinions on obesity...

Obesity

Should the morbidly obese receive exactly the same access government funded health care?

Answer, no. Of course not. And they don't. They already get bumped down to the bottom of waiting lists, and are told to lose weight before getting life changing surgeries.

I am in favour of some relatively modest increases in restrictions of the amount of government funded healthcare, until they get their weight down (use the BMI formula to do it. With special exemptions for excessively muscular people. Use body fat percentage relative to lean mass. This is an issue for only a minority of people!). That is, they still get healthcare, but maybe deprioritise funding for them after you've already helped them with the first 1-2 surgeries.

I’m not a lunatic when it comes to obesity, although I have been misrepresented as such. But I do think that in normal circumstances, it constitutes a character issue.

After all, isn’t obesity caused by two of the seven deadly sins (of Catholicism)? Gluttony and sloth.

The others being: pride, greed, wrath, envy, lust, gluttony, and sloth.

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A digression on vanity

I might want to put vanity somewhere close to that list?

"Briefly, we could describe pride as the sin whereby we put ourselves first, ahead of God; sensuality is where we put things first; and vanity is where we put the esteem of others first. Like the other root sins, vanity springs from insecurity. We place our security in what others think of us." 

I think vanity is a mistake too. And the opposite of that is modesty? I'm not an expert on this though.

Obesity is a problem. But also excessive vanity is a problem too, like men who obsess over having exactly 10% body fat year round, and a six pack with perfect delts, tris and pecs, and proportionate legs. Or like women who spend absurd amounts of money on skincare and makeup, who jog and stretch obsessively, while dieting excessively, to keep their weight down, only to get liposuction and botox anyway.

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Religious orders

I could totally have been like a monk or whatever. If the Protestant denominations had good orders of monks. Or something like the augustinian friars of old (just like Gregor Mendel - huge fan), if I could have stomached Catholicism. Augustinians follow the rules of poverty, chastity, obedience. A friar, but not a priest? It would give you more time to think. And fewer distractions in life?

For me, more time to devote to my studies in things like science, technology, and social entrepreneurship.

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Woman and obesity

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Ummmm. Normal weight is usually pretty much fine!!?

But I am being molly-wangled on language.

So I will digress: ummm, younger should be slightly slimmer. But past thirty, especially post kids it is okay if a little more weight! Obesity is obviously an issue, both in aesthetics, but that’s not really that hard to avoid. A bmi of 30 or over isn’t hard to avoid. Digression over!

Ummmm. Normal weight is usually pretty much fine!!?

Please understand, I'm not actually that fussy on weight!!

Seriously, normal weight is fine. And among younger women (back when I was young) a bit of plumpness and softness wasn't exactly a bad thing. So, whatever.

Ps: just look up how heavy you have to be to have a BMI over thirty. You actually have to be massive heffalump. Actually look it up. Some women are still attractive while overweight, which is 25 BMI. But a BMI of thirty really is quite the achievement.

Normal weight is fine!!

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Tldr - I like normal women

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Bad people are bad.

The woman who kept me sick from 2006 until 2022, including keeping me crippled from 2016-2022, are horrible people.

Rhetorical question:

Do I want them?

Do I desire them?

Maybe they are physically desirable, but at the same time I might not want them, because they have bad hearts, minds and souls. They have wrong hearts, wrong minds, wrong souls.

And to run the risk of letting people like that have children is perhaps immoral?

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Disambiguation… and clarification 

Some history, and a rhetorical question

Why should I want marriage(?) (of a sort) to a bunch of women who are so vile, wicked and malignant inside their hearts that they would keep a genuine, kind and fair minded man crippled for 6 years of his life, and sick from the age of 18 onwards. That was one of the reasons I was so reluctant to connect my life to theirs; in a physical as well as emotional sense.

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A “whatever to whatever”

I genuinely want to be good to most people most of the time. I bend over backwards to be good to people. In normal circumstances. I try to be a genuinely good person. But have been misrepresented, almost totally.

I am probably not a “whatever to whatever”.

I am probably someone who wants to be both good and fair (but in a non committal way, because I’m not interested in being held accountable according to your standards).

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Early CCP

The deliberate embrace of ignorance.

“Bad at thinking”

To choose and embrace a worldview and ideology that is based on lies, and has been proven not to work (see: USSR in the 30s), that is, to deliberately embrace stupidity, and then end up killing tens of millions of your own people is a form of evil.

To weaponise ignorance, destroy your own knowledge base, damage your own education system, stultify your own people through deliberate miseducation, and filter out anyone who has even a modicum of good sense (cadre system of ideological conformity), to refuse to take good advice, and to either kill or drive away all of your best thinkers (see also: brain drain; aka, where did all of your Nobel prize winning level minds vanish to?).

... and then to have mass deaths!!!

Is that not a form of evil.

To make a TOTAL AND COMPLETE decision at the level of the "soul" to be bad at thinking, and to screw up your country that much, and kill so many people, is that not a form of terrible evil!!

Historically, the Chinese are "bad at thinking", and this includes the CCP era!

It's a feature, not a bug!

They shot all their best thinkers, or forced them to flee.

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Cults of the Far Eastern Orient

The far east is riddled with cults, idol worship, alchemy, polytheism and all kinds of darkness and evil.

One of these idol worshipping cults is “The cult of emptiness”. Or, what is often known as Buddhism.

They use the psychological method of “clearing the mind” to create inner peace. But I think it’s bad. It’s kind of like a non-surgical lobotomy. It kills of an important part of your self, and stultifies the mind.

From among eastern superstitions and dogmas, and all their polytheistic and idol worshipping practises. It’s just another cult. But they empty you out, so you stop caring. Or at least you lose the part of yourself that’s worried about life being bad, or not measuring up to the goodness you ought to live up to. Or that feels sympathy for the downtrodden, the poor, the oppressed, the sick, the needy.

If you empty out the part of the soul that reacts against social injustice, and rebels against the unjust social order that causes misery and oppression of the poor and down trodden, then you end up with a worse society. Including one that is worse for the vast majority normal woman (wannabe temple prostitutes, geisha, courtesans, lovers and followers of gurus, powerbroker women, dangerous controlling women in the nobility not withstanding).

And by the way, bad religion such as Buddhism and other forms of primitive far eastern polytheistic and idolatrous superstition tends to cause a society in which misogynistic "reactions" occur, to control women. They lead to genuine hatred of, and contempt for, women.

They empty out the part of you that feels bad about social injustice, or at least the part that is willing to fight against it.

Buddhism encourages misogynistic thought, sometimes directly, sometimes indirectly.

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And Eastern superstitious practices and dogmas, including their psychological techniques and elixir eating and sexual mores, tend to synergise well with "misogynistic" philosophy like Confucius, to create societies that are bad for the vast, vast majority of women.

If your society is full of con artists peddling elixirs, promising salvation, immortality, improved libido and performance, as well as metaphysical and mystical experience, and your society is full of men who have embraced the cult of emptiness, or at least practised their techniques, and full of philosophers who believe that authority and respect must be maintained, for the harmony of society, and therefore want to control women, will you not end up with a society that represses women terribly.

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See no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Three_wise_monkeys

They obscure the true meaning of this one in the wikipedia!

End result: the society becomes one big brothel full of child sex trafficking. See: Thailand.

But don’t worry, maybe try just had bad “karma”.

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No eyes, no ears, no mouth.

Blind, deaf and dumb.

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Just a through experiment…

If your society becomes a giant brothel, and your women commonly function as prostitutes (even if they’re just “turning tricks” on the side) then your whole society started to despise women, including women themselves. And you get a lot of repression and misogyny, even internalised misogyny. Why? Because women who live like harlots and prostitutes are shameless, vile, dishonest, violent and diseased. Normal people hate prostitutes, historically. INCLUDING WOMEN!

And you get stuff like Confucian misogyny, including mutilation of the feet. Or Hindu misogyny, including widow execution (which the English put a stop to) etc. by the way, widow burning was game theory to protect against women poisoning their husbands.

See also attitudes towards women in Japanese history. Especially the edo period, and the “floating world” of fleeting pleasures.

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A final note

As for the satellites, see:

Monorail

LTCM (long term capital management)

LBOs, MBOs (leveraged buy outs, management buy outs)

https://youtu.be/taJ4MFCxiuo?si=u2STaKnSMoz9daI0

https://www.amazon.com.au/When-Genius-Failed-Roger-Lowenstein/dp/0375758259

https://www.amazon.com.au/Merchants-Debt-Version-George-Anders-ebook/dp/B00C0XPLX6?ref_=ast_author_mpb

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Will it just collapse like the monorail?

It will fall apart sometime, it is probably inevitable?

Or will someone invent a cure, just like the polio vaccine, small pox vaccine?

Or is it more like breaking the enigma code?

Or maybe it is more like discovering and exploiting a "zero day" flaw in a computer system?

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Polytheistic Idol Worshippers or Atheists?

Was China a secular Confucian nation, that practised the atheist philosophy of Buddhism?

Or a nation of crazy idol worshippers and potion/elixer takers, believers in alchemy?

If you know anything about history, it is that polytheistic idol worshipping countries are often hell on earth (especially for women). That’s why so many religions are dead set against graven images.

This is what I am listening to right now: https://youtu.be/enS1EWHxoG0?si=dTFRmkbMhHXaqwBD

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Chinese Nobility and the Quest for Immortality 

Also known as, the tragedy of Chinese civilisation

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Edit: I am lost for words. Lost for words.

What a tragic nation. A tragic people and a tragic nation. Deserving of so much pity.

They sought salvation through the consumption of elixirs made from lead and mercury and deadly mushrooms, and killed themselves again and again.

They did it to achieve metaphysical goals, and also to engage in spiritual/religious experiences, I.e. visions and hallucinations. And for drug related euphoria. But they did it to make their corpse in-corruptible. That is, to achieve salvation beyond death. Like the pharaoh of Egypt, they wanted to preserve their bones forever. But they started mummifying themselves before death.

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This is well worth reading. I read every word. I just don’t understand how anything this awful exists. If you have a Christian background, you might really benefit from this. They did awful things to themselves. For “salvation”.

People like this are worthy of pity. But I’ll explain more later. It’s worse than you can imagine!!!

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_alchemical_elixir_poisoning

See the section: hypothetical explanations, and read all the way to the end of it. And then start from the start of the pages even if you think you know it. It is mind bendingly insane. It blows my mind.

A lot of people know it, but every day new people are born. And there are 17 year olds who have no idea!

“Despite common knowledge that immortality potions could be deadly, fangshi and Daoist alchemists continued the elixir-making practice for two millennia.”

"It is almost ludicrous to assume that a Taoist (commoner or emperor) could have died from accidental elixir poisoning"

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People like this are worthy of pity. They did awful things out of fear, dogma, and because of superstition.

But you must also understand that a society this damaged will produce people with deep and all pervasive inferiority complexes, who then sublimate that into feelings of resentment towards the outside world. They are hurt so badly emotionally by the idea that maybe their culture is so screwed up that they want to show themselves as “good enough”, or worse “I am as good as you” (the attitude from Screwtape gives a toast, cs Lewis). And they may do horrible things, just to feel like they’re good enough.

They may take their own feelings of perceived inferiority, and turn them outwards to prevent their feeling bad about themselves. It happens. It’s awful.

The Wikipedia post is important. Even if you think you know it already. I grew up religious though. I was a true believer in the birth, death and resurrection of Christ, and in supernatural creation. And of literal eternal life in heaven (and/or the establishment of the kingdom of heaven on earth after the end times; in the redemption of all man kind). So my perspective may be different to yours.

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Other

For six years, I read only one book. I was unable to go outside to exercise, and I wasn’t able to get down into the floor and up again. And I couldn’t shower.

Note: I had all sorts of tricks and mental and physical techniques to retain the ability to do anything. Every physical action was calculated. For years. It wasn’t “deconditioning”. I was walking for at least an hour a day inside, for years.

[By the way, there was a fairly sudden shift, over the course of a few days/weeks that caused the changes that kept me crippled. Including one sudden shift on a day that I tried head nods and other stuff from a feldenkrais video while sitting at the computer. My back VERY suddenly went wrong, and I could never get it to go back again. It was like my neck vanished, all in one hit. Over two or so weeks, things had changed, then on one day, Bang, everything changed went wrong - this explanation is incomplete. It is almost impossible to explain. I will try to tell my story more in future].

Can’t people look back and see the head nods thing? And understand it? And see what came before and after it?

Umm. Reading is my favourite thing in life. And I read exactly one book in 6 years. Why would I do that?

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When trying to understand my life, you kind of have to fill in some gaps. But also have to recognise that the you end up with a false view of me based on my mind speech.

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Note: there really was really quite a fair bit of  “trauma to the organism” that occurred that day in 2016. And quite a bit that happened to “the organism” from 2016 to 2018. A fair bit of that time vanished from my memory. And it was gone by the year 2022. I had to struggle to piece it back together. It couldn’t even “look” at it, using my mind in 2022.

It seems that a lot of the “consciousness” is stored in the “posture”. And what happened there, did massive and disturbing harm.

Maybe eventually people will understand.

Ps: at that time I was unaware that the clandestine bullying brigade even existed. The fae, “hidden oligarchy” etc.

Extra note: the thing about torso integrity compromised… explains the nature of what happened… But the nature of what happened to my torso, is complex. The “relationship between the parts of my back” changed. It changed completely. And never changed back.

Link to torso integrity compromised

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Drugs and Alcohol

I’m strongly anti drugs, but also strongly against drug prohibition for the most part. I think that in many cases prohibition causes more problems than it solves. 

I am also anti alcohol as well, but also opposed to the prohibition of alcohol. Alcohol prohibition caused a lot of harm to the western world, and funded the rise of gangs and criminal enterprises during prohibition, who after prohibition ended then started protection rackets before eventually getting into selling harder drugs.

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Water and disease

Ancient Beijing did not rely on river water for drinking, but rather on groundwater from a vast network of wells. While cities in southern China used rivers, early Beijing's infrastructure was defined by its wells, which were prone to being brackish and contaminated, often leading to drinking water being supplemented with boiled water or mixed with higher quality water sources.  [brackish and contaminated = diseased due to human faeces getting into it]

Ancient Beijing's reliance on wells

Not river-dependent: Unlike many other cities, ancient Beijing did not draw its drinking water from rivers. Instead, it depended almost exclusively on wells dug deep into the ground to access groundwater.

Well maintenance: Ancient texts, such as the Book of Changes, describe how people maintained their wells by regularly dredging the bottoms, reinforcing the inner walls, and covering the openings to protect them from contamination.

Quality issues: The groundwater in Beijing was known for being hard and somewhat brackish due to high mineral content.

Contamination risk: Many wells were shallow and vulnerable to surface pollution from sources like latrines.

Making water drinkable: The water was often mixed with higher-quality water or boiled before drinking to improve its quality and safety. 

Contrasting ancient Beijing with other cities

Southern China: Cities in southern China typically relied on rivers for their water supply.

Other ancient cities: Cities like Rome depended on aqueducts to transport water, while others like Xi'an (ancient Chang'an) had comprehensive water supply systems that included pipelines, canals, and water-cleaning measures.

How ancient Chinese dealt with drinking water

Boiling: The practice of boiling water was a common method for making it safe to drink, even as far back as the time of the Yuan dynasty.

Storage: Ancient societies stored water in various containers, such as clay pots, stone cisterns, and wooden barrels.

Well usage: The use of wells for drinking water was a central part of ancient Beijing's water supply system, with some wells even becoming public amenities for travelers. 

Corruption and pollution of water is still a problem:

https://www.nytimes.com/2016/04/12/world/asia/china-underground-water-pollution.html

Wells in the forbidden city:

https://www.travelchinaguide.com/attraction/beijing/forbidden-city/water-wells.htm

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See also:

Rivers in China:

Yellow River, Yangtze, Pearl River (canton river) history

Rice paddies, see also malaria

In other locations, they simply drew water from rivers, which carried with it other issues. Rome (as the obvious counter example) built large aqueducts to bring water to the cities. And also relied on shipping around and throughout the Mediterranean to supply them with grain.

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A lot of tuberculosis, 350 million latent?

Flood, famine/hunger, disease, war, death: Malthus

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Education action points:

Learn about the history of China according to William C. Kirby (here's a hint, it is very Malthusian). William C. Kirby is one of Harvard's top professors, and one of the world's foremost sinologists.

Start here, it's free!

https://www.edx.org/learn/chinese-history/harvard-university-chinas-political-and-intellectual-foundations-from-sage-kings-to-confucius

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And then do this one... It's totally free:

Epidemics in Western Society since 1600

https://oyc.yale.edu/history/hist-234

Through this course you will learn about such diseases such as smallpox, malaria, tuberculosis, asiatic cholera, typhoid, hiv/aids and polio, as well as plague (pneumonic and bubonic). You will also learn about different scientific theories of disease such as the miasma theory, germ theory, contagionism and anti-contagionism. As well as the history, language and epistemology of the scientific and medical theories involved. It is a fantastic course, and so much of what you learn in it can be applied to parts of the developing world, including parts of Asia. You will also learn about the syphilis and the Tuskegee experiment.

It isn't an easy course, but it is well worthwhile.

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And a nice easy one about science:

Great Scientific Ideas That Changed The World

https://www.thegreatcoursesplus.com/great-scientific-ideas-that-changed-the-world

Lectures 20, 21, 16 and 23 are highly applicable at the moment. The first two to China, the second two are relevant to the current satellite surveillance and monitoring situation. As well as to “nerve splicing technology”, and the cultural norms, language and epistemology surrounding it.

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I was under stated on this one. No shock value. The real benefit is in the education. Seriously, the education is what matters. In ways that you cannot understand until you get it.

That’s all!

Good luck, have fun!

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What is reverse social engineering?

It is an intellectual exercise.

It was a pastime, I used it to keep myself sane while being very unwell.

Don’t worry about it.

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Intellectual Exercise

I used to engage in intellectual exercises in the area of civilisation level reformism and associated analysis.

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It included the process of reverse engineering.

Definition:

Reverse engineering is the process of analyzing a product, device or system to understand its design, construction or functionality. It involves disassembling, examining and studying the components and structure of an existing object to create a detailed representation or model of it.

I engaged in the reverse engineering of civilisation as a whole.

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I used some of the following subjects in my process of disassembling, studying and examining civilisation.

History

Economics

Accounting

Investment analysis and studies

Statistics

Sociology

Physics

Inventions

Media Studies

Language

Religious Studies

Psychology

Anthropology

Philosophy

Media Studies

Information Technology

Technology Studies

Physical Culture

Public Health

Political Theory

Criminology

Architecture

Building Science

Theology, reworked for other stuff in society (a lot of Marxist stuff and secular psychology seems to be reverse engineered and reworked religion)

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I engaged in a lot of analysis.

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I spent a lot of time musing on potential reformism on the part of the people.

It was a pastime, and a kind of intellectual exercise.

All you actually need is one or two good reforms.

