History: I tried to reject them!

 In the past:

I have been told that the thing you need to do is to reject the women. And that it is all about the women.

But I actually did reject the women. I turned them down, many times.

They told me that if I said that I didn't want sex or didn't want women.the whole scenario would be over.

And so I did.

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Define it clearly...

They wanted me to say the precise words, "I don't want sex". Like, I don't want sex. Period.

But I have internal prohibitions* (moral, mental, cultural, and intellectual) against making false statements inside my own head (or out loud).

And so I didn't want to say the words "I don't want sex". Instead, I said the words, "I don't want sex with _your_ women". I said it with mental speech. And I said it many, many times.

I also told them that someday in the semi distant I will probably find a girlfriend of my own, and so it would be a false statement to say that, "I don't want sex".

But they didn't let me end the game.

They didn't let me end the game.

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I think that they had wanted to de platform me from access to woman in general, forever. Or something?

But the way they do it is confusing.

Lawyer:

I think that my "lawyer" Sarah's has a lot to do with it. It may have been her idea. By the way, I used to have reveries about her where I said to myself (in private) that "even if we were Christians and married, I wouldn't bother to have sex with you". This is because I felt that in spite of looking perfectly normal that she totally lacked sex appeal and was unattractive. Possibly because of her demeanour and vibe and bearing and attitude. She also has freckles and a weird voice.

And so maybe she has it in for me…

Ps: she is a feminist and a Wiccan.

Note: And she came fourth academically in our year at our school. Although I would probably be gracious and say that she came third equal? Maybe she is bitter about that too? Or weird about it? Sometimes people see you as competition? Or envy gets to them? Or your (apparent) arrogance bothers them? Or your carefree lackadaisical attitude bothers them?

She was in my accounting class, and I think maybe my economics class too (maybe)?

A little gawky. And too tall.