Open Letter

Update: Friday, 8th August, 2025

Between Bluff and when I wrote this letter (14th March to 8th May-ish) I experienced an enormous amount of physical mistreatment, a great deal of pain and suffering, and incurred severe and lasting physical damage.

Exact definitions can be tricky within this philosophical (semantic/philological/linguistic/etymological) environment.

I am planning to write a better letter at some point. I am keeping this letter here anyway.

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Note: as of 9 July, I might have to redo this one, it really is a mess. I might just do a total replacement.

I can explain a few things:

1. I suffered excruciating pain (over and over again)

2. They also caused me significant physical harm (again and again). They hurt me badly, over and over again

3. There were also "noise makers". They do hurt a bit, but aren’t excruciatingly painful, nor are they causing massive damage. But they do add up, and they do take it out of you pretty badly. They do camouflage the other more serious ones a bit? A noise maker is one that makes you scream loudly, but isn't enormously painful. They blast you to make you scream. [Edit: The “noise makers” actually really do hurt a lot, much of the time. There is pain AND you are directly induced to scream. It is just that they are tame compared to the really awful incidents from Paul and Modi.]

Other:

4. Maybe swap out the first sentence “Paul Solt and these who collectively ally with him are dealing out a "politically serious" amount of physical harm to me. 

With, “Paul Solt, Xi Jinping and their associates (and/or comrades, if you prefer) have been dealing out a highly significant (aka, not immaterial) amount of physical harm to me. Over the last nine weeks I have taken a bit of damage…”

(Maybe also mention that gw bush hurt me very badly as well, on on occasion. And a few other people, such as modi (who later apologised, after some discussion) and John Keys wife.)

Associates? Why are they associates? Well, they are all a part of, or otherwise affiliated with the “billion dollar syndicate”

Maybe substitute in the term “no laughing matter” instead of “politically serious”. Maybe swap in the term: the level of physical harm/damage is “not immaterial”. The term material/immaterial is an accounting concept.

I swapped in that sentence, to improve clarity on 25th July

5. I did get damaged so badly between bluff and here (over weeks later/ish) that I became unable to even walk to the shops and back?! I lost basic functionality. It was damage, not "bat bolar".

6. The sleep deprivation really is quite serious. I usually get maybe between 1-3 hour of sleep per night since getting back to 73 Hutt Road

7. The article isn't very well written, but I am leaving it here for you to read if you want to. There are better articles. You are welcome to skip it. But many people might find it useful.

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Old version

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Open letter:

[[Nine weeks ago I could go for walks and jump off of picnic tables. Now I can’t even jump off of my deck or walk to the supermarket and back]]

[[There’s been a lot of screaming]]

[[There’s been a lot of sleep deprivation]]

Over the past 9 weeks (since bluff):

Paul Solt and these who collectively ally with him are dealing out a "politically serious" amount of physical harm to me. Paul Solt, Xi Jinping and their associates (and/or comrades, if you prefer) have been dealing out a highly significant (aka, not immaterial) amount of physical harm to me. Over the last 9 weeks I have taken a bit of damage. 9 weeks ago I could walk down the street comfortably, jump off of picnic tables, bar tables, take a taxi ride, take a flight etc. I could jump off of fences (ish). ((Walking down the street was nice, and comfortable, and beneficial back then)).

 

I've taken a bit of damage since then. Modi hurt me badly twice. Xi Jinping damaged me badly over time, I called him a terrorist etc. My father keeps on blasting me to make me scream. Some of the screams are induced but not painful. Sometimes I scream because I am in pain. Some of the induced screams camouflage the screams caused by pain. I can be broken down to the point where I can be caused to emit a piteous moan at will. There’s been a lot of screaming. I keep on getting hurt. I am being broken down physically. The torso has lost a lot of integrity.

[just for the sake of clarification, I’m in a ton of pain there. There are screams of pain and anguish. And I really mean pain and anguish. It’s horrible. Modified]

 

[I was in excruciating pain] - Winston peters told me to add this

[also, the pain was in inside my torso, where my organs are]

[When I was tortured by my father, and also by Modi*, I was in excruciating pain. The excruciating pain was in my internal organs.]

[new update 2nd June: when my father tortured me, he used the same method as Modi (see letter to Larry Page) but he repeated it again and again. He inflicted the same kind of pain/torture, but did it repeatedly. It was excruciatingly painful.]

Some of what I have experienced could be described as science fiction body horror torture*.

There is a preschool next door and a car yard over the street. The screams are loud enough to be heard  in both locations when the door is open.

I have experienced a fair bit of sleep deprivation, and keep getting bothered during the day.

Now I cannot jump of off tables, fences etc. I cannot jump off my deck safely. Walking to the shops isn't possible because it would munt me a bit. It would cause me “massive abrade” to even walk to the bottle shop and back. My body is screwed. I haven't had a shower in about a fortnight. I can't wash my hair. I can't lift my arms properly. I'm getting weaker.

*some of the body crush/squash stuff could be described as body horror

 

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I haven't had much rest lately. I am badly sleep deprived. I usually get only a couple of hours sleep (?) idk. I don't get much time without interruption. Usually stuff going on most of the day. Seldom get any rest. I keep on getting interrupted. Haven't had long to myself to rest eyes closed. They bother me almost constantly.

 

Note: some of the fear of "organism under threat" was used as “dread torture” yesterday, I was screaming

[[paul now accepts that it was torture]]

Current version is about 8 May

Modified again at about 28th may

*modi later apologised etc