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I was really sick, and my life was a truly living horror show, a nightmare. A cold terrifying horror (no hyperbole). And so I had this pastime to keep myself busy.

It really was just a pastime to keep myself sane.

I actually wanted a better hobby. Something in science or engineering, but I was too unwell to manage that.

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Example reforms

Both empower the good people, and the masses against the druj-fae. And besides, they can be done by direct democracy, and can be done in just ONE nation state, and without agreement or consent by the system.

Sex is currency

Kill their currency like it’s terrorism funding money. Ban non-monogamy using direct democracy. If you have sex with more than one person in any 21 day period, you go to jail for up to two years.

This means that you can’t use lesbians as voluntary sex workers, to pay off the druj-fae men?

Defamation laws

Defamation laws protect the wicked and dishonest. They put the burden of proof on the person talking about bad people. Get rid of defamation laws altogether (including slander or libel). Or failing that create “special defamation zones” on a special tld (top level domain, such as website.defame.nz) where you can say anything you want about anyone, without getting sued.

You can then create “yelp” for character reviews, or another content aggregator. As well as whitelists/black lists for ethics, morality and good character.

Ban anal sex.

It is used to psychologically modify women. To remove their sense of self, sublimate that into resentment onwards and more importantly, contempt for women, and make them easier to control. Just make it a two year prison sentence. It applies to males and females. And same sex relationships. It is psychologically bad for men too. Do it by petition initiated direct democracy (mail ballot at 66%). 

Nation state landlord of shielded locations

Any nationstate (or wealthy set of people) could become a landlord of a large number of shielded locations. Apartments. The rest will sort it self out. Via a large and effective counterculture. It will self organise. A fair bit of an IT industry will spontaneously erupt. Nation state is the “wealthy landlord”. Assuming the tech works.

Once you reverse engineer society, it is easy to come up with ideas!

Stymies and undermines the druj-fae to do these (druj-fae-elves [see Pratchett version of elves, or Tolkein essay  on fairies stories], pick your metaphor?) while empowering the normals.

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Random acts of education!

Target audience: 

Educated people who speak fairly good English and enjoy reading, and have an interests in the type of thinking engaged in my social reformers in the past in Oxford.

Good books to read

The Dark Tower and other stories by CS Lewis

Including:

The dark tower

The shoddy lands

Ministering angels

Ten years later

Screwtape proposes a toast (short essay)

Brave New World Revisited - very good!

The Abolition of Man, Lewis - deliberately badly written, but informative

Dark tower, the system turns unwitting students at universities into puppets

Shoddy lands, the vanity trap

Ministering angels, turning good girls into space prostitutes

Ten years later, Helen of Troy. do you still love the middle aged woman your object of desire became? And grain routes

Screwtape, mediocre people and resentment

Brave new world revisited, how to control people with drugs, exhaustion and tv.

abolition of man, destroy the "judgement" capacity in humans. And ruin the subject-object relationship

https://godinprints.org/books/2/the-dark-tower-and-other-stories-by-c.-s.-lewis

https://gutenberg.ca/ebooks/huxleya-bravenewworldrevisited/huxleya-bravenewworldrevisited-00-e.html

The Abolition of Man, by lewis

https://www.samizdat.qc.ca/arts/lit/Toast_CSL.pdf

Addendum to ministering angels

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For casual relaxed education: the history of the big ideas in science form great courses is pretty good, as is the history of the industrial revolution.  Both recommended elsewhere. They're "session-able". I have also been told to recommend some of the Edwin O. Reischauer Lectures from The Fairbank Society for Far Eastern Studies at Harvard. But I don't know.

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The Dark Tower

Not directly related, but see also The Dark Tower and other stories by C.S. Lewis. Here is the link. (Warning: you actually have to click the link to download the psf. It contains about 5 stories, including the dark tower. It is a fantastic story though. It is free, and the website seems to be safe and reliable. You might have to skip or hide an advertisement. It is worth it though).

That book gives you a feel for what the social planners of the western world (especially the Anglosphere) were thinking in the mid 20th century, particularly those situated at Oxford. It was released in 1977, 14 years after he died. He had a seat at the table when long term social and economic planning was being discussed, both literally and metaphorically.

Note: C.S. Lewis died on exactly the same day as Aldous Huxley and JFK, November 22 1963. He was a big deal when it comes to this sort of thing.

Some awareness of these “social planners” and their psychological techniques is both necessary and useful.

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The Scorpion and the Frog

Apropos of nothing, as an abstract question.

In the parable of the scorpion and the frog, who won?

Did the frog win?

Or did the scorpion win?

What does it mean to win?

https://letmegooglethat.com/?q=the+scorpion+and+the+frog

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Zarathustra

Druj, Gathas, Zarathustra, Praxis.

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All along the Silk Road, the beliefs spread, and influenced the development of many other belief systems such as Judaism, Christianity and Islam.

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Followers of Zarathustra would just do what they could to remove the druj (detestably dishonest people) (including idolators, sex pests, wizards and alchemists, mountebanks and bad advisors) from the “house” or inner circle of the nobles or leaders.

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Link to Amazon.

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I also like the sermon on the mount from Christianity.

The praxis of the Gathas might mesh well when used by people who “get along” with people who follow the Christian ethos.

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew%205-7&version=NIV

E.g. get non-monogamy banned in any one of the 190ish countries in the world. Or get rid of defamation/libel/slander laws in any one nation. Or build shelters/faraday hermitages (a large old building full of “honeycomb steel”, or a settlement outside of town), to create a movement that might shelter those who are != druj.

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Lack of genuine understanding, lack of basic intellectual competence

Chinese Marxist Leninists who have adopted the principles and ideas of the international university system’s “empire of ideas”, including the ideas of the international trade environment and international governance, they don’t understand philology. They don’t understand words. They just don’t.

They (and feminists) also have very poor theory of mind, given that a lot of it comes from harmful eastern psychological practises such as sitting meditation, and associated dogmas and superstitions.

Read the “dark tower” by Lewis, and maybe you’ll understand. Maybe you won’t..?

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Measurement and communication of nervous system responses

“What gets measured gets managed — even when it’s pointless to measure and manage it, and even if it harms the purpose of the organisation to do so”.

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The Chinese, on matters of the intellect

The Chinese have a long history of not knowing the difference between reality and fantasy. This seems to be as a result of their character based written language, as well as non-standardised tonal language. And all of the problems in intergenerational scholarship that this brings.

They also had no real understanding of how the body worked (see their mediocre martial arts, as well as their alchemical practises, waste management strategies and sourcing of clean water, and avoidance of disease).

They also had very poor psychological techniques, along with very poor theory of mind. See the alchemical and drug induced psycho-spiritual practises. As well as the mind destroying breath meditation practises (the smother and stultify the thinking mind). Those words, those judgements, that actually is the mind. The proper kind.

Given that they are so inept in these areas, how much importance shall we place upon their opinions?

They also got everything wrong in their attempts to industrialise (see Industrial Revolution). At least until they became thralls to the tradists and the universities’ empire of ideas.

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They actually do “paint by numbers philology” imported from the west, like Oxford. Maybe indirectly. Lewis, Tolkein, Huxley and others actually spoke of the importance of philology often. Lewis especially.

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In China, Marxist-Leninist educational institutions deliberately miseducate people. And if you fail to be miseducated, you don’t end up as a party cadre! And therefore have no influence. Add to that, the fact that their underlying culture of learning wasn’t good before Marxist Leninism hit. And they destroyed even a little that (they had westernised a bit).

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My father

My father got a cyst on his knee in high school, and had it removed. Rehabilitation went really badly. And his leg shrank and he couldn’t bend it or move it.

He got really depressed, he dropped out of university somewhere along the way. He sat at his piano and wrote Christian piano music. Rock music.

His leg only started working again after a church healing meeting.

It destroyed his hopes for a sporting career.

I think it was caused by an obsession with “middle distance” running. He felt that he had improved his running ability so much that he had discovered something new. He claimed that his practise times were the best 16 year old track times in New Zealand (or world?). He thought he was a genius of running, and wanted to be on the New Zealand international representative team for table tennis as well.

But think he ended up with repetitive strains to his knee, that contributed to issues that led to a cyst. There were some minor injuries at the time too.

Rehabilitation went really badly. Really badly. For ages, he had to walk with a stiff left leg. He didn’t bend it when he walked.

But he knows literally everything.

I reckon it was related to his fitness practises, he disagrees. But I guess we’ll never know.

I’m only giving you a quick run down of information.

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Also, I loved my father and respected him, and listened to him. And used to go to him for advice as a teenager. A lot.

But this has all been misrepresented and edited heavily to the listening public.

They ask hundreds of questions. Or the same questions a hundred times, and then I explain, giving many details, and multiple angles. They then deliberately mislead people by picking and choosing the parts that fit their narrative.

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The alliance between ivory tower (the empire of ideas) and international trade and commerce (tradists)

Empire of ideas is allied with the tradists. That is, the forces of trade, production, extraction and wealth (aka capital). Or fractionated wealth, if you prefer.

There is a “debordian spectacle” hiding a lot of it. Sort of. The ideas of Debord aren’t actually very good. Obscuring it.

You can do like a franchisee model (metaphorical) for your nation, just by adopting a lot of stuff from the empire of ideas, and if you do, the tradists will give you nice deals. This is the biggest oversimplification in the world.

Is China just absorbing the ideas of the empire of ideas, and also getting favours from the “tradists”. To make up for their shallow talent pool, and lack of intellectual heft? And to recover from Mao? Since 1980?

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Tradists and the university system’s “empire of ideas”.

Lets you paint by numbers.

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The “alliance”

The alliance between ivory tower (the empire of ideas) and international trade and commerce (tradists)

They push a particular model for life, a mode of existence. I call it “the society of the mall”. But that might be out of date. Maybe the society of the distribution centre, shipping network and online shopping. Consumer capitalism and mass production. [still out of date, but now it has morphed, and includes “voter activist management” by remote control; and the alliance is trying to lock down control over extractive assets preemptively, including oils, gas, mining, fisheries and farm land]

No action points for education. None.

Ps: you have to have universities and polytechs. You just do. And you absolutely do need international trade (it’s called economies of scale). But you can have simplified international trade, and less of it (particularly if you abolish patent law and copyright law).

Maybe what we need is “pleb politics”, where we can legislate by petition initiated direct democracy (at 66% mail ballot majority). And can even do omnibus legislation. And even strike down legislation too. For example, the anti-smacking law. Or introduce few of the laws I’ve mentioned elsewhere. Might be suitable for NZ.

The universities of the world:

They set the tone for what happens in the education systems of the world: primary, secondary, early childhood, polytech, ito, and many others. And because of that they shape the human capital we work with. They also shape things like language and history. And the rules for business. And they gate keep who is allowed to become a member of the civil service and who can become a school teacher. They also gate keep who can become an “internationally transferable” academic, and who can become an accountant, certified financial analysts, and often gate keep corporate governance. And they gate keep politicians.

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Not directly related, but see also The Dark Tower and other stories by C.S. Lewis. Here is the link.

That book gives you a feel for what the social planners of the western world (especially the Anglosphere) were thinking in the mid 20th century, particularly those situated at Oxford. It was released in 1977, 14 years after he died. He had a seat at the table when long term social and economic planning was being discussed, both literally and metaphorically.

Note: C.S Lewis died on exactly the same day as Aldous Huxley and JFK, November 22, 1963.

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Scenario Planning: DDOS scammers

By the way, what happens if 2 years from now, Nigerian scammers, Kenya, Egypt or scammers from Ecuador, or South Africa can build an installation, point it at the sky, and threaten to DDOS the satellites, unless spacex pays them 50 million dollars. But now imagine that the technology is open source, and easily replicated, and affordable.

That was just a thought experiment.

Now imagine that it is a nation state actor, or a “militia” with ties to the state.

Or a decentralised leaderless collective of libertarians based in Kentucky, Georgia, Alabama, Florida and Tennessee (this seems a little bit more realistic). 

Blackmail for money.

Or blackmail the system for policy concessions.

Not black mail, instead, hold the satellites hostage for money.

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Reframe it, use this lens:

More modern:

Look at what could be called the “Empire of ideas”

It comes out of universities.

Universities

Utopians thinkers, and other social planners

Multi lateral trade enthusiasts

International governance

Science in governance

Scientism etc

(See also public health)

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Manufacturing of “jerkies” (see the dark tower by Lewis).

==> inserted into education and government. Also, all non-jerkies filtered out

And also the vanity trap, and space sex workers

(Shoddy lands and ministering angels)

Empires of Ideas: Creating the Modern University from Germany to America to China by William C. Kirby

https://godinprints.org/books/2/the-dark-tower-and-other-stories-by-c.-s.-lewis

Education Action point: learn everything you can about the intersection between “social planners” and universities. Also economic planners. Society planners. Oh, and study education itself (including religious education).

Note: the international university system is setting up (and has set up) an “empire of ideas”, and it would be wise to understand it. If you are a heavily educated person, and well read, and engaged in life long learning, it might be wise to understand this area. And also the history of religion (universities used to be Bible Schools, and they haven’t forgotten this. They trained ministers and missionaries…)

The empire of ideas.

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The Chinese are being guided by the “empire of ideas”. But our societies are heavily controlled by them also.

Layman’s terms: we’re both being controlled by this empire of ideas.

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Move the world with a lever, was just exposing corruption and telling my story. At the time that’s how I felt.

I thought it would have been a big story. Because a guy was crippled, filthy, freezing and (at the time I thought) kept on camera. By the way, I was lucid and thinking, but very screwed up physically.

Note: a lot of the voices speaking in my head are totally out of touch with reality.

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I also very much wanted to escape from the people who had caused me to live like that.

Psychological Tools of the Far East

Some of the psychological tools and techniques associated with Far Eastern superstition and dogma are commonly used by "the system". But the techniques are dumb. And the techniques have jargon and other language associated with it, and these words are sometimes used as though they are scientific, objective, or constitute good engineering.

But these psychological techniques are actually just bad and dumb. Just cut through the gordian knot in one slice. Just bad and dumb. They come from the same place that used to kill themselves with cinnabar potions for 2000 years. And they couldn't figure out how to do proper physical training. And anyone who can't manage that, probably can't train the mind either.

They weren't smart enough to sort out their water supply in Beijing, or other places. There was faeces in the water. Which causes so much disease. And they lived with so much disease in their over crowded society that I'm not surprised that they wanted to kill their minds with their psychological techniques. There must have been so much human misery. They just lived with, and accepted so much disease. Epidemic disease for then was endemic!? I can't hardly imagine it.

And to control their society's women, the Han just broke their feet. Presumably because they were acting out at some point in the past.

I don't think all that highly of the Chinese methods of psychology. They are bad at psychology. And bad at science in general. Both now and in the past.

By the way, you can _feel_ the deficiencies in their psyche, language and culture when you read Chinese Far Eastern works. Also, I studied Japanese a bit. So I understand a tiny bit about Chinese characters.

Ummm. Their dogmas and superstitions regarding alchemical elixirs, death by elixir, mercury poisoning over time, and aphrodisiac potions (love potions), as well as their physical training, were bad. So perhaps we should assume that their tools for the mind are horrible too, and perhaps incredibly harmful.

Meditation is a metaphorical death wish. Life is pain, and I want to kill myself. Oh wait, I will kill my “self”. Or at least part of it. It’s mental, cognitive and spiritual suicide, in a sense.

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Also, the worshiped idols so much. So so much. Idol worshiping societies had and have so much evil and sadness in them. You should feel pity. Feel anger and disgust first. But pity.

And if you truly want to feel pity, combined with fear/rage/disgust, study this lecture series about epidemic disease. If you don’t know the history of disease, you don’t know history.

The Chinese had the literal plague in 1911.

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The pneumonic plague epidemic in China's Manchuria in 1910-1911 was devastating, killing an estimated 60,000 people and causing severe social and economic disruption. The outbreak was particularly severe due to its pneumonic, airborne form, which has a nearly 100% fatality rate if untreated, and lasted for several months, impacting multiple provinces and cities before being contained by public health measures led by Dr. Wu Lien-teh.

Near 100% fatality, without treatment. Spreads airborne.

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Why break feet under Confucian beliefs?

So they don’t become a gossip, a busy body or a cheat. They just stay home and spin thread. Assuming the household is wealthy enough to support that. It’s an exaggeration, but the principle is sound. Reduce mobility so that women won’t cause trouble or drama.

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East Asian Psychology

If life is bad, and you feel sad, just meditate until your brain falls out.

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If the women gossip, lollygag, act like busybodies or chest, just break their feet to limit their mobility so they stop walking over to their friends houses so much. Pretend it’s a foot fetish. 

That’s it.

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Haydée > Mercedes

Team Haydée > Team Mercedes in the Count of Monte Christo

In the Count of Monte Christo, I’m on team Haydée over team Mercedes.

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Why use the word “fae”

I keep using the word “fae” in my head to speak to the fae-druj. And I wanted to explain to the people in the outside why I keep using the word in my head.

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What does it mean to say “fae”?

Something like lords and ladies from Terry Pratchett.

Or falling through narnia into another realm.

Or on Faerie stories by JRR tolkein.

https://youtu.be/3HSsr7PoEIw?si=6K6Zrpc6_hZ8n7sx

https://coolcalvary.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/10/on-fairy-stories1.pdf

Something where you find yourself in another world, hidden. A strange and perilous world? The world of faerie.

Mostly the book lords and ladies by Pratchett? Where someone crosses over into the realm of the elves, or they come here. No, it is the “wee free men”, you end up I. The world of the elves. See also: elves and beagles in the long earth series. All Pratchett. Elves in the wee free men are dumb and vicious. And not that glamorous. I love the Tiffany aching books, even though they are for kids. Pa: I love the trolls in the long earth.

I don’t think the term helps others, but it’s what I like. It’s just a short hand.

Either that or the “vrill” people, or the “philosopher kings”. I am not sure what metaphor to use for you guys? I don’t want to use the word “shadow oligarchy”. Too lame. Please don’t about reading any of those.

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Saturday, 1 November 2025

I get accused of misogyny?

Do I value women…

In a normal society, I could quite happily have had a wife for 45 years? Married at 23, together until 68 when we died?

But the men and women of the fae/druj dislike marriage and monogamy?

I don’t think the women of the fae (druj? Or those attached to druj men) are representative of normal women.

And their opinions about relationships and the structure of society aren’t representative of what normal women think.

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Define druj: partisan of deception, deceiver; characterised by falsehood. Those who are detestable dishonest, and cause discord and disorder. Potentially societal chaos.

We just don’t have good enough words some times in our language.

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By disorder and chaos, I mean things like the Ukrainian holocaust, the Stalinist Khazak genocide, Hitler’s murder squads and death camps, Mao’s genocidal reign of wilfully deranged folly, pol pots daft murderous campaign. Or how horrible Chinese society was for centuries.

I think the behaviour of these low quality people tends towards causing bad things to happen.

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So yeah, I value women. And would love and cherish a woman for life if I had one worth loving.

I’m not sure if I am in trouble with the rules for talking about monogamy though.

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I admire the Jesuits, and also the Augustinian friars (especially men like Gregor Mendel, founder of modern genetics).

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This isn’t “reverse social engineering”, but….

Genuine opinions between 2007 and 2018, a reduction in corporate power, and in the power of the UN, and in the power of annoying university educated bureaucrats, as well as firing lots of teachers. In favour of people having more power, democratically. Just some of my ideas…

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Don’t go here: it’s just because people are wanted the link: about viruses, hpv etc. idk if it is a good website

https://web.stanford.edu/group/virus/papilloma/2008/index.html

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I like this movie:

https://youtu.be/xQzLM1MBL8c?si=0dW45yFebbmg86zx

https://youtu.be/v7NMH78ex0E?si=QQSeRPRd-KuxJety

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kung_Fu_Hustle

https://youtu.be/nqsaWQ_17Ts?si=n-999jdBLGXezQNE

Misc stuff worth reading or listening to, if bored:

https://www.sciencehistory.org/education/scientific-biographies/paul-ehrlich/

The "system" actually held back his medicine a little bit in some cases. See this lecture below.

https://oyc.yale.edu/history/hist-234/lecture-12

Thalodomide:

https://www.sciencehistory.org/stories/disappearing-pod/the-woman-who-turned-back-a-plague-of-old-testament-proportions/

https://amp.dw.com/en/thalidomide-babies-birth-defects-caused-by-a-harmless-pill-60-years-ago/a-59952155

https://www.shutterstock.com/editorial/search/thalidomide

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Louis_Pasteur

^ if you’ve never read about him
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Koch

^ if you’ve never heard of him

This one is fun:

https://www.sciencemuseum.org.uk/objects-and-stories/history-syphilis-part-two-treatments-cures-and-legislation#:~:text=Calomel%20(Mercurous%20chloride)%20was%20used,useful%20in%20that%20context%20too.

“Inevitably, personal behaviours are still central to the global status of syphilis. For example, researchers have recorded sharp rises in cases amongst men who have sex with men. They propose this has much to do with a reduction in condom use, which for many years has been a key form of protection against human immunodeficiency virus (HIV), the virus that can cause another STI – AIDS. A result of HIV increasingly being seen as a manageable, chronic condition rather than the untreatable disease it once was. Similarly, recent research in Japan has suggested a direct link between rising syphilis cases and the increased use of dating apps by young heterosexual men and women.”

“Women in such communities are particularly vulnerable and cases of congenital syphilis (that means that you’re born with it) in their children have also increased significantly.”

This page is possibly a misrepresentation, or an understatement:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_syphilis_cases

But a lot of people had syphilis from engaging in rampant weird sex stuff back in the day, or visiting prostitutes, having numerous extramarital affairs. And the “cures” often hurt them very badly.

Mental illness caused by late-stage syphilis was once a common form of dementia. This was known as the general paresis of the insane.

A lot of our “leaders”, as well as the “movers and shakers” of the past were suffering from mental illness due to syphilis. Insiders?

A LOT of them. So many. So many. So many. So many. So many. So many.

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Change topic:

JFK had massive issues due to sexually transmitted infections, and their treatment (he took dodgy anti-biotic that ruined his bones, and encouraged fractures). It weakened his bones and hospitalised him a lot. He was a really sick man, and on a lot of drugs by the time he died. The medical industry is really, really strange.

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Change topic, pleasure reading:

https://www.britannica.com/biography/Michael-Faraday

“The family belonged to a small Christian sect, called Sandemanians, that provided spiritual sustenance to Faraday throughout his life. It was the single most important influence upon him and strongly affected the way in which he approached and interpreted nature.”

“The article on electricity in the third edition of the Encyclopædia Britannica particularly fascinated him.”

Faraday began as Humphrey Davy’s laboratory assistant. Davy was HUGE at the time. Just MASSIVE.

Last words, "I shall be with Christ, and that is enough".

If you read his biography, and learn about his history, don't get bogged down by the stuff about Maxwell. Faraday was massive. His importance to science cannot be overstated. He was huge in both electricity and magnetism. His work on polarisation and polarity of electromagnetic fields may perhaps be very interesting to some people, myself included, if I could get some spare time to myself!! Electromagnetic rotation? Fields, relationships. Change topic: We may find that the honeycomb steel box hermitages become very cheap indeed, especially if we can do something with rotation and polarity. Rotation and polarity. Although, they may end up pretty cheap anyway, just based on size and scale, as well as by means of economies of scale.

He wasn’t highly educated! But he did okay! He was amazing! He was of the most important scientists ever

He liked this book: 

https://www.fishpond.co.nz/Books/Improvement-of-Mind-Watts-Isaac/9781396317361?utm_source=googleps&utm_medium=ps&utm_campaign=NZ&gad_source=1&gad_campaignid=17177494710&gbraid=0AAAAAD_dOfokmfVqA-xYepWUP5Uie6Q8e&gclid=CjwKCAjw3tzHBhBREiwAlMJoUn0suNPF5SHi1ZSxIH5m37b3jJ2onBlG3E6NeXHsFfaEygx9HBbYmhoCRTYQAvD_BwE

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Random ideas

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manchurian_plague

Probably an inside job: social planners and public health officials, perhaps with ties to the English intelligentsia or Russian intelligence. Public health, anyway. I'd blame long term social reformers and planners with ties to Oxbridge (Oxford + Cambridge).

The plague hit, along with restrictions on movement, at around about the time of the republican revolution in China. April plague, October revolution.

Manchuria was/is the home land of the Manchu (aka Jurchen). The imperial family of China was Manchu/Jurchen in both ethnicity and culture. They used their homeland as a place to keep their culture alive, and get exercise (they used to be horse-lords). They used to do a pilgrimage to their homeland for exercise, and to keep their culture as horsemen alive, for fear of becoming too “oriental” and sedentary.

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The weakness of the homeland, both in reality and in image, of the Jurchen/Manchu weakened them, making it easier for the republicans to win to revolution. Key point, public health may have been shady.

Key point, public health may have been shady.

It was easy to get away with, because China is so well known for having bad public health, and diseases like the plague. So why not?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1911_Revolution

You probably would benefit from having certain “foundation” in public health and epidemic disease, and science and also Chinese/Asian history. There are other courses I have recommended elsewhere.

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By the way, alcohol prohibition was a scam, so was temperance. The system wanted to create and fund a criminal underworld, so it pushed prohibition. It sucks.

Bootlegging alcohol is profitable.

See Al Capone, also see Chicago in the 30s.

See all of the other crime families to see if alcohol had anything to do with financing their activities. For example, Kansas, just to pick one at random.

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Science: culture and tradition?

A lot of science is to do with "culture" and "tradition". Perhaps those who are interested might take a look at "Nation" and "Dodger" by Terry Pratchett, along with a number of biographies (either as books or just an encyclopedia entry) of the likes of Michael Faraday, Humphrey Davy, Sir Ernest Rutherford, Sir Isaac Newton, James Watt, Gregor Mendel, James Watson, Francis Crick, and Maurice Wilkins as well as Thomas Telford and Isambard Kingdom Brunel. Louis Pasteur, Alexander Fleming, Edward Jenner, Paul Erlich, Robert Koch, Alexander Graham Bell.

And then look at the history of science, engineering, disease and medicine. Including sanitation (like aqueducts, sewers, public baths, water treatment and supply).

Good courses include the three I always recommended.

Note: A lot of the history (and associated traditions and culture) of science goes hand-in-hand with “inventiveness”, medicine and the history of disease, sanitation and public health. It also has close ties to industry, and always has (at least in the modern period).

Courses:

The Industrial Revolution

Great Scientific Ideas That Changed the World

History of Epidemics in Western Society Since 1600

See also:

Understanding Japan: a cultural history

Chinese history course

Early Modern England

The Royal Society, on Britannica, or Wikipedia, or other

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If you want to understand science, then one of the best ways to do that is to read the stories of those who do science (as well as engineering and medical research). And the other way is also to look at the history of science, and the history of the applications of science. And the cultural, philosophical, linguistic and religious underpinnings of science.

One of the reasons that England was so good at science was because of their religious and cultural background. As well as their language. Shared linguistic ties with continental Europe also helped, and many early scientists spoke multiple languages. As well as Greek and Latin. They also engaged in Bible studies, which involves some understanding of languages and translation.

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Note:

The People’s Republic of China has only one Nobel prize for science or medicine, so far as I can tell. New Zealand has three?

General Education

Here is some general education about the enclosure movement. In England we engaged in the forced privatisation of agricultural. We did this for good or for ill? It is wise to read about it.

It was probably unjust, and forced people off of the land. But it greatly improved agricultural output, and fed the people.

As a side effect, a lot of the people pushed off of the land ended up in the cities, and formed a large potential labour force, of people desperate for work. They were poor and needed jobs m, and ended up working in factories. It is a very important part of history. Don’t view it with modern eyes, and don’t view it with a “value laden” point of view, instead just try to understand it dispassionately.

It is an extremely important part of history, for a variety of reasons. And it isn’t hard to learn about. You can lead a lot in just 45 minutes or more. Good luck.

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BBC Radio Four: In Our Time

The Enclosures of the 18th Century

Melvyn Bragg and guests discuss the 18th and 19th century enclosure movement which divided the British countryside both literally and figuratively.

https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b00b1m9b

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Description of In Our Time, taken from Wikipedia

In Our Time is a BBC Radio 4 discussion series and podcast exploring a wide variety of historical, scientific and philosophical topics, presented by Melvyn Bragg, since 15 October 1998. It is one of Radio 4's most successful discussion programmes, acknowledged to have "transformed the landscape for serious ideas at peak listening time".

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More education about the enclosure movement and the modernisation of agriculture

I think that the enclosure movement and the modernisation of agriculture, as well as the consequences of those two things, are also briefly covered in The Industrial Revolution by Patrick N. Allitt, a course available from the great courses.

https://www.thegreatcoursesplus.com/the-industrial-revolution

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About the lecturer:

Patrick N. Allitt, Emory University

"We live in a world that has created many new incentives for us to become lifelong learners. Luckily, lifelong learning is a pleasure."

Patrick N. Allitt is Cahoon Family Professor of American History at Emory University, where he has taught since 1988. He received his PhD in American History from the University of California, Berkeley, and completed postdoctoral fellowships at Harvard Divinity School and Princeton University. He is a widely published author whose books include A Climate of Crisis: America in the Age of Environmentalism; The Conservatives: Ideas and Personalities throughout American History; and Religion in America since 1945: A History.

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Please consider reading this as well as listening to the Melvyn Bragg radio show: https://www.britannica.com/topic/enclosure

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Why did I say I didn’t want person xyz (Brynn or grace)

Explainer:

There was a biofeedback thing where I’m supposed to feel turned on by, and have a physical measurable response to things like looking at photos. Ummmm. Looking at photos of women like Brynn or Grace doesn’t do much for me.

Secondly, I was really sick back 12 months ago. And I couldn’t move well. In that state, so what’s the point of having sex? That was when I said it had to be 1000 times for me to care.

I’d prefer just to use terms like that inside my own head. Not out loud. But I can’t think of any good words to use.

I was also supposed to have erections when I looked at images.

Or feel the “ladder build” to the soles of my feet and up to my jaw.

It was weird. I was supposed to try really hard to feel turned on at certain points.

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I’m supposed to want things that they can offer? But what I most wanted was an end to the fighting, and to have my health returned to me. That, and good faith conversation, friendship, and physical exercise.

Ummm. I am into women?!

But I was mostly into women I had never met before!

I’d have liked a fresh start!!

And to escape from their set of people. Although, they claim that there is no “out”.

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Blast off!

They had this idea that they could blast my conscious mind to pieces by shredding the inner monologue to pieces. But the theory is bunk.

They wanted to shred it to pieces. Create a blank slate. A tabula rasa.

And then examine the “ID” or underlying desires. The raw biological urges, as though those exist in some sort of primordial subconscious state.

The whole thing is asinine, the product of second rate minds.

The desires don’t exist independently of things like ideas or concepts or the conceptual mind. Nor do they exist independently of relationships.

Also the “governor/observer” was still functioning.

Desires don’t work the way they think they do, and consciousness doesn’t work the way they think it does. They’re just asinine.

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What would I want…. Other than really good health and fitness, good posture and breathing, a healthy back etc.

Ummm. A generic hot chick, or maybe two. Who tell me they want to be a part of my life because they think I’m great. And have no connection to anything bad happening in my life. (Or maybe, six, but too much drama maybe!)

What these people consider “love” is silly also. And a feeling of desire isn’t a connection either. The whole conversation is pretty much inane.

The conversation itself doesn’t make any sense. It’s almost totally incoherent. That is, their conversation about sex, desire, longing, wanting etc

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Also, to visualise isn’t to want or desire something. Sometimes it is just to “sample” possibilities?!

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To blank your mind

And to think that letting all wants, images and thoughts, and reactions melt away and settle to the bottom of your mind is daft too. That’s just Buddhism, aka the eastern cult of emptiness. And that set of far eastern oriental superstitions and dogmas is pretty lame in the first place. It’s just idol worship, and is really boring. There’s nothing to there worth paying attention to. Or not much.

The dogmas and superstitions of the far eastern orientals are worthy of studying. They are fascinating and disturbing. And tend to create misogynistic, uncaring societies where people look the other way. Turn a blind eye to bad things that happen to other people. They have high suicide rates (both mystical and for other reasons, seppuku, Taoist elixir based “immortality”, Japanese suicide rates). And they have special techniques to encourage this to stop caring, the Chinese invention of Zazen. Not only that, but their theory of mind is pretty meh.

The psychological techniques of the far eastern orientals deliberately bring about a stultification of the mind. By that I mean meditation. It hollows out the part of the mind that would often be considered a part of the “self”. The name of these techniques is “meditation”. I have very little faith in these techniques.

And they worship idols and craven images and symbols. Societies like that end up being awful. Especially to women.

Application: they want me to practise “thought stopping” to stop visualising and looking at things, because it offends them. And to stop thinking about things, or just let thoughts fall away. But that’s just bunkum from the far eastern oriental’s cult of emptiness, Buddhism.

For more education, check this out. 

https://youtu.be/enS1EWHxoG0?si=yUfBjo2rXxM-b1aF

Ummm. It’s a good lecture, but a little dry. It’s not especially easy. But if you’re you enjoy academic lectures, the. It’s good.

[Tibetan Buddhism is just an extension of polytheistic religion and superstition and idol worship. It’s just one more cult, at least until fairly recently.]

It’s just idol worship. You visualise and engage in spiritual practises involving “graven images”. You meet the deities of their superstitious world. See the Tibetan book of the dead.

It’s the stuff that Muslims hate. And it’s also the stuff that puritans hate. And it’s also the stuff that makes life hell for young, exploited women. It creates societies that are hateful towards women. Slight hyperbole, but if you look at China and Thailand, you will find that they have history of breaking women’s feet, creeps taking Taoist sex potions, mega brothels in Thailand using so much hot water that it causes subsidence, men selling daughters to traffickers who will put them in prostitution, men who mistreat their harems in China that badly they get poisoned. They hide their women to hide the abuse and misery, broken feet to keep them immobile, and illiterate to keep them isolated, so they can’t organise anything.

Men who dress their women in silks, but don’t bother to give them good water to drink. Or adequate water in which to bathe. A society of slaves, concubines, plural marriage, and interminable disease. A society of rebellions and brigandage. A hell on earth. A place of darkness and despair. It is one of the places that missionaries warned you about. It was horrible.

Ps: in India (change topic), sati was created to disincentivise poisoning of husbands by wives. Banned by the British. Wives in India were so miserable that they wanted to murder their husbands all the time. As a former economics student, I understand that people respond to incentives.

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Chinese Boarder

When I was 14, we had a teenage Chinese guy (about 17) named Terry living with us, as a boarder. He was pretty good. He was into comics. He gave me an Eminem album that he burned. It was the first (secular) rap and/or hip hop album that I enjoyed. It grew on me.

I liked him.

I knew another Terry as well later in life. One of my in laws. She's not important.

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Asinine theory of mind

Ummm. Their theory of mind is asinine. Inane.

They have this idea that “base biological urges” exist and “higher order consciousness” exists. And that if you wiped the higher order consciousness, then what shows through is the “base biological urges”. And that you can modify the base biological urges through conditioning. And you can bypass the “higher order consciousness”. I.e. thinking in words working your own mind and making decisions based on that, or operating from the “observer” position in the mind.

But it’s nonsense. Higher order consciousness and base biological urges are intertwined. And the higher order consciousness still exists even if the words are being impacted by white noise (constant questions and answers).

The people who push this nonsense aren’t exactly first rate thinkers. They are like clumsy, ignorant children.

They also engage in inane babbling about garbage, and pretend it makes sense.

By the way, much of my “theory of mind” is just practise. It’s not theory, it’s just experience. It’s more like “practice of mind”.

And their mental practices and techniques are garbage.

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Corporations

China has fully adopted corporations and the “corporate model” even for farming. Weird highly modified collective for land ownerships, but massive vertically integrated corporations for lots of things. And hyper consumerism. And malls and distribution centres. They’re just as bad as the capitalist nations. And they’re destroying their whole environment horrifically. Why? Because corporations are bad stewards of the land, and also China has bad (or mediocre) accounting practise, and a culture of dishonesty. Also, they fail to count the true cost of pollution and environmental degradation in their GDP or balance streets.

They’ve also adopted a lot of the concepts and “learnings” and practises of what I call “the empire of ideas” (universities or whatever).

Ummmm. I’m not sure that China really has a solid intellectual foundation for anything, or really knows what they’re doing.

In matters of the intellect, they’re normally not thought of all that highly.

So when they talk about want, versus the higher order consciousness thinking about desire, then maybe they don’t have any genuine understanding?

Maybe they lack the intellectual heft to be taken seriously on matters such as theory of mind, psychology or sociology? They have a history of being mostly inane when it comes to psychology (most psychology comes from religion anyway) and secular psychology tends to be pretty feeble. And given that they have a fairly young nation, and it was enmeshed in (self inflicted) famine, disaster and civil ware until 1980, they have had time to develop real understanding in the field?

As a moderately intelligent man, I see little evidence of high quality thinking coming out of PRC. Even these psychological games they play seem to have been invented by English universities.

FWIW, I respect zen meditation about as much as I respect foot binding. It damages a vital part of the self (body-mind-consciousness) for ease of societal control.

[Consciousness is an emergent property of the body-mind, when people exist in community with one another. Language and conversation also help.]

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The problem with men who have unbound souls, is that they burn with anger at the injustice in the world, and they want to change it. They want to fight for justice, and for the oppressed and down trodden.

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And this bothers the powerful. Who love the superstitions, dogmas, practises and traditions of the far east, because they cause you to stop caring, and just accept that the world is horrible. Or near enough. They kill the part of you that burns with injustice, or wants to make it better. The powerful want a society of placid people who just put up with it. So they use the techniques of the east. Sometimes they use technology to administer them such as satellites or apps on your phones (headspace).

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It creates a society of oppressed miserable women, wives, concubines, courtesans, whores and wretched female house servants. It also creates cultures of long lasting slavery. Such as the unbroken 1500 years of hereditary slavery in Korea.

The beliefs of the East create a hell for women and the oppressed. People of Confucian belief embrace patriarchal oppression and repression as their way of life. And eastern religion encourages people to simply look the other way when it comes to injustice (3 wise monkeys) and to stop caring about the fact that there are bad things in life, for you of for others. Rant over.

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Start of digression and general life history

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This segment is a little rough…,

[KYS had one part time male counsellor though, he was the deputy leader from NZ youth for Christ (yfc). He was close personal friend of my father. My father tried to get me to see him many times, implying that I was mentally ill. He worked with Ian Grant. I think it was his deputy. The former deputy director of youth for Christ was working as a part time counsellor at Kapiti youth support. My father was also good personal friends with the founder of parachute music, Mark De Jong.

My church CCC and my father also strong ties to Christianity via the Christian camp “el rancho”.

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Ummmm. Some of the doctors who worked at Kapiti Youth Support (the free youth clinic) also worked at Raumati Beach Surgery. You have to switch away from the youth clinic at age 25, because funding runs out. They worked part time at the youth clinic, as an act of public service.

I switched to Raumati Beach Surgery at about the age of 25. Some of my records got lost.

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My pastor (Geoff) was in on the scheme. His son was in on the scheme also. Geoff and Jesse Orchard. Jesse faked having post - viral fatigue syndrome, and/or CFS as part of the scheme.

Geoff is now the chief elder of the CCC (coat community church). He knew why I was so sick. I saw a fair bit of their family between the age of 20-23. 

The other pastors, Bruce Scott and Stan Rolston were aware of it too. I even went to a prayer meeting, to ask them (the elders) to pray for my healing. Both Stan and Geoff were there. Geoff was into "anointing oils" at the time. And decided to use an oil mixed with frankincense (symbolic meaning?). Andrew Crawshaw knew about the causes of my health issues also. He was our former youth pastor, and briefly lived with my family.

The healing meeting: it was the elders morning meeting, and I went there, and they "laid on hands" to pray for my healing. I was an invalid with "chronic fatigue syndrome", and had quit university because I was an invalid, and also couldn't get a job.

Bruce Scott's son, Nathan Scott is a physiotherapist at team medical, and deliberately mistreated me and gave me bad advice. He was the worship leader and MC at the Coast Community Church (a worship leader is a type of pastor).

They knew I was sick. They knew I told people I was sick, and an invalid. They knew that I had dropped out of university due to illness. They knew that I told people that I had "chronic fatigue syndrome" (even though I hated that label).

They knew I had "chronic fatigue syndrome" and that I was an invalid. And that I had to drop out of university.

Some of them (like Jesse and his father) knew that I struggled even to play board games with my friends my the age of 22. That is, I couldn't even socialise, because they'd done to many things to my body. The actual act of sitting at the table only board games for two hours (or more) once per week hurt me sometimes! My spine hurt. I couldn't sit normally.

The coast community church was my "home church" starting at age 15. And remained my "home church" until I was 23 and stopped going.

Technicality, the CCC was an elder led church, and Bruce, Stan and Geoff were elders, not pastors. But it is pretty similar. And the elders usually preach, or we have paid preachers from outside.

The CCC has/had close ties to El Rancho. But there was a church split involving Bruce Scott and some other stuff along the way. I think Bruce might have been from a different school of thought, and got pushed out. He was the top elder for a very long time. I didn't really know him.

Stan came to visit my house (at 17 Princeton Road) to pray for me once. I was very unwell. I thought I might not survive (maybe hyperbole)? Bad things were happening to my back? And I couldn't even rest. I had no idea why my health was ruined? Do you know what it is like to not have the ability to move? This paragraph is underexplained. Anyway, they knew I was really sick, very unwell and that I didn't know what caused it. I was an invalid! And really unwell! I was too sick to even get a ride to church and sit through a church service! I was too sick to even play board games for 2-3 hours with friends! And they just let me languish!

Formerly known as Ruapehu Street Chapel, Coast Community Church is affiliated to the Open Brethren.

Nathan Thatcher was a part of this same set also, back in the day. And attended the same church. Ashley King was a leader in the youth group, and part of the same set. He played drums in the worship band. Jared and Amanda Doncliff were my Bible study leaders, and they also knew why I was sick.

No one told me why I was sick!

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My father the creep:

This is my father the creep who seduced Tomoe Takahashi, our former 16 year old Japanese exchange student, as a teenager. When she was living with us (see garbage dump v3) for more information. It is also in the updated background stories. Split with his wife, pretended that it was her infidelity that was the cause of the split, convinced me to move in with him 2 years later.

In the meantime, had Tomoe Takahashi move back to New Zealand to become his live in girl friend. She fell in love with him, wanted to be with him forever, and to get married, and he ditched her piecemeal, by inventing a nonsense story about my bother threatening her. And then breaking up with her once she moved out, months later].

He was massively involved in the Christian scene (Karori Baptist church) and his Christian businesses in Taupo. He was mega, mega Christian.

Ties to the Christian scene: Uncle Andy is also Christian aligned (or pretends/pretended to be), and Uncle Jonathan was also mega Christian also. Aunty Monica and Tim Tautau were pastors, and met in Bible school.

Edit:

My church and my family and my friends kept me in the dark about both my health and Amanda. And my extended family. And my doctors. And my physiotherapists.

(I was as sick as a dog from 2007 onwards (some periods of feeling better). Fatigue, exhaustion, weakness, sleep, digestion. And badly impaired from about 2011 onwards. It got called cfs, and back issues.)

(Amanda was sleeping around).

(No one told me otherwise was the satellites).

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Meditation and Eastern psychological dogma

If life is full of suffering, unsatisfactoriness, and the good things in life are temporary, and it bothers you, then why not redefine the self as non existent?

And then you take the part of your mind that reminds you of the fact that you are a discrete individual, and keeps thinking as though you are an actual person, a "self", and smother and stultify it until it gives up.

And then it doesn't bother you that life is full of suffering and unsatisfactoriness, and that the good things in life are temporary.

Meditation is a form of cognitive self mutilation, that you engage in until the part of the mind that used to be classified as the self (or the most significant part of the self) is smothered to death. It empties you out until it doesn’t bother you so much that life is not all it could be, i.e. is full of suffering and unsatisfactoriness, and that the good things in life are temporary.

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And then they turn a blind eye to prostitution, trafficking, slavery, oppression, idolatry, polytheistic spiritual practise, drugs, harems, women with broken feet (foot binding), corruption, occult practises, poverty, genuine disdain and contempt for women, debt, extreme usury, incredibly unjust indentured servitude (to pay off fake debts), and other social ills. 

The three wise little monkeys: they see no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil.

Kumbaya.

https://www.theguardian.com/artanddesign/gallery/2015/jun/15/unbound-chinas-last-lotus-feet-in-pictures

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More background

Back when I was about 21/22, my core muscles were pulled taut, and my posture modified in such weird ways, that I couldn’t even garden without it hurting my spine. I couldn’t push my arms out fully extended from my body, if that makes sense. I couldn’t garden with my arms pushed out extended to work, or else my spine hurt, just in between my shoulders. At around T2-3. Not to do housework, or even light gardening. Sometimes it was like this, sometimes it wasn’t. I didn’t know what caused it though.

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I also had to do weird accounting on energy levels, just to cope or manage at all.

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There were so many issues back then. It was really bad. I had back issues, spine issues, problems with my mid back, problems with breathing, problems with digestion (extremely severe constipation, and stool hardness, caused artificially), extreme fatigue.

Uhhh, exercise was totally out of the question.

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Intellectual Exercise

They knew that "reverse social engineering" at the time was a part of an intellectual exercise. And that I engaged in my intellectual exercise to keep myself sane. While suffering horribly for years.. even though Siobhan hides and obscures how bad things were, by misleading people through bad and “low quality” reporting.

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Take Dannevirke for example

I wasn’t able to sleep on my right side. I wasn’t able to curl up on the couch with a book. I wasn’t able to relax in an armchair to watch a movie.

I have to do weird things just to stay upright. And it’s hard to breathe normally.

Of course my body was still disabled/impaired. And the impairment is long term.

Paul and the rest of the set have made the false assertion that was healthy by the time I was in Dannevirke. This assertion is false.

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Health

What does it mean to be healthy? I can jump rope, play a round of gentle tennis and a decent game of table tennis, hit a boxing bag and focus mitts. And be light on my feet.

Ugh. And breathe normally, and not to have to brace my torso/back unnaturally.

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I would gladly have remained celibate until I was fully healthy, and regained fully my normal capacity for physical movement.

And also had had a shave, shower (including washing my hair) and a haircut.

But I wasn’t allowed to. They insisted I start having sex. I would have preferred to remain celibate.

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Because of them and their remote control electronic nerve splicing technology: I was very sick for four years (2007 -2011), I suffered five years debilitating impairment (2011-2016), and then spent seven years totally crippled and in horrible conditions (2016-2023).

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This is Clare by the way. I liked her back in high school! She’s intelligent, beautiful, educated, witty and really easy to get along with. She used to dance. She has a first class honours degree in public policy. We were in a couple of classes together (economics and accounting).

She got pregnant in university, had the child, married the guy, there were fights, and then she left. I think she goaded him into hitting her so that she was justified in leaving. She is (nominally) a Catholic.

She’s married with children now. Link.

This is Angela, someone from instagram:

^ nice hair in this one, and the one below

Someone asked:

Question: Was I an egg in school?

Answer: no

Question: was I a bully in school.

Answer: no

Uhhh, I was pretty much normal to people.

I deliberately avoided bullying people.

I told a lot of jokes, make people laugh. Was fairly outgoing and talkative. Loved books, liked school. Played tons of video games. Some sports depending where/when. Went to youth group. Had my usual sets of people. Did well in school, and worked hard sometimes. But I wasn’t hyper driven. I was the smart kid in my year. Smartest male, smartest period haha, but I didn’t fight to win dux.

I hung out with guys more than girls, played a lot of halo 2. The youth group set was good fun.

Umm. I did judo, boxing, Muay Thai and briefly karate, but never talked about them. I lifted and did body weight exercise, but they weren’t topics of conversation.

I would just hang out and have fun!? I was fun to be around. If people wanted to watch movies, or play video games, or go to the pools, I was happy to go.

I liked the youth group set back in Hawke’s Bay (my time in Paraparaumu college was only three years!). And spent tons of time with the walkers. The Walker brothers were into video games. David was my best friend at that time in school. We just played tons of games.

I just did normal stuff!! Pretty much!!

Including normal dumb kid stuff. Like cricket with a tree worth of grape fruit, dismantling fireworks to rebuild them, ammonium nitrate smoke bombs, roller blading, sog-by (soccer and rugby). Playing with coding and video game design. I didn’t drink or do drugs. Or try smoking. Only times I tried alcohol under 18 was when my grandparents gave me wine to try with dinner.

But when I went off to university, I tried drinking (not that much) or went out to a couple bars and stuff with Amanda etc. dancing and whatever.

I got drunk once when I was 20, but not really that drunk. I was merely ebullient, and walked sideways when I got up to go to the bathroom. It was just board games with Rachel and Amanda (Rachel was Amanda’s best friend at the time). It was just leftover vodka found in the freezer.

Uhhh. In high school, my identity was “genius”. And I was a gamer. That was who I was.

And when I “grew up” I wanted to be an inventor, but I also wanted to make some video games. A bit of both. But I figured that I could do both along the way, once I had a bit of money. And I could learn how to do both on my own, sort of. I’d need a day job of course. What did I want to invent? Products, of course. But I figured I could release most of the them (or some) for free under Creative Commons, or open source. Easier to not have to deal with patents etc.

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Edit: November 14th: Uhhhh. I started lifting at about 14/15. But it was just stuff like pushups and dumbbells to begin with.

As for the martial arts, I did normal stuff. I did judo, karate, Muay Thai, boxing. Not much karate though. And table tennis, hockey and soccer. I was pretty humble in the original post. Perhaps the wrong tone. Maybe I tried to be too humble? I grew up with humility being the way to do things.

Uhhhh. Ummmm. Going further back. I did all the normal kid stuff like climbing trees and playing lunch time rugby, and wrestling + dunking other kids under water when I went swimming.

It was normal judo, Muay Thai and boxing. 6, 6, and 9 months respectively. Ummm.

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Explaining:

Badminton

I liked table tennis and tennis when I was young. I was pretty decent at table tennis. And okay at tennis. But I felt that after my many years of health problems, and my left shoulder too, I might not be able to ever play a proper sport. And so I thought that something like badminton might be okay, instead.

That is my explanation for why I said that I would like to play badminton.

I also felt that boxing, Muay Thai, judo, soccer and hockey were probably out!

And I needed a way to improve my coordination, and something like badminton seemed ideal.

And that is why I said that badminton seemed like a good sport. Even though it seems like a weird one. It is weird. But it’s fine. And I’m middle aged now. So, whatever.

I’m old lol.

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Yelp review for bad character + mashup with facial recognition software and high resolution cameras in your shops.

An iPad and a camera in your shop, a person with “low quality character” (bad reviews) comes into your shop, the iPad goes “ding”, it lets you know he is “red zone level” of bad character reviews. And you can tell him to leave. It’s store policy, of course.

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Quick update/addition: only a small thing

Also, he groped a twelve year old girl’s backside while we were at my form two school camp. He is a creep. This gave him a reputation for being a “pedophile”. He “copped a feel”, while “helping” her climb up a boulder. She gave him the dirtiest look I’d ever seen afterwards.

She wasn’t impressed.

I think he did it as a power play, not out of lust or desire though, and because he kind of has contempt for women. And he wants to break down their boundaries a bit. Even when they are very young.

Edit: I hope this newly modified segment about the 12 year old plays well? But I think it might make me sound whiny?

But you don’t take both of your hands and place them open handed on a girls backside, one cheek in each hand, to push her up the side of the boulder. Like two fully open hands each firmly holding one buttock. Two hands full of flesh. That’s not an accident 🙃.

And the boulder wasn’t even that high! And he was in the way! He actually made it harder for her to climb. He’s just weird! I don’t think she suffered horrifically, it’s not that bad. She wasn’t traumatised for life. But it’s just weird and creepy!!! He didn’t go for her hips or her waist. He went for her butt cheeks 🫠🙃.

Ps: I moved this from the setting the record straight file, because it wasn’t playing well. It seemed a little twee, or shrill?

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Voting for the “corporate governance pool”

We should vote for a pool of 100 “normal kiwis” ie, normal guys and girls, and once they are voted for, they are placed into the board of directors in every single board in government in New Zealand (all of the ministries and departments are ruled over by corporate boards), and also every top 30 company board.

How do you pick them? This is how:

1000 people are randomly selected from voters rolls

Anyone who wants to recuse themselves does so

Another 500 are randomly selected, and then anyone who wants to recuse themselves can do so.

Until you have 1000 willing to do it. And then voters can pick the best 100 of them, based on who gives the best speech and has the best CV. 

There is a 400000 cash prize for being selected to the pool. And plus 100k per year for actually working as a part of the board.

Once you’re in the pool, you just get dropped into the board seat. Or something.

Or maybe you only need about 20 of them, because you can be on multiple boards.

It still needs work?! But it’s a way to exploit the gaps inherent in the corporate governance model.

It’s called “pleb politics”, and you do it mostly through direct democracy. You devolve powers to yourselves. Promulgate new corporate charters into organisational bureaucratic regulations via direct democracy. Or something.

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A fun and silly video:

https://youtu.be/-pr-WUa8eEs?si=1BcZDYqQ8ULir_zz

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Fancy expensive version:

https://elitetinyhomes.co.nz/fantail-tiny-home/

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Less expensive, but still nice version:

Tinyhome hq

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32 containers. 24 in the middle, and some outriggers. Park 4 tiny homes around the outsides. Maybe it works. It’s just an idea. I’d try one of the proof of concepts first. Like just putting a cabin on top of the stack, just once. But whatever works, works. It’ll be an evolving, developing thing. This one above might be the expensive one, for wealthy people. But something like the plateau could be good for less wealthy people, or students. Just build the platform, and then students put up tents/shacks.

I think people would just have to start experimenting. It it were me, I’d just build something like the one just above (sorry it is messy, back hurts). And just put a tent on top. And some planks and boards to walk and sit on.

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Idea:

Idk, maybe start a corporation that provides houses to those who need refuge and privacy. Privacy refugees. Because this whole thing, and the lack of privacy is soul destroying.

They build houses and dwellings, and then sell them in an affordable manner. But they also provide technological support and communications technology to those who need them. As well as web hosting. It is construction, and file hosting, and tech. Three areas. Where does revenue come from? People sponsor the construction of new homes. A home is a shelter, it provides refuge from the chaos outside of it. It shields you, and keeps your life private, away from prying eyes.

Give people a place called home. A place of refuge, to shield them from prying eyes. And then provide them with a way to communicate with one another. Help to rebuild and reinvigorate conversation; it is a basic human necessity. Technology can help with that. Including file hosting (audio conversation content).

Uhhh. They can live there, and not be an activist.

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Develop these new methods of construction as a decentralised collaborative skunksworks. Sooner or later you will find something that works very well. Try using the “Edisonian approach”, based on trial and error, and experimentation.

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Sex on the Sabbath

A man wonders if having sex on the Sabbath is a sin because he is not sure if sex is work or pleasure. So he goes to a priest and asks for his opinion on this question.

After consulting the Bible, the priest says, "My son, after an exhaustive search, I am positive that sex is work and is therefore not permitted on Sundays".

The man thinks: "What does a priest know about sex"? So he goes to a Lutheran minister, who after all is a married man and experienced in this matter.

He queries the minister and receives the same reply: "Sex is work and therefore not for the Sabbath"!

Not pleased with the reply, he seeks out a Rabbi, a man of thousands of years tradition and knowledge.

The Rabbi ponders the question, then states, "My son, sex is definitely pleasure".

The man replies, "Rabbi, how can you be so sure when so many others tell me sex is work"?

The Rabbi softly speaks, "My son, if sex was work, my wife would have the maid do it".

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Rabbi Jokes are great:

A man goes to see the Rabbi.

“Rabbi, something terrible is happening and I have to talk to you about it.”

The Rabbi asked, “What's wrong?”

The man replied, “My wife is poisoning me.”

The Rabbi, very surprised by this, asks, “How can that be?”

The man then pleads, “I'm telling you, I'm certain she's poisoning me, what should I do?”

The Rabbi then offers, “Tell you what. Let me talk to her, I'll see what I can find out and I'll let you know.”

A week later, the Rabbi calls the man and says, “Well, I spoke to your wife. I spoke to her on the phone for three hours. You want my advice?”

The man said YES and the Rabbi replied, “Take the poison.”

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Catholic Priest and a Rabbi were walking down the street

A Catholic Priest and a Rabbi were out for a walk when they see a kid across the street.

Priest: Hey, let’s go screw that kid.

Rabbi: Out of what?

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Radio Armenia Jokes

Q: Is there a difference between capitalism and communism?

A: In principle, yes. In capitalism, man exploits man. In communism, it's the reverse.

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Q: Is it true that there is freedom of speech in the Soviet Union the same as there is the USA?

A: In principle, yes. In the USA, you can stand in front of the Washington Monument in Washington, DC, and yell, "Down with Reagan!", and you will not be punished. In the Soviet Union, you can stand in the Red Square in Moscow and yell, "Down with Reagan!", and you will not be punished.

Q: Is it true that the poet Vladimir Mayakovsky committed suicide?

A: Yes, it is true, and even the record of his very last words is preserved: "Don't shoot, comrades."

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This is Armenian Radio; our listeners asked us: “When the final phase of socialism, namely communism, is built, will there still be thefts and pilfering?”

We’re answering: “No, because everything will be already pilfered during socialism.”

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This is Armenian Radio; our listeners asked us: “What is the most permanent feature of our socialist economy?”

We’re answering: “Temporary shortages.”

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This is Armenian Radio; our listeners asked us: “Why is our government not in a hurry to land our men on the moon?”

We’re answering: “What if they refuse to return?”

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https://www.johndclare.net/Russ12_Jokes.htm

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Fun:

Terry Pratchett, thief of time, lu tze, rule one:

https://wiki.lspace.org/Rule_One

https://existentialcomics.com/comic/596

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Brain storming:

Ban non-monogamy

Anti-Money Laundering and Countering Financing of Terrorism Act 2009

Inspired by anti terrorism funding laws.

Sometimes the best way to fight something is to de-fund it. And if you can defund one type of terrorism, why not defund another kind of terrorism?

Maybe ban non-monogamy.

The law is that only monogamy is legal.

How to prosecute: if you break up with someone, you have to wait two weeks to find someone new.

If you have sex with two people, sex of any kind, within two weeks of one another, then it’s a criminal offence, and you go to jail for 3-6 months. And the people who dobbed you in receive $5000 dob in fee. It defunds the fae-druj (aka, the philosopher-kings, the “foundation”, the “elves” or the “faeries”). Sex is their currency. Their means of control. Bad men use women as currency and bargaining chips. It is exploitative of women, and helps to retain power for bad men.

You have to have monogamous relationships. Preferably lasting more than 3-6 months at a time. It’s really simple. 

It also scoops up things like affairs, mistresses, wife swaps. And all sorts of other things. It could be very effective. It defunds a lot of bad people, and destroys the “life-cycle” of the fae-druj. They just can’t do what they do in your country. It basically states that the criminal codes will be used to render the funding system of their political system non-viable. Or their pseudo-religious system non-viable. It renders their sociology non-viable.

[secondary idea: Maybe add a law stating that every time you have sex with someone new, you are required to make notes (date, name, location) in a notebook that you keep for seven years afterwards (just like tax records). And failure to keep notes is also a criminal offence, punishable by significant fines. This makes policing the first law easier. It is a policing issue.]

Also, make private prosecutions legal and an option. That is, a private person can function instead of the police prosecutors. Because sometimes police prosecutors are slack.

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Direct democracy pleb politics

Get rid of defamation laws, and ban non-monogamy.

Make it legal for elected school boards to sack teachers at will, no severance pay. Personnel is policy after all.

Ban and black list anyone with a psychology major from working at the health ministry, or education ministry, or social development ministry. “Applied psychology” is their religion after all.

Change laws so that any three year degree (including polytechnic) is acceptable for being a school teacher. This expands the potential pool of people willing and able to be teachers. Teachers are not proper professionals. Remove barriers to entry, so as to increase competition for teachers, thus forcing the ideological weirdos out.

Remove the requirement for having a degree to become a civil servant, or teaching early childhood education.

Defund the publicly funded teachers colleges. Or at least defund the courses in early childhood education. There is no such thing as early childhood education. It’s pure ideology. Maybe greatly reduce scholarships for people who want to get qualifications in “education”. People do a year long diploma in how to teach. It ought to be an intensive 10 week course. As well as with a short term placement to get practical experience, of course. Also, ban people from becoming school teachers before the age of 27.

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What if we brought the seven deadly sins back?

Pride.

Greed.

Lust.

Envy.

Gluttony.

Wrath.

Sloth.

Vanity (both male and female)

Gourmandising (fetishising health foods is gourmandising. In many cases, it is also just anorexia, orthorexia or a different eating disorder with extra steps. Like all of that “healthy eating” ‘food porn’). The over complication of food and eating is a deliberate psyops campaign dating back a very long time.

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Humility

Simplicity

Chastity

Contentment

Modesty

Peaceableness

Thrift and industriousness

Humility and self-forgetfulness.

Simplicity, and being uncomplicated

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1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

Just a hypothetical? But do it in a non-silly way?

And combine it with ideas from the poet Zoroaster? About hatred of falsehood, and dislike and mistrust of those whose hearts are full of falsehood, and mistrust of and pity for those whose keen intellect (and capacity for clarity of thought) has been strangled by their love of falsehood. Seriously, you can just read the Gathas, or whatever.

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You could read “the shoddy lands” by cs Lewis, it is a good short story, about vanity. The other stories in the collection are good too.

https://godinprints.org/books/2/the-dark-tower-and-other-stories-by-c.-s.-lewis#google_vignette

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Change in topic:

See also:

https://thebiblefornormalpeople.com/but-its-for-your-own-good-c-s-lewis-on-tyranny/

Quote:

My contention is that good men (not bad men) consistently acting upon that position [imposing “the good”] would act as cruelly and unjustly as the greatest tyrants. They might in some respects act even worse. Of all tyrannies, a tyranny sincerely exercised for the good of its victims may be the most oppressive. It would be better to live under of robber barons than under omnipotent moral busybodies. The robber barons cruelty may sometimes sleep, his cupidity may at some points be satiated; but those who torment us for their own good will torment us without end for they do so with the approval of their own conscience. They may be more likely to go to heaven yet at the same time likely to make a Hell of earth. This very kindness stings with intolerable insult. To be “cured” against one’s will and cured of states which we may not regard as disease is to be put on the level of those who have not yet reached the age of reason or those who never will; to be classed with infants, imbeciles, and domestic animals. -cs Lewis

There is actually something in one of CS Lewis essays about space travel, and the kind of sociopaths that might oppress humanity until they could conquer space.. but I cannot find it. It might be in one of these:

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0802808689/ref=as_li_qf_sp_asin_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=9325&creativeASIN=0802808689&linkCode=as2&tag=inspirandinca-20

The Oxford set of which he was one, he was a contemporary of Huxley, and the mirror counterpart (if that makes sense), desperately wanted to be in space. To control humanity.

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You can read stuff like the space trilogy, and abolition of man. And that hideous strength. And a lot of Lewis give a way a lot of stuff.

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https://wiki.lspace.org/Mavolio_Bent

"You think the ringmaster runs the circus, do you? Only by the consent of the clowns, Mr Lipwig! Only by the consent of the clowns!"

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This is a work in progress.

Just a quick explainer:

I've been sick since I was 18 years old (December 2006/January was 2007). And my whole life has been characterised by that. On an "emotional level", it felt to me like my whole life was sort of over in early 2007. Or since 2007. I got sick, and never recovered. I was sick from 2007-2016 [that is 18-28] (and an invalid as well as being sick from 2010-2016). And then totally crippled/disabled from 2016-2022 (age 28-34).

I had symptoms starting from dec/jan:2006/2007. They included "chronic fatigue", severe digestive issues, back problems that got worse and worse. Sleep disturbance. An inability to exercise (partly due to fatigue, but also due to the back problems).

And my whole like has been all about the health issues. I had tons of symptoms all the time. I was sick! And ever since the age of 18, I've been sick. An overseas trip with mum was the start of it. It took me down _hard_.

And it has felt like my life has been over since then. And my mother pretended I was just being silly, and my health was actually okay. And my father pretended that my health issues were all in my head. Ie, psychosomatic. And Amanda was the only one who believed that I had health issues. The label cfs sucks though. You just need to meet certain requirement in terms of symptoms. But they never discuss the underlying causes. Which in my cases were caused by constant attacks by electronic weapons.

Other symptoms included night sweats, and cold sweats in the day. Mind fog, mind blanks. Hot flashes, back pain. Inability to stretch, caused by long term iliopsoas and latisimua dorsi tightening etc. inability to control body temperature. Random manipulation of hunger mechanisms. Horrible damage, on purpose to digestive capacity (my dad decided at age nine to ruin by digestion).

I'll come back to this later:

Conclusion: my life felt like it has been over since the age of about 18, because I've been very sick for years. And that's also why I can't or couldn't do many of the things I wanted most to do. Ie, I couldn't engage in physical pursuits, or martial arts, or sports. And also I couldn't enjoy my favourite hobby of video gaming, and I even lost the ability to read, study, enjoy cards with my friends or play board games (not to self: explain that I used to try to play board games with friends after church, but that the back electronic attack used to make it horrible! They tightened my back/torso up (lats and iliopsoas) so badly that I couldn't even enjoy playing board games like settlers of Catan)

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I like books, cats, video games, and being left alone.

I need friends more than “girlfriends” 

And conversation too. I need normal conversation more than I need “female company”.

And I like privacy.

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A brief digression on the word fuck:

I asked them at one point for advice about their culture, as though I was an anthropologist from another planet, crash landed here. As part of their education of me, they told me that in was required to use the word "fuck" when I wanted to describe what I wanted to do to them, or with them. As opposed to saying "sleep with". It was a requirement.

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By the way, Tom Bombadil is my favourite lord of the rings character, which makes a difference if you’re into Tolkein. Second favourite is Treebeard.

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https://www.instagram.com/reel/DQXH0O6j6vX/?igsh=Z2c0aWJ6YXE1a2E=

I think i just fell in love ^

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I am the punishment of God...If you had not committed great sins, God would not have sent a punishment like me upon you.

Genghis Khan

This is an epic quote^

It isn’t related to anything. It’s just epic.

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A fun character, but I am not him:

https://discworld.fandom.com/wiki/71-Hour_Ahmed

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Who do I prefer?

https://discworld.fandom.com/wiki/Susan_Sto_Helit

Not her either.

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“Gravity” to compress Grandpa’s torso and back, pulling him out of shape.

“Gravity” was horrible for me.

They crunched down my torso and back. They really did. It was no good. 

And they did it to Grandpa!!! They crunched Grandpa’s torso?! They did gravity to him!!! I’ll explain it better later.

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I tried basically everything I could to regain my health. I even did random stuff like chair yoga. Yes, at around the age of 25/26 I tried chair yoga! Like the thing that old people do. I also tried tai chi from a DVD. Please bear in mind that I was able to walk for about 45-60 minutes a day at the time. But I couldn’t do chair yoga. Seriously, I couldn’t do chair yoga. Not without it causing me issues. Also, I struggled with things like walking up and down normal inclines and declines outside, like just while walking suburbs. My body just didn’t always manage those things well?

I also struggled with washing my hair. Even before the thing that happened in 28. For example, I had to limit the time I spent scrubbing my hair. I’d end up feeling unwell. I had massive back problems. Scrubbing my hair would cause back issues. I sometimes could only manage 3-4 swipes of my hair. And a quickly 1-2 scrubs to rinse. And I didn’t understand why it was such an issue! It was shoulder mobility related to my core muscle issues, or something. I had to reduce my regular showers to once weekly. Sometimes less frequently. In fact, I reduced showers to once every three days as far back as about 23.

I was really unwell. Mostly due to “gravity”. That is, the eerie stuff that they did via my own muscles.

And I tried a lot of physio around the age of 20-24. Without any improvement. It’s a crazy situation.

I’m just trying to report on what things were like. However imperfectly. Very imperfectly. But yes, I did lame stuff like chair yoga to try to regain health.

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Back of the envelope, as a illustration to the conversation were are having 

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Where does power truly reside?

"Consent of the clowns" is a memorable quote from Terry Pratchett's Discworld series, meaning that even powerful figures (like a ringmaster) only rule or succeed with the implicit agreement and cooperation of those seemingly insignificant or chaotic (the clowns). 

It highlights that true power often rests with the collective or the unexpected, and that even within a structure, the 'funny' people hold sway. 

Origin: From Terry Pratchett's Going Postal, spoken by Moist von Lipwig, as noted by Chris Jones Writing.

Meaning: It's a metaphor for how the "little guy," the absurd, or the common person ultimately dictates the success or failure of powerful systems, notes.

Context: In the book, it explains how the post office's success relied on the goodwill (or lack of obstruction) of everyday people and unlikely allies, not just the top brass.

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Actual quote:

The famous Terry Pratchett quote about the consent of clowns comes from Making Money, spoken by Moist von Lipwig (and Maviolo Bent): "You think the ringmaster runs the circus, do you? Only by the consent of the clowns! Only by the consent of the clowns!". 

It's a profound statement on power dynamics, suggesting that even those seemingly in charge (ringmasters) only hold sway with the quiet agreement or tolerance of the 'performers' (clowns) who could disrupt everything. 

I really liked making money, going postal, the truth, soul music, the hogfather, their of time, and thud. They’re all a lot of fun. There are 41 ish in the series. They were kind of part of the background fabric of my life. But they’re just fun. Comedy, yeah, they have some schmaltzy moments (philosophy, values, morality). But it’s mostly about the comedy and the clever social commentary. He does good puns, and good references and call backs to western pop culture and high culture (I dunno, Dirty Harry in one book, Greek philosophers in the next, the Catholics church after that, Conan tropes and lotr tropes, that sort of thing). It’s parody/satire/reference humour! And puns! It’s reference humour and puns.

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Wedding:

There are more photos on my other website, and on my two photos page in this one. You have to scroll a bit on this website.

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Farley and being suicided

Lyrics from red hot chilli peppers

Chris Farley (SNL and one of my favourite childhood movies, Beverly Hills Ninja) died mysteriously at the age of 33 by means of an overdose. I suspect that it was murder. I liked him.

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This is a totally unhinged and half written comment from an exhausted caffeine addict:

Sarah and hell hath no fury like a woman scorned

[I didn't think that Sarah (my fae-lawyer) had much sex appeal. This will make me sound insane: back when I was young, I had long convoluted day dreams where I felt that even if we were both Christian, and had committed to life long monogamy, fidelity and marriage, that I would lose interest in her, and have to apologise to her for lack of interest. I.e. I would have to say that even if we were married, and I had no one else, and no other options, and you were available to me, I wouldn't be bothered to sleep with you by the age of 23/24. I'd lose interest. And I would imagine how to have the compassionate, kindhearted, sensitive Christian conversation to let her down gently. Yes, I know it's weird, but I didn't know anyone was watching!!! A winsome conversation!! How to break it to a Christian spouse that you loved her, but just were no longer physically attracted to her! Sarah: hell hath no fury like that of a woman scorned. She is actually my fae lawyer. Note: after being married to Amanda, I used to think to myself, what if I had married someone better? For example, Sarah was one of the better girls in school (smarter at least). It is a very, very silly comment! Ummm. I actually don’t think that she’s that bad in terms of looks??!?! However, sometimes my day dreams are kind of random!!]

Uhhh. And these spoken are trying to “prove” that I don’t want anything. Well… my “lawyer” has the opinion that I don’t want anything in life, because I don’t “want” her. I.e. hell hath no fury like that of a woman scorned…

I used to do a lot of historical counterfactuals about my life, including what if I had married someone else.

I had these day dreams at the age of 22/23. Or younger. Which means she has had 15+ years to stew over it. And therefore all of her decisions are probably unfair.

It is all about my private, ancient day dreams, and her reaction to them.

I’ll write this up better later.

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The English Romantics, and Romanticism in General

I don't like the English romantics. And Wordsworth kind of sucks. So does Percy Bysshe Shelley. I think that people over value romantic love, and undervalue basic duty according to appropriate and pre-agreed values and standards. Duty is undervalued. As is honouring vows and promises (within reason). Also, I don’t like Jane Austen. She is a legitimately bad writer. Her writing is bad, and so are her ideas.

The romantic movement is not a “given”. Some people say “love is love”. Or ask, “what is love”. I say, I think romantic love is over valued.

I also would rather talk about attachment, fondness, sexual infatuation. And even then still say that it is over valued. Or maybe, call it “charity”. Or say, a better form of love (non-romantic) is to serve the interests of the other as though they were as valuable as you. Or something.

Maybe it is about kindness, compassion, and caring about the other person. You value them, and care for them, and do what you can to serve their interests. You defer to them. But maybe the cultural norms dictated by the traditions of “romantic love” are not your guiding light. Patience is also a good idea. Now… which of these values should be for friendship, which for male-female relations, and which for family… sometimes I’m not sure.

The "Romantics" pushed things like emotion, individual feeling, and love. As well as fetishising nature and putting it on a pedestal. Note: for those of you who don't know, there once was a time when nature was considered to be scary, wicked, nasty and horrible. Like, it was the "wilderness" and it was seen as nasty and dangerous (slight exaggeration). Full of bandits, wolves and many terrors. Nature hasn't always been an idol or on a pedestal in the west, England, Christendom or the Anglosphere.

I do think you should care about people in your life. Not that I have anyone to care about!!

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Tobin tax for sexual relationships. lol.

Slow down the circulation of “currency”.

One relationship at a time, mandatory 7 day cool down after you break up. It’s just about slowing down circulation. If there’s seven days between relationships, it’s okay. It’s an economists solution. But socially, you just say you’re supposed to have only one partner, keep her for at least three months, if not years. When you break up, you are heartbroken and grieve (or whatever). You take some time to feel normal again, before hopping into something new. And when you hop into something new. You’re supposed to date for a while before you start sleeping together.

Maybe add a second rule of a three date minimum, as a second type of robin tax. Even if the three dates are just a cup of tea at your house or theirs (that’s an edge case, or argument from extremes) over the course of three days. The three dates should probably be something like coffee, lunch and then a walk on the waterfront. But whatever.

It’s a “Tobin tax”, not a morality law. And it de-funds the corporate hegemony (which itself is maintained by terrorism, torture, totalitarianism, and the granting of a monopoly to universities for the creation and maintenance of both our intellectual landscape and “fabric of reality”).

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https://youtube.com/shorts/1llT7j3gkfo?si=P4KRk53LD9u8LOLH

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Sailing Dinghy

Something like a 12-16ft Sailing Dinghy.

I maybe want one of these some day.

https://www.trademe.co.nz/a/motors/boats-marine/dinghies-rowboats/fibreglass/listing/5651617958

Or maybe a nicer 12-16ft sailing dinghy. I’ve wanted one ever since I read the Arthur Ransome books as a child. I tried sailing once when I lived in Taupo, as a child. But maybe I can buy one (or rent regularly something similar). I don’t need anything from the dregvant (aka the philosopher-kings) to make it happen, other than my health.

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FWIW, I knew I was a genius from a very young age.

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When I say “direct democracy goes brrr” this is the meme I am referring to. It means they just do it, because they just chose to. Lol.

The New Zealand direct democracy movement^

We get petition initiated mail ballots for introducing new laws. And create a tradition of direct democracy. Look at places like Switzerland and the USA for more ideas. The steps: write up a proposed law, get at least  5 percent of the population to sign the petition, hand the petition to parliament, they count the petition signatures, it gets handed to the high court, to check it for clarity, and then they hand it to the electoral commission to be out to a mail out referendum. The mail referendum is sent out to the people. And people are expected to do the reading online, and say “yes” or “no” to the mail ballot. The results are counted by the electoral commission. If they get 60% yes, then it has handed to the governor general. Who sings it into law. And then we the governed, can legislate from the sidelines.

That is what I mean by “plebian politics”.

Here are a few examples:

Reverse the anti-smacking legislation

Loosen up defamation laws (they mostly protect bad people) by creating a new type of publication (paper or electronic) who doesn’t have to adhere to defamation rules. You can say anything, including making reviews websites for bad character rules. You can say anything you want without fear of being sued.

Three date minimum before you can sleep with someone

Ban the custom of having multiple partners (somehow)

Allow school boards to have the right to make no fault, at will dismissals of teachers

Allow normal member of the public to be elected to school boards

Ban co-ed schools

Nationalise cell towers by eminent domain

Ban the sale of spectrum to any private company who has satellites in the

nationalise one nz, spark and 2 degrees

Nationalise forty south and connexa

Ban TikTok, and YouTube shorts

Ban the further construction of new open plan classrooms

Ban unpopular health class curriculums

Mandate the use of a specific privately designed health class curriculum

Allow state funding for private Islamic schools in nz (iirc, they weren’t funded)

Tax Coca Cola and soft drink at the point of sale

Ban the use of excise taxes on “manufactured cigarettes”. Total ban.

Ban “slim bare female legs on music videos when the women are wearing garments including but not limited to briefs, short shorts or skirts”, also ban bikinis and male abs on broadcast TV. And “unrealistically skinny dancing women in music videos”. We can’t easily ban unrealistic depictions of men and women in media in general. So just do a clumsy ban of 4 things. It will tear through and damage a lot of media. But that’s a feature, not a bug.

Ban the sub-leasing of spectrum by nz companies to overseas companies

Ban the electromagnetic spectrum abuse of citizens by government in the bill of rights

How do you get it? I dunno. Maybe someone starts the direct democratic party in NZ. And we use direct democracy as a check/balance against government overreach. And as an error correction mechanism.

We could also have used it to ban Kiwi troops or engineers in places like Afghanistan or Iraq. Hypothetically speaking. Or to legislate in favour of temporary refugees from wars, as opposed to the UN rules about them settling here for life.

How about doing reorganisations of corporate structures of government agencies. Our whole society is actually just government agencies run as though they are corporations, stacked full of bureaucrats who went to university. That, and big companies and businesses. It’s just uber corporate. Why not make every board seat in the TEC (tertiary education commission, where Amanda Ward works), NZQA, TVNZ and RNZ, an electable seat. And a newly spun out charities’ commission. We just VOTE on who we want to be in those “corporate governance” roles. From among members of the NZ general public. Maybe every two years we get a mail ballot and a booklet letting us know who wants to get elected to those boards, and what sort of ideas/ideologies they have. Like, what manifestos they have. Just another idea. Our whole society is standardised on corporations and university educated people. So that is a weak point, if you’re interested in weak points. Ps: the universities want something like a monopoly on creating and filtering out a certain type of “human capital”, and also on a certain type of thought/thinking. Why not just break the “monopoly”? If you’re interested, you might see the works of CS Lewis, GK Chesterton, and Huxley. They discussed a lot of these ideas indirectly, or dropped hints. But some of it requires a bit of context.

Read “the dark tower” by C.S. Lewis. [He was a fake Christian and a Judas goat, and that story was released after his death.] The dark tower wants a monopoly in thought, and the creation of thinkers, and who is allowed to hold certain roles in society. And they also want an _effective_ monopoly by means of dumbing everyone else down, other than the main uber-intellectuals. They want to dumb you down.

Stuff like that.

Edit: Also put 1-2 normal kiwis onto the board of RFNZ by mail ballot.

Edit 2: take a closer look at funding and supporting hydrogen power research. That might be a good way of breaking the hold of the petrochemical industry. As well as the abolition of patent law (oil refineries and related industries have a ton of IP and proprietary technology associated). Here is an article, I didn’t read it, but it’s important https://thespinoff.co.nz/politics/21-03-2019/the-potential-for-green-hydrogen. The Helen Clark foundation (a think tank) wrote a paper on it.

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Or maybe get the faraday shelter movement going, circles and courtyards? And then with shelter, create and international direct democratic movement going. But that’s just an ideal. Personally, I’d just really like shelter and/or privacy, so I can have a better life. Normal conversations, normal friendships. That sort of thing. Peace and quiet. Contentment?

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Nonsense-ist

A nonsense-ist will pad out their good ideas and theories with nonsense, so that it flies beneath the radar. They will also shield their mind with nonsense and silliness to avoid argument. And to protect their mind. They also will just select things to do or say by making choices based on observation and personal judgement, after analysis. That is, they’ll just do any old nonsense. They’ll think first, and then just do it.

There isn’t any such thing as nonsense-ist philosophy, or a practitioner of nonsense-ist philosophy.

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Also, I don’t like Bentham.

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Legalise Defamation in a limited sense

Exempt information published in a (registered) gossip publication/magazine/website/application from any and all legal liability associated with defamation. That is, if you publish something that is hard to prove in a (registered) gossip magazine, website or application than isn't probable in court, or might only be half true, that you can't be sued for defamation. And then allow the registration of magazines, publications, websites and applications as "gossip" publications/websites.

This lets you start up character review websites, character review magazines, character review iPhone apps and android apps that let you review and excoriate bad people, without fear of being sued. Also, you can just publish whatever you want in magazines.

It's just an idea. Just two ideas. Either could be implemented in a place with direct democracy. It’s just an example of one of my brainstorming techniques.

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Another idea: use faraday courtyards cabin/sheds as newspaper printing and distribution centres. Create newspapers in one (shielded) location, and then distribute them from faraday courtyard cabin/sheds all over the place. They’re networked online, so you can transfer encrypted electronic copies of the newspaper all across the nation (world) to be printed locally. Maybe it is a news paper promoting direct democratic policies.

Third idea.

Because people sometimes think I don’t have good ideas.

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Proverbs Chapter 1

I like Proverbs Chapter One

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Proverbs%201&version=NIV

What if we had the proverbs 1 collective, where people pledge to not engage in the laying of traps and snares “for the feet of the innocent”, to shed innocent blood?

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Tobin Tax

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tobin_tax#:~:text=A%20Tobin%20tax%20was%20originally,trip%20excursions%20into%20another%20currency.

A Tobin Tax for relationships. You have to have 7 dates before you are allowed to have sex. Genuine actual dates, with receipts (or photos). It ruins casual sex and a significant part of dregvant lifestyle and funding stream (sex is their currency, or one of them). 

This is just an idea.

Someone asked.

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Tobin Tax

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tobin_tax#:~:text=A%20Tobin%20tax%20was%20originally,trip%20excursions%20into%20another%20currency.

A Tobin Tax for relationships. You have to have 7 dates before you are allowed to have sex. Genuine actual dates, with receipts (or photos). It ruins casual sex and a significant part of dregvant lifestyle and funding stream (sex is their currency, or one of them). 

This is just an idea.

Someone asked.

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For example, it ought to disrupt the lifestyles of university professors and other academics.

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Newspapers: printed and distributed from under cover

Another idea: use faraday courtyards cabin/sheds as newspaper printing and distribution centres. Create newspapers in one (shielded) location, and then distribute them from faraday courtyard cabin/sheds all over the place. They’re networked online, so you can transfer encrypted electronic copies of the newspaper all across the nation (world) to be printed locally. Maybe it is a news paper promoting direct democratic policies.

Or they create drop in centres with a large stock of pamphlets and booklets. And a free cup of tea. That is, they download the pdf for the pamphlets online, print the pamphlets out locally, and distribute them to anyone who visits.

More ideas for faraday shelter technology can be found on the page "second ideas page" aka the skunkworks. The most recent idea "faraday courtyard" is at the bottom of the page.

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Partial Legalisation of Defamation (aka libel) 

Tldr; get rid of libel and defamation laws. They mostly protect bad people. 

This is how: Exempt information published in a (registered) gossip publication/magazine/website/application from any and all legal liability associated with defamation. That is, if you publish something that is hard to prove in a (registered) gossip magazine, website or application than isn't probable in court, or might only be half true, that you can't be sued for defamation. And then allow the registration of magazines, publications, websites and applications as "gossip" publications/websites.

This lets you start up character review websites, character review magazines, character review iPhone apps and android apps that let you review and excoriate bad people, without fear of being sued. Also, you can just publish whatever you want in magazines.

It's just an idea. Just two ideas. Either could be implemented in a place with direct democracy. It’s just an example of one of my brainstorming techniques.

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Proverbs Chapter 1

I like Proverbs Chapter One

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Proverbs%201&version=NIV

What if we had the proverbs 1 collective, where people pledge to not engage in the laying of traps and snares “for the feet of the innocent”, to shed innocent blood?

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Scroll up just a tiny bit for the relationship tobin tax.

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Dumbing us down

Dumbing us down. They’re dumbing us down (“the system” of academic and corporate hegemony, and intelligence agencies, or whatever). I don’t like it. It’s not all about defining what’s happening perfectly. But if we could have places of peace and quiet. And time and space to think. And an appropriate context within which to have normal conversations. And time and space to read a bit. And swap reading materials (that fit in with the conversations we’re having).

A lot of it has to do with bullying young women. Especially school aged young women.

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Good books to look at might be:

William C. Kirby and Empires of Ideas: Creating the Modern University from Germany to America to China

Book by William C. Kirby

And maybe 2-3 books by and about Drucker.

And maybe a few books about the history of universities themselves. And a decent "thwack" of understanding about Christianity and what I might call "Bible Studies". And the history of Christianity.

Lastly, if you want a “blast from the past” check out CS Lewis, Huxley, and Chesterton (Napoleon of Notting Hill).

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Janet Turnbull, NZOM, dhb

She has provided specialist education in palliative care in neurodegenerative disease, and provides support to the Mary Potter Hospice Community..

Please note: these people (the nz set, or nz clique) wanted to smear me as having a psychiatric issue that caused my health issues. Like a “mood disorder” and they also wanted to try to mis-categorise it as being “de-conditioning”. Janet Turnbull was part of sanitising and laying about the situation. As part of the cover up. 

Don’t forget, that they used “gravity” on my grandfather as well (for ages) and ended up crippling and killing him. Paul straight up murdered the guy. He ended up crippled first though. He also got crippled in a manner similar to me. His shoulders got pulled up and out to the sides (shoulders went up, and went wide). And his torso sagged down (his rib cage pulled towards the ground), and just torso slumped into his hips, and he couldn’t walk properly.And also suffered an anal prolapse. And severe eye pain in one of his eyes (the other one was a glass eye). I also have suffered excruciating and debilitating eye pain at points, of the same kind.

These people wanted to cover up the years of harm, and they wanted to cover up the criminal act of IVF fraud. And also the DIA broke the law to cover it up.

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And Amanda also broke the law in getting the protection order and using the police to cover up her crimes.

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FWIW, 

Basic conversation

Being nice

Avoiding violence and coercion

Are often a good start with me.

Also, if I’m on good terms with someone, if they want something, they can probably just ask for it. That is, if they ask me nicely, I can give them what they want? I’m nice/kind to people. That is, if someone “asks me nicely” I might just give them what they want just because the “asked me nicely”.

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Quake and how it revolutionised gaming:

https://youtube.com/shorts/b_CD2MCSenI?si=ntRC4yktTuraQR6t

Especially physics and bunny hopping.

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Child Sex Offending

My father just got arrested for child molestation. He is currently in Rimutaka Prison. He was previously arrested 18 months ago, and has been out on bail since. He has been found in breach of his bail conditions twice, once for being around children at the local swimming pools and once for coaching a young girl in table tennis (he is not supposed to be in certain places, or coach young girls in table tennis). There is a bail hearing on the 13th of January. He will be in prison until then. The actual trial is in September.

The alleged offending occurred while he was alone with young girls (aged 8-12) who he was coaching in table tennis. The alleged offending happened over the course of the previous five years.

Multiple allegations and statements have been made.

He is/was a certified, registered ITTF coach (international table tennis federation). He focuses on coaching young girls.

He was touching young girls in all the wrong places (including private parts, below the waist, etc) while he was taking them on table tennis trips out of town.

I think that the girls were between 8 and 12 years old and there have been multiple incidents and multiple girls. It has been confirmed by a family member that there were multiple girls and multiple incidents, and that they were eleven years old.

Many of the girls he coaches in table tennis are Chinese.

The police searched his house with a search warrant the other day and found certain items. Possibly planted, possibly not.

People on "wifi" (the thing where satellites and cell towers speak directly to your mind) tell me that he actually is guilty of certain things. They tell me that he did the things that he is accused of.

It is thought that he could face many years in jail. My uncle David suggested that he could potentially do up to 10-20 years if convicted. Both of his sisters think that he is guilty. That is, he did it.

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Former president and coach at Wellington table tennis

Former vice president at table tennis New Zealand

Formerly head table tennis coach in Wellington

Owner of TT Sports, a table tennis equipment retailer that sells table tennis bats, rubber, tables, balls and table tennis robots (yes, robots).

Former youth pastor at Karori Baptist Church

Former youth pastor at Taupo Baptist Church

Trained youth minister

Former youth development coordinator at Kapiti District Council

Current Owner and manager of Kingdom Music, a Christian musical instrument retailer. It used to be a chain of musical instrument retailers. He won business of the year in Taupo multiple times for his music shops.

Founding member and Former chairman of the board at lake Taupo Christian School. It is a state integrated private Christian school that uses the ACE system.

He took the women's team to the world table tennis championship in Zagreb as an ITTF certified coach. He went as an assistant coach, flights and accomodation paid for.

His son Matthew manages (or managed) the table tennis rankings for TTNZ. As a job, for money. And briefly worked for the ITTF on their rankings databases. He even got things like all expenses paid trips around the world.

He has been a major player in coaching in women’s and girls' table tennis, with a strong emphasis on coaching young female players.

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China has embraced the seven deadly sins, as part of their core values (just replace wrath with simmering resentment, self pity and the desire for revenge).

pride

greed

wrath

envy (covetousness)

lust

gluttony (yes, in the broader sense)

sloth (yes and no; in some ways. Were they slothful in the war between the nationalists and the CCP? I think so, yes.)

Other core values include dishonesty and a total lack of integrity. And also they never embraced forgiveness or turning the other cheek as a core value.

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Unrelated to China:

Also, an obsession with “gourmet” food is a form of gluttony. As well as gluttony proper. And fussing over having traditional food is just pride and vanity.

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More information

Here is some more information from me, that I want to let people know about. And probably need to tell the police about.

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I also need to let people know that he groped a twelve year old girl at our form two school camp. It was the school camp for Taradale Intermediate, a fairly good state/public school in a nice area. It wasn’t the private Christian school. I was there, and saw it with my own eyes. There was a complaint made, but nothing came of it. It was hushed up. Kids at school afterwards referred to him as a pedophile. No one from the school administration asked me about it. I didn’t even know that a complaint had been made. I’d have told them that it happened, and that it happened, and was done on purpose.

I think that this sort of thing is indicative of bad character. Furthermore, there is a clear pattern of bad behaviour.

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Also, there was the issue with Tomoe Takahashi.

At around about the same time, we had a young female Japanese student come to live with us. Her name was Tomoe Takahashi. She was 16 years old and came to New Zealand to do her sixth form year in high school here, and to improve her English and learn about our culture. For us, the sixth form year is the second to last year of high school. And it was her second to last year as well.

My father groomed her while she was with us.

He also took her to table tennis tournaments out of town, alone, without my mother present.

At the end of the school year, she returned home to Japan, to finish high school. After her final year in high school, she came back to New Zealand to study law at Victoria University. She also became Paul’s live-in-girlfriend. They were together for three years before he dumped her.

Looking back, I strongly suspect that they started sleeping together when she was still a high schooler. At the time, I was about 12/13 years old and totally unaware that there was anything between them at all. I only found out that there was anything between them partway through my fifth form year, shortly after I moved halfway across the country to live with my father.

A few years back, my mother told me a few things which led me to believe/feel that Tomoe and Paul had started sleeping together when she had first came to New Zealand. We had a conversation in 2023 in which she said that she had once caught Tomoe Takahashi sitting on his knee. And also that after Tomoe had gone on a Table Tennis tournament with her now ex husband, that “Tomoe wasn’t her daughter anymore”. That is, the relationship changed. Before the trip out of town to play table tennis at a tournament, Tomoe used to split her attention between both of my parents and she would play table tennis with Paul and do arts and crafts with my mother. Relations were warm and relaxed with both of them. After the tournament Tomoe was cold towards my mother, and kind of followed Paul around too much. Was too friendly, and too attached?

People on “wifi” tell me that he started sleeping with Tomoe when she was 17, and still an exchange student.

He was married, he claimed to be a good and moral person. Claimed to be a Christian, and had a Christian public image. Also, when he split with my mother he claimed that he did so because she “had affairs”. My mother played along with this lie.

This relationship with Tomoe Takahashi was highly unethical. He was in a position of power, and in a position of trust and authority. My father and mother were her caregivers (unsure if they were “designated caregivers” under any kind of laws in New Zealand). By the way, she could hardly speak English when she arrived, and was living in a foreign country without her parents.

Furthermore, a man who is willing to do this sort of thing is going to be willing to do other bad things.

He has poor character, and there are clear patterns of bad behaviour.

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Another issue is that he attacked me on the 25th of April 2023. He tried to force the door, and did this as part of trying to cover up the IVF fraud. And made a false statement to the police about the assault. And also made false statements to mental health services (he filed a section 8b, to try to have me committed - a section 8b Mental Health (Compulsory Assessment and Treatment) Act 1992)) about the assault and surrounding situation. He filed this section 8b after the arrest. Making false statements to police is a big deal.

He said at the time of the assault, “you need to start doing what your family want you to do, or you’ll end up in a mental institution”. He also tried to kick down the door, screaming “I hate you so much”. The door itself bent very significantly under the kick. The only thing keeping it secure was a sturdy bolt. A weaker lock might have given way. He also tore open the sliding window, it is large enough to leap through. Struck me on my bad left shoulder (it has had issues since I was about 26), and attempted to grab me as though he might pull me through the window, but failed. I then screamed for help, and he ran away (probably because Ruby was there also). He probably did this because of the IVF thing. I had started asking questions about “why does Lily not look like me”. FYI, Amanda and Brynn had been doctoring photos of Lily, and putting makeup on her.

Above is Paul, Vivian (his wife of 16 years), and their two daughters.

Below are Wendy, Paul, Carol (Nana), Monica and David

^This picture is of Tomoe Takahashi (in her 30s). She is four years older than me. She is a partner in Hogan Lovell, in Tokyo. The is a very highly respected law firm, and she is a successful patent lawyer.

More information here: https://www.legal500.com/firms/2116-hogan-lovells-us-llp/global/lawyers/749944-tomoe-takahashi

I have included this information so that you can verify it for yourself. Her name is Tomoe Takahashi, and she went to Victoria University to study law. And she is now approximately 41. Strangely enough, her family used to live in Burma.

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[Galaxy Quest] Did The Thermians Seriously Never Encounter A Lie Or Acting When Watching Earth TV?

We know that lying is a foreign concept to The Thermians, one that they only experienced when they met Saris and he would tell them one thing and then do the opposite. But with them basing their entire society off of the Galaxy Quest TV series and having a general fascination with Earth TV in general.

But seriously how did they never stumble upon anything that showed Earth people are

Capable of lying

Shows what acting is

Like did they seriously never stumble upon a Gilligan’s Island episode where a character lies through their teeth and is called out on it? Did Galaxy Quest never involve a villain backstabbing the crew or manipulating them? Did they never stumble upon any Earth shows that had a character take part in a play or get involved in a movie or TV show for an episode. Like most TV will at least feature one episode with a lie or acting in it, how did they never either realise this was a thing before meeting Saris or after a while realise the Historical Documents may not have been truthful.

https://getyarn.io/yarn-clip/6c103000-ea3e-48c5-a3ad-03fbe4bab05d

https://youtu.be/-VGajDTNKFU

Galaxy quest is actually a fun movie.

Uhhhhh, I genuinely used to be really, really, really honest. Like absurd, nonsensical levels of honest. Like, I would not and could not make a false statement* and I wouldn’t lie by omission, and I would avoid deception, even if telling literal truths (you know what I mean). And I developed an internal philosophy and psychology about trying to represent things in a fair and appropriate manner, that is both relevant and fairly reliable.

The concept of living a life of constant lies wouldn’t have occurred to me. Like weirdly honest. I don’t know if people can understand.

Galaxy quest is a good movie though. After the age of about 28/29 I quit Christianity, because I found out it was all lies. But all the same, I stayed fairly (extremely) honest.

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I didn’t realise my wife was deliberately cruel when we were first married. I had no clue. She was mean on purpose. I thought we were having good faith conflict, and that she had mental problems (possibly stemming from her being molested as a child, which was a bogus claim by the way which she made at age 15).

I was morally very uncomplicated. I was simpleminded in my believe in the golden rule, and things like not lying, stealing, coveting, murdering, committing adultery, and loving your neighbours yourself. I believed that I was to be loving, kind, patient, and always forgiving. I was deliberately simpleminded(?) in following the rules of Christianity. Just be good to people.

I was hyper committed to the concept of love your neighbour as yourself. And loved verses such as: 1 Corinthians 4-13. And Phillipines, Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

I believed in not even thinking about bad things, that corrupt the soul. I was hyper Christian. I would list these traits, and live by them. And I am well aware that the fae (aka dregvant or philosopher kings) deal with people like this, and that they outnumber you, or at least used to. Even though you pretend to not be aware of people who are Christians or have morals.

Ummm. I actually even (mostly) avoided watching, or even looking at things like sexually suggestive or provocative music videos when I was a Christian. Because I believed in avoiding stuff that leads you astray, and I avoided fantasising about women, who I wasn’t married to. And wouldn’t spend time around women who were sub optimal to spend time with (if you know what I mean?? For example, I chose to exclude Ambika as a friend, because she would legitimately have been a temptation, and “a bad look”, even though in hindsight I could have done with a friend).

I was very honest, and very decent. And I believed in guarding my mind. I was not perfect. But that is the nature of “the Christian walk”. You aim for perfection, and always fail, but you aim for it and just ask forgiveness whenever you fail.

I sometimes thought of going into missions work when I was in high school, but only if I had relevant skills and experience. Stuff like world vision, international justice mission, or mercy ships.

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Discharge without conviction

Wednesday, 18 September 2024 was when I received my discharge without conviction. I was arrested on the 26th of April 2023, the charges were for “psychological abuse” by failing to leave the house when asked to do so while a protection order was in place.

The protection order was awarded to Amanda for “mental abuse”. In her affidavit, she falsely accused me of being mentally unsound and delusional, including regarding things like IVF and parentage. In her application for custody, she made some very clear false statements. And in the whole, the level of dishonesty was such that she basically is guilty of perjury. Because perjury is not just about the actual wording, but the intent and effect.

Note: I might post the discharge without conviction paperwork, as well as the “undertakings” I signed to get rid of the protection order. As well as the paperwork relating to the parenting order etc. There is a lot of paper work!

Until this discharge without conviction was granted, I felt like I was hamstrung in trying to get more information about Lily’s parentage.

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We have women being used as common property. Kind of like the common grazing land etc in English peasant society. Some societies engineer their women to be the “ideal common property”. Useable by all strata, ages, classes, educational levels of society.

And in particular, some societies engineer their women to be uber weak, skinny and flimsy, so that weak, fat, old men can feel like they're in charge of the encounter, rather than the woman having more strength than them. And they engineer _all_ of the women to be like this.

That’s why your society encourages you to be super skinny and weak in a way that is actually stupid. It’s so that the fat old weak men who run the world can feel big and tough and strong, instead of feeling a little bit threatened.

[Also (just as an aside) women’s peers deliver them psychologically pre broken by means of bullying in high school so that they’re ready to be used as common property sex workers. They also break them in by pimping them out to guys for more “sway”.]

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Tobin tax, 2.0

A new idea, just take it as inspiration.

Implemented by direct democracy, that is mail ballot initiative. or whatever they call it in the USA or New Zealand.

The relationship Tobin tax: you need to have seven dates, get receipts and/or photographic evidence, or signed paper evidence of you and her going on a date. And then you must go to the government office with these receipts, and photos, and signed paperwork (both you and her sign an application form) and submit it to the local post shop, or the local winz office, or you do it online. And you submit it along with a registration form signed by you and your prospective girlfriend/boyfriend, and the. You’re registered (they call the other partner first). They scan it into the system, and you get your approval within 72 hours for a relationship. The government agency is the department of relationships within the ministry of social development. It’s really lenient with admin issues and what counts as a “date”. It is just a Tobin tax, after all. A slow down in the “monetary velocity” of the system.

Every relationship registered is publicly available information. That is, everyone can see it online on a database. This is so you know who to dob in for unsanctioned relationships. And so that the police know who to arrest. Also, this database lets people know who the sex pest brigade are, so that they can discriminate against sex pests and polyamorist in things like church membership or employment or friendship. Most importantly, if someone is a skank or a player (and therefore a disease risk in relationships), then you can avoid them. Also, if someone has no personality other than sex (they have 50 registered relationships per year) you might skip befriending them.

Next, if you register more than 12 new relationships in a year, you get put on the high risk individuals list. High risk individuals are required to do a full STI profile four times per year. But you don’t have to submit results to the government. You just have to have the testing facility notify the ministry of health that you have been tested. Including all of the usual suspects, plus a few more. Chlamydia, Gonorrhoea, Trichomoniasis, Syphilis, Hepatitis B, HIV/AIDS, Latent Tuberculosis, HSV (blood test), HPV (the virus that causes warts) that is, swabs in multiple locations for a full range of strains of hpv (mouth, throat, vagina, anus, clitoral hood, underneath the foreskin - test for the DNA of all 100+ strains in the lab). Also, develop a better blood test for HPV related antibodies, and test for that too. Provide funding for improvements in testing regime.

This testing regime is done by the ministry of health in NZ.

Basically, you need seven dates. And you keep the receipts for all seven, and both you and her sign and date each receipt. And then you submit the relationship request form each with one form of ID and state that you both went on those 7 dates together. It can be done online, and it’s easy.

Economics terminology:

Tobin Tax

Information asymmetry

Market failure

Lemons problem

Rational economic actor

Full information

The ideology used here is neo-classical “microeconomics”.

Fwiw, if I ever sound like a sociopath, it’s because I studied economics!?!?!?! It warps the mind slightly lol.

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A new fun idea, 

Ballot initiative in California

That all manufacturing outsourced to China by corporations registered in California shall have an additional 50% tax added to the cost of goods sold, according to America GAAP. That is, if Apple computers wants to have their microchips manufactured in Taiwan, and their phones glued together in PRC by Foxconn, then they can pay an additional 50% tax on cost of goods sold. Not just the value of work done in mainland China.

The excuse for the is: it is levelling the playing field given the poor record of labour law and environmental standards in China, but the actual reason is to disempower nations who behave badly, by hitting China somewhere it hurts, their wallet. Everybody knows that the Chinese love money more than almost anything else in life. 

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If it were legal to rent wombs (for implanted IVF babies) or better yet, use artificial insemination and rented wombs, then it would improve society. Couples could wait until they were in their mid to late 30s/40s before they have children. Women could make money out of it in their early twenties by renting their womb. And then you don’t have to coerce men and women into silly games of dominance, sex and control to make men get married, and to force women to provide “maintenance sex” and extra fun to make marriage tolerable. But the way, the primary beneficiaries of this system are busybodies who enjoy messing with other people’s lives, nosy people who enjoy snooping no other people, middle aged women who want to feel like they’ve still got it, and mediocre stodgy old(ish) men who are ideologically in support of world “communism”. To legalise womb rental would liberate a lot of people from the coercive social control inherent in the system.

It solves the fertility problem without forcing marriage.

It solves the “once you’re old enough to afford kids then you’re too old to easily conceive”

It solves the problem of having money for young women. They can just make tons of money, and fast.

It decouples marriage and children and custody.

It could actually be massive, huge. And solve so many problems.

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Ps: I am in favour of a democratic society where women retain the capacity for independent action, autonomy, the freedom to make their own decisions when it comes to things like where they will live, where and what they might study, what sort of career they might or might not pursue, who they want to marry (or if they want to marry), and who they want to divorce or break up with etc. How many children they want to have, if any.

Two caveats, there might be “economic incentives” for and against some things. And another point, breaking contracts can sometimes be expensive and have penalties. For example, tax breaks for marriage might still exist, or if you voluntarily enter into “marriage 2.0” and commit adultery, or leave without good cause, then there might be consequences. Or there could (potentially) be a three date rule as a “tobin tax”, or even a 7 date rule.

But the main thing is that I would prefer that they could still do things like get jobs, educations, choose their own husbands, own their own property, take out mortgages, drive cars, divorce drunken, violent wife beaters. And have a boyfriend without having to sign a lifelong death pact, and access basic healthcare, attend school, not be required to wear a burka.

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The purpose of our society is to empower the most horrible middle aged women possible, who will then press gang younger (youngish) women into shagging smelly old men. And it’s also all about getting young women in high school to damage their peers very badly through bullying so that they are broken in for sex work early.

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Universal Suffrage 

Furthermore, never forget that they had universal suffrage in Cambodia from 1955, China from 1949, the USSR from 1933 onwards, and in 1918 Germany onwards (they held regular plebiscites in favour of the Nazis, with universal women’s suffer age; Hitler was very popular with the voting population, especially women). Next, Switzerland managed to get full suffrage… when? Only by 1971.

Other restrictions on voting:

But then again, I think that all Chinese who don’t disavow China, communism and stomp on a photo of Mao, Xi and the Chinese flag should be deported. Even if they’re a citizen. So what do I know. And we should have democratic votes to sack/veto communists who have jobs at universities, blacklisting them from academic employment.

When Chinese men, or women in general, or orientals, feel that their pride is wounded, then they “pack a massive sad”. And so you have to be careful with letting them vote. They call it “face”, or “hell no fury like that of a woman scorned”. They never quite got the memo on pride being one of the seven deadly sins lol.

In Japan they shout “konichiwa kamikaze harikari daisuki kitchigai suppuku” and kill themselves! And in China, they love suicide too, traditionally. See also elixir poisoning, and the ego/mind suicide of Buddhism. Seriously, they adore suicide in Japan. They love it. Love it so much traditionally. Love it. Just read up on suicide culture in Japan. They do poems, wear perfume, wax lyrical about flowers and the impermanence of all good things in life, and then their friend chops off their head. It’s insane.

And also look up my post in “archives one” about elixir suicide.

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Restriction of the franchise

I also think that we should restrict the franchise to men aged 21 to 65 and women aged 28 to 65.

I’m serious about this one.

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More idea for Tobin tax 2.0

Then place restrictions on men aged 50+ and 60+

You can’t have sex with women under 25 if 50+ or 40 if 60+. Don’t forget, all relationships have to get approval after 7 dates. And this is a way to break, disrupt or otherwise disrupt the philosopher-king (aka fae, dregvant) way of life.

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Male Genital Mutilation

The U.S. has a high rate of male circumcision (over 70% historically), much higher than most other Western countries. I relabel it “male genital mutilation”. We should ban male genital mutilation here in New Zealand.

And ban “medical tourism” for male genital mutilation for babies under the age of two years old, if you’re a New Zealand citizen. That is, if you take your infant overseas to have him mutilated (circumcised) and come back to New Zealand, then you’ll be prosecuted. Even if it happened overseas.

Also, ban medical tourism for parent of women under the age of 16 for FGM. And ban it for women themselves aged 16-21, if they’re a New Zealand citizen.

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I put the comment about diet, exercise, Joe Pilates, Ignaz Semmelweis into archive part two.

Link

https://howcommunicatetwo.blogspot.com/2025/07/random-archive-two.html

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I’m just spitballing here, really. It’s nothing fancy, just a random off the cuff take:

The priesthood of the new empire of universities and corporations

The international system of universities makes up a priesthood of knowledge. But they want a monopoly on knowledge, understanding and advice.

They created this thing called the modern corporation.  And you can't have a position of authority in a major corporation unless the international system of universities (the priesthood of knowledge vets you, certified and educates you. Approves of you). They have to approve you for becoming a member of this priesthood.

What else does this priesthood do? Well, they created the "intelligence agency model" where they use intelligence agencies to repress the people of individual nation states (see Hungary, Romania, Russia, MSS in China). Or the CIA represses your nation from afar. Or your own nation is melded into their security about (hi USA from nz). Basically, if you try to become an activist, the system takes you out. Somehow.

And then the academic/corporate/intelligence system puts satellites into the sky, which can prevent you from even thinking the "wrong things". Why? They want to cheat and retain a monopoly. This priesthood of learning, knowledge and wisdom, of understanding, they want to retain a monopoly on thinking in “smart and intelligent ways”. They hate competition. But I'm an economics geek. We hate monopolies (usually). Ahahahahahhaha.

So how about a bit of anti-monopolistic liberalisation!! Ahahahhwhqhwhhahaha /humour..

Is there any place in our society for the likes of Mendel and Faraday? And without them, and men like them, how are we supposed to solve problems as a species? Literally, where would they go? How would they live?

Perhaps we just need a bit of peace and quiet, so that we can start engaging in the improvement of the mind. Perhaps starting with books like...

"The Improvement of the Mind" by Isaac Watts, which was a massive game changer for the great Michael Faraday himself. One of the best physicists the world has ever seen. And maybe we might read the Gathas by Zarathustra, and the books of Ecclesiastes and Proverbs by Solomon, once thought of as the wisest man in the near east. And then we might read some of the works of St Paul and Yeshua (aka, Jesus of Nazareth, also known as the messiah, also known as Christ, about whom the cult of the Nazarene cropped up), so that we might learn how these subversives and his friends created a movement that then undermined and eventually took down the Roman Empire. And maybe read Marcus Aurelius, meditations. And Epictetus.

We might also read (the blurb for) The Empire of Ideas by William C. Kirby, a professor, historian and Sinologist at Harvard University.

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They're dumbing us down. Just like Xi's Dad did prior to the Great Leap Forward and associated death toll.

By the way, the international intellectual patent cartels and copyright cartels and oil cartels are a massive problem. Especially for small to medium sized countries. It would be a pity if we abolished patents, copy rights, and then also considered the possibility of alternative sources of energy (such as manufacturing hydrogen energy using our tremendous supplies of geothermal and hydroelectric energy). Energy is often not about quantity of energy, but more to do with _where_ that energy is and how heavy it is.

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Exercise, movement, and the development of the body

Perhaps along with, and in second place to, to improvement of the mind. There might be a bit of development of the body, and a bit of improvement in coordination, and the ability to move the body. To improve one's capacity for physical movement might be a very worth while activity, along with the improvement of the mind, and the reclamation of basic conversation and restoration of normal (unmediated) human relationships/interactions. 

But at the same time, a kind of bare minimum approach to exercise, health and fitness is okay too (please see elsewhere on my blog for some examples of what I mean).

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This is (of course) downstream of the creation of places of refuge. Places where you can chill. Have a bit of peace and quiet. Places where you can be safe from the "mind rot". Or the mind blank attack. Without places of refuge, peace and quiet, and a bit of rest, relaxation and recreation, how can you hope to engage in the improvement of the mind?

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Romantic Literature in English

Book burnings of Wordsworth, Coleridge, Blake, Byron, Shelley, and Keats! As well as Jane Austen. Kinda joking, kinda not. Ban the English romantics! The romantic movement was a scam.

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The Romantics stressed the importance of the individual, which is why they celebrated subjectivity over reason and rebellion over tradition. They put nature on a pedestal. Fetishising things like trees, sunsets and wilderness. The focussed on emotional sensitivity and sensibility, and the subjective feminine emotional experience. They worried about heights and depth of emotion. And emphasised the importance of the emotional life. They wanted to break the stigmas and customs that controlled people via culture.

Learn about the romantic movement! It sucks. It is genuinely bad.

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Natural Selection

This is a much better sampling of gameplay from Natural Selection than the other videos.

Army of wltrs:

https://youtu.be/KLWPfpi92rs?si=x9vaC3Xy5hk4fc_p

Fananation:

https://youtu.be/JBmFq4DjwQU?si=gF0Mu6aJzUqwBlnQ

Natural Selection Frag Video (by nL radial):

https://youtu.be/G5uqc00yrVI?si=wqegwmWbk1tPgCdx

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There are a few more videos on my YouTube profile. Warning, they’re not really sorted/filtered.

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLhIlPOk_vUD3kjXXEhazb_EldweOdwQts&si=gmciq-yAVk7otIun

There is a full length game (only against bots) on that list, if you want to micro analyse the gameplay.

It’s actually really hard to find good gameplay videos, because the game is long gone, and the demos all have a lot of latency built in. And the graphics aren’t very sharp when you rebuild something from “demos”.

Here is a “boring example” of a game played start to finish as a member of the marine team. It is just against CPU players, and the player is “nothing special”, and kind of a newbie and/or inexperienced. Please treat it as a demonstration of the gameplay mechanics and of the “feel of the game”, not an example of how hectic or challenging it is. It’s a perfectly serviceable example of playing a game of natural selection. The player in question loses, and I think perhaps on purpose.

https://youtu.be/qo3MW2G89Ag?si=WEdFNxHfViFdG0Ok

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I also played a lot of counter-strike and Halo 2. I was the best Halo 2 player I knew when I was young, and I couldn’t find anyone better than me at school. I never entered any Halo 2 tournaments.

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Psychological Profiling

To the CCP agents profiling me (and cia)

If you want to profile me, don't read about or play video games or whatever: instead you might want to do business school for 2-4 years and read 200 business books, and books in business adjacent subjects like economics, and listen to 1000 hours of technology podcasts like TwiT, TwiG, Windows Weekly, Security Now; or 5x5, Dan Benjamin, Merlin Mann (back to work). Or maybe just develop a massive love of books, reading and technology. Or of education itself. My life and health were horrible, so I was reduced to listening to podcasts all day!

I went to business school, I read a ton of books, and I listened to podcasts.

Don't look at things like video games, or sports. Some people have got the wrong idea on that note, focussing on sports and video games. You'll not learn much from those. Maybe just a little bit. Religion is another area worth looking at, if you want to profile me. Reading the Bible once, and maybe attending a Baptist church service at least once or twice would help. Btw, (total tangent here) my lecturer for financial statement analysis was formerly the head of private capital for AMP in NZ (Martin Turner). Oh, and I used to be a massive Christian and also loved Ayn Rand (including her non fiction) and free market economics. Including both Friedman and the Austrian school of economics and I also liked the Ludwig von Mises institute. I even read “Human Action” by Ludwig von Mises twice. That’s a beast of a book.

Begin update.

Martin Turner: Established and led AMP's private equity business in NZ. Invested over NZ$200m in over 20 private equity and venture capital investments. Head of Private Capital for AMP in NZ. Google him. Or look him up on LinkedIn. Linked in link. Link. I learned a metric fuckton from him and his class about pedagogy and how to learn, as well as how to use your personal, individual capacity for “judgement”. He introduced me to the worlds and works of Graham and Dodd, and from that I learned about Buffett. He introduced me to fundamental analysis. His chief tutor lent me books about LBOs, LTCM and Keynes. I learned a lot from his course, ACCY306 (I took a third year course while still in my second year). I learned a lot about “critical thinking” from his course. Martin Turner’s course. I also worked for him briefly, preparing spreadsheets of companies’ financial statements for educational purposes. It was data entry but you had to be able to read a financial statement.

I say this just to lend a little bit of credibility to my academic, intellectual and educational background.

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What else? Watch shows like Black Books, Monty Python or parodies like Hot Shots or Kung Pow. Or read Guards Guards by Terry Pratchett, or the Long Earth, or Douglas Adams. I like comedy! And I like silly humour too, like Anchorman. I like English humour, and silly humour. I like Wodehouse too.

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Lol, are the Chinese are basically being ruled over by our intellectuals and academics!??? As well as our (thoroughly) educated and learned men? They create the context, and China just lives in it???

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I hate makeup

I think that make up looks dumb and I don’t like the chemical smell, or the texture or taste.

That is, if I kiss someone with lipstick or lip gloss on their lips, it is gross. If I kiss someone with foundation on their cheek, it’s gross. If I touch their face with my hand, and there’s makeup on it, it’s gross. If I hug them, and I can smell the make up it is gross. I hate it. Just like I hate a lot of perfumes. Or whatever. And it looks silly. Women look better without make up. Make up is something silly that the culture encourages women to do, or maybe women choose to do it for themselves. Honestly, I don’t know and I don’t care. I don’t know who is responsible or to blame for make up. But I think it looks dumb. But I still think that women should have the right to wear it. It’s okay, it’s their prerogative. I don’t like it though.

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We actually don’t love make up in New Zealand as much as people in other countries. But maybe that’s changing a bit. I’m a little out of touch. Some people wear it, some people don’t.

I think make up is silly American nonsense and I don’t like it. Even a tiny bit of either lipstick or foundation. It’s just horrible American nonsense and rubbish.

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Sigh no more, ladies, sigh no more. 

    Men were deceivers ever, 

One foot in sea, and one on shore, 

    To one thing constant never. 

Then sigh not so, but let them go, 

    And be you blithe and bonny, 

Converting all your sounds of woe 

    Into hey nonny, nonny. 

Sing no more ditties, sing no more 

    Of dumps so dull and heavy. 

The fraud of men was ever so 

    Since summer first was leafy. 

Then sigh not so, but let them go, 

    And be you blithe and bonny, 

Converting all your sounds of woe 

    Into hey, nonny, nonny.

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Blurry photo, I wasn’t well at the time (satellite sickness, or cell tower fever 🤒). At my father’s house, playing at the computer. We had a LAN. I think Andrew and Ben were there. As were Matthew, Jesse, Aaron, Philip, Byron, maybe Nathan. We played Warcraft and Half life. No natural selection, my friends won’t play it with me 😅. This was in late 2007, or early 2008. Somewhere in the vicinity of Christmas. My computer died, motherboard fried or something. I left my computer there for about two months. My mousepad died in the sun. Excuse the potato quality screen, but the price was right. Besides, I had a love of CRT screens and refused to use LCD screens. The latency isn’t good on the LCD.

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Grandpa 

https://catalogue.wcl.govt.nz/cgi-bin/spydus.exe/ENQ/OPAC/BIBENQ/403984081?QRY=MEA01%5C12515937&SORTS=HBT.SOVR&QRYTEXT=Titles%20by%20%27Foster%2C%20Michael%20Whitfield%2C%201932-%27

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Key Aspects of Simulacra

Copy Without an Original: A representation that mimics something that never existed or whose origin has been forgotten.

Stages of Simulacra (Baudrillard):

Faithful Copy: Directly reflects a deep reality (e.g., a realistic portrait).

Distorting Copy: Masks or perverts reality (e.g., an idealized portrait).

Pretends to be Real: Masks the absence of reality (e.g., theme parks like Disneyland's Main Street, U.S.A.).

Pure Simulacrum: Loses all connection to reality, becoming its own autonomous reality (e.g., a hyper-stylized advertisement).

Hyperreality: A state where simulations become more appealing or dominant than reality, creating a world of signs without referents.

Examples:

Theme Parks: Disneyland creates an idealized, fictional America that feels more "real" than actual places.

Social Media: Influencers' curated lives, using filters and editing, present a constructed image rather than an authentic self.

Money: Becomes a mere symbol, valuable only through collective belief, detached from any tangible assets.

I'm adding a point of view:

Celebrities' appearances (both female and male) can sometimes be simulacra. And also music videos. Take a look at Japan, South Korea, or sometimes America.

Especially Japan and South Korea.

https://youtu.be/9HKbo1FstOE?si=0WwSThYIqru0zxcv

https://youtu.be/AE_lJyxT9fA?si=BpypabZ9p0jnc2ue

https://youtu.be/lkHlnWFnA0c?si=4wwk7BkK4-zFO8g2

https://youtu.be/bw9CALKOvAI?si=iOrOd0ftZf6qgmD_

https://youtu.be/nVCubhQ454c?si=EQPJ2kBxj1dounxQ

https://youtu.be/eVli-tstM5E?si=bXVd9C9f0EeMYU-j

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If you value your intellect

If you have a mind, and you value your intellect. If you want to be able to think, reason, judge and consider things yourself. If you don’t want your mind to be damaged, and you don’t want to have it harassed and interfered with by these satellites and cell towers and other electromagnetic technologies, perhaps you can shelter an entire neighbourhood with this technology. And if hiding your whole neighbourhood using faraday containers, or similar, to protect and preserve your mind isn’t a good enough reason to do it, then I don’t know what is.

Besides, empires rise and empires fall, regimes come and go, technologies morph change, and evolve over time, and nations and states and their leadership are always in flux. Models of how societies are arranged and governed (corporations, academic institutions, politicians, bureaucrats, militaries, wealth) are aren’t set in stone, and change fairly often. So why shouldn't we, the people of nations other than America, China and Russia shelter ourselves and our minds?

Note: this faraday container thing is still mostly untested, so it is important to manage expectations. Still yet to be proven to be good and suitable.

Uhhh, I’m still just spitballing ideas, brainstorming use cases, and conducting a skunkworks. We still need to see how well this technology works, and how affordable and effective it is.

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Ozymandias

I met a traveller from an antique land

Who said: Two vast and trunkless legs of stone

Stand in the desart. Near them, on the sand,

Half sunk, a shattered visage lies, whose frown,

And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command,

Tell that its sculptor well those passions read

Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,

The hand that mocked them and the heart that fed:

And on the pedestal these words appear:

"My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings:

Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair!"

No thing beside remains. Round the decay

Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare

The lone and level sands stretch far away.

— Percy Shelley, "Ozymandias", 1819

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Please see this as just a few ideas… nothing more, nothing less.

Women and self governance, adulthood, responsibility, accountability and autonomy

Ideally, I would like women to be viewed as and treated as fully fledged adults. I would like for them to be able to make their own decisions in life, I would like for them to be responsible for their own actions and to be considered accountable both for their actions and the kind of person they are. I would like it very much if their capacity for self governance and right to self governance were similar to that of a man. 

For example, I would like women to retain access to education, employment, voting, public houses (bars), credit, banking, mortgages, doctors, the property market, lawyers, courts, getting a drivers license, driving their own cars, making their own immigration decisions. I would like for them to be able to start businesses, borrow money, make their own investment decisions, manage farms and raise children. I would like them to have the ability to make their own decisions when it comes to marriage and divorce. They can get married if they want to, and they can involve a church or a religion if they would like to. And make their own decisions when it comes to religion and other matters of belief. I think they should be capable of joining organisations and entering into things like religious orders on their own. They should be capable of joining unions and going on strike. And they should be capable of swearing oaths or making affirmations in court (this is a genuinely controversial point). And they should be capable of making vows, entering into agreements, signing contracts and being held accountable for those. That one is also very controversial, for reasons I can’t explain (for example, in China, even the men don’t honour agreement and contracts). I would like battery to remain a crime within relationships.

They should have rights and responsibilities similar to those of men.

That was all a pretty tentative statement. It's not set in stone.

I don’t necessarily want men to have to babysit women for the next 1000 years!

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Clarification:

Boxing

I did boxing some years ago, and I was basically competent.

It's not a big deal.

Other people want to make it a big deal, but I don't.

I got some experience in both boxing and kickboxing over the course of about two years. I did two terms of Muay Thai, and about 8-9 months in boxing. Also, I worked hard to build up my cardiovascular fitness, strength, and coordination, because it is a sport.

It's not a big deal.

Other people want to make it a big deal, but I don't to make it into a big deal.

Talking about boxing can make someone seem like a "try hard". And I prefer to be a little bit self deprecating.

Humility used to be a core value of mine in many aspects of life (genuine humility, as opposed to false modesty).

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This holds (kind of) true for mainland China as well. Just look at their novels prizes. Only three of them, and two of them are useless prizes in worthless categories. And the only one in physiology/medicine is only slightly better than a participation trophy to me. If you need a benchmark to compare it to, look at Australia’s Nobel prize winners. Or look at Canada, Belgium, Austria, Hungary, Denmark and Norway. And Japan.

This next comment is ripped straight from some forums:

While I'm not going to say that Singaporeans are entirely incapable of innovation possessing the great and creative qualities to qualify for a Nobel Prize, it's our inherent cultures that make it so difficult to freely express our ideas in the society we live in. 

If I may point out the majority of the population here, we Chinese may have had lots of inventions, but we hardly know who the inventors are. Maybe we have highly romanticized and fictionalized tales of the invention of paper, but nobody knows who the heck figured gunpowder, silk, the bank note, the printing press, or the compass out, et cetera ad infinitum. That's because our culture that dates back millenia has always been obsessing over scholarship and education. Scholars that take and pass the imperial exams become government officials and generals, and one may note that the only remembered inventor of paper was a high-ranking courtier of the Emperor's court. The rest of Chinese society was considered too insignificant to remember, no matter how brilliant their inventions were. 

So there you have it. All along, we Chinese have always placed a very low priority in our culture on the innovative and off-the-beaten-track qualities that encourage invention and innovation, preferring the safer path of rote learning and spoonfeeding in education. That's why no matter how much money nations like China or Singapore could throw at our scholars, we'd never have a Nobel Prize - because our societies tend to suppress the factors and qualities that are needed to earn the Nobel Prize in the first place. The casual observer will note that Nobel Prize winners of Asian descent were either born in the West, or moved to the West at very early stages of their lives.

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Chinese Nobility and the Quest for Immortality 

Also known as, the tragedy of Chinese civilisation

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Edit: I am lost for words. Lost for words.

What a tragic nation. A tragic people and a tragic nation. Deserving of so much pity.

They sought salvation through the consumption of elixirs made from lead and mercury and deadly mushrooms, and killed themselves again and again.

They did it to achieve metaphysical goals, and also to engage in spiritual/religious experiences, I.e. visions and hallucinations. And for drug related euphoria. But they did it to make their corpse in-corruptible. That is, to achieve salvation beyond death. Like the pharaoh of Egypt, they wanted to preserve their bones forever. But they started mummifying themselves before death.

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This is well worth reading. I read every word. I just don’t understand how anything this awful exists. If you have a Christian background, you might really benefit from this. They did awful things to themselves. For “salvation”.

People like this are worthy of pity. But I’ll explain more later. It’s worse than you can imagine!!!

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_alchemical_elixir_poisoning

See the section: hypothetical explanations, and read all the way to the end of it. And then start from the start of the pages even if you think you know it. It is mind bendingly insane. It blows my mind.

A lot of people know it, but every day new people are born. And there are 17 year olds who have no idea!

“Despite common knowledge that immortality potions could be deadly, fangshi and Daoist alchemists continued the elixir-making practice for two millennia.”

"It is almost ludicrous to assume that a Taoist (commoner or emperor) could have died from accidental elixir poisoning"

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People like this are worthy of pity. They did awful things out of fear, dogma, and because of superstition.

But you must also understand that a society this damaged will produce people with deep and all pervasive inferiority complexes, who then sublimate that into feelings of resentment towards the outside world. They are hurt so badly emotionally by the idea that maybe their culture is so screwed up that they want to show themselves as “good enough”, or worse “I am as good as you” (the attitude from Screwtape gives a toast, cs Lewis). And they may do horrible things, just to feel like they’re good enough.

They may take their own feelings of perceived inferiority, and turn them outwards to prevent their feeling bad about themselves. It happens. It’s awful.

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Sometimes I am just trying to educate the general public, who can read this blog.

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I am strongly opposed to the death penalty because of this book:

Capital Punishment: The Inevitability of Caprice and Mistake - Charles Black

It's a good book. It is well worth reading.

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I once won the award for the most humorous speech in the combined 3rd and 4th form speech contest. Which was an extremely important and interesting thing to have happened. 

The topic of my speech was “for every animal you don’t eat, I’ll eat two”. It was a humorous diatribe against vegetarianism. It was a shameless rip off of an article from a website known as the greatest page in the universe, by Maddox.

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Matthew Perry became a Christian, and then they killed him. Probably. I think. Death by ketamine in a hot tub.

Chris Farley was a Christian too.

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Women might be the best target market for this product

It's like atlas shrugged, but instead of all of the entrepreneurs and CEOs leaving "shrugging", it's all of the women trafficked into sex work who leave (that is, sluts/skanks and any women who don't want to be sex workers). For all I know, women might be the biggest user of and fan of faraday fortresses (aka faraday barns). And once they have a taste of hiding out (even just for a few days or weeks), they will turn against the system completely and just hide permanently. They might hate it more than anyone, and they have just had their hatred of it suppressed.

And if all of the "fun time naughty girls" are gone, the system won't have a way to pay off the dodgy guys. And all of these women who seek shelter will communicate via the internet, and create their own (online) subculture. And they will also find ways to support themselves financially. Possibly by starting businesses, working from home or seeking donations.

With a decent sized installation, you could turn it into a family home. Or just turn it into a flatting situation, with about 5 (people) women to a flat. That might be a great (affordable) way to do it. And that might be the perfect scale. Or a landlady and 4-5 boarders.

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Activists

And also, it might be ideal for political activists within parties. Like if you have the “freedom and prosperity party” of a place like Bosnia, Montenegro, Germany, Poland, Hungary, Guatemala or Kenya. Then they might just decide that the top 100-200 activists their party have to live in one. Maybe not all of the politicians (most maybe), but the major activists and parliamentary researchers. And then they can all talk on Skype. And at least have proper conversations with one another. They all move into Faraday barns/fortresses, along with their families. And then also…. They arrange to telecommute into parliament, so that they never, ever have to leave the apartment or house.

Ahahaha, just spitballing. But then the women who sheltered themselves become an interest group: ie, those who are living in fortresses. Those who still own their own brains. And they start the “anti stupidity party”. And get 20% of the vote. Pushing through a 30 date Tobin tax by referendum. And you have to go on thirty dates, keep receipts or evidence as well as records of each date, and submit the evidence to the msd (ministry of social development) for approval. And once approved, you get the both of you added to the registers of legal sexual relationship, this record is made public, and you both get the green light to have sex. Thirty dates and a public register. This breaks the system completely. And it prevents our society from becoming and remaining a gerontocratic idiocracy. That is a society characterised by elderly people governing, and their dumbing everyone down for ease of governance, so as to protect their interest group known as swingers, wealth accumulators, nihilistic polluters, child sex traffickers etc. Because the only way the fae/dreg lifestyle works is if no one can talk or think. They need dunderheads. They dumb is down to make it easier to govern. No one is allowed to talk, and proper talking makes you smart, and there is bad access to information. But you need good information and smart people and smart conversations to be able to have good problem solving!! This whole segment was throw away bollocks. Just totally off the cuff, please treat it accordingly.

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New idea for a law.

A petition that “men over the age of fifty five should not be allowed to sleep with women under the age of 50, excepting in cases of marriage, and that this be made into law”. It defunds the system; which is maintained by bribing wealthy powerful men into silence with young women. Break it. It breaks the "chivalric" code. Strike the root - slay the beast. Medieval chivalry isn’t what you think. It was a scam. And a way to increase the prestige of the wealthy and powerful, and let them gain access to the bodies of young (usually married) women, and avoid being smashed to pieces by the common-folk, they do this by pretending that the wealthy and powerful were more honourable than they actually are. Whereas old fashioned Christianity was a great way to guilt the wealthy and powerful to stop doing horrible things. Sorry, that wasn’t well written.

It's just brainstorming.

It’s criminology plus economics, with a bit of sociology.

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The next idea is that voting be limited to people aged 21 to 65. This is because those over 65 are overly concerned with their "accumulated wealth" and the value of their pension funds. They have an incentive to push for inappropriate policies. They can't work!! And they're are the biggest welfare beneficiaries in the world (except for corporations). Take a look at their healthcare expenses as a proportion of the budget though, along with the universal superannuation pension scheme. It's complicated though.

Keep universal pension around though. And ask yourself, who is it in New Zealand who most needs to keep housing prices propped up, instead of deflating prices like Japan did. The young or the old?

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To be honest, I post too much stuff